Draco's lack of a life

2010-03-04T23:49:00.002+08:00

i can feel another wave of emo coming my way...
i can feel her dark hands creeping over my mind...
i can feel it all falling apart in front of my eyes...
i can feel the hate building up inside of me...

oh what will be come of me???
my existence in fading once again... and i dunno what the signs around me are saying my i don't like how my mind is understanding these signals... god save me from what i don't wanna become... the days of looking and now working with people that will not help themselves and keep making life hard for those around them... this i cannot stand... what am i working so hard for??? i know its my nature but its slowly killing my in my mind and body... soon i will just burn out and fall apart in front of them... i silently cry out for help as well as a little attention but no one hears them... for they are hidden under a mask of happiness... will she help me remove this mask and show them what the real me is like under it??? she slowly is coming back and flooding my mind with thoughts of hate and anger... but i am en bracing them for i dunno what else to do... one phase came up yesterday while eating out at macs...

i only loved people, but no one has loved me back... i dunno how true it is but i honestly feel that i am that way...

this seems like a monthly thing... waves of emo-ness...

for now, wait for sunday to get unicorn gundam??? WHY WAS I SO LATE... NOW NO MORE LIMITED ED ANYMORE... AHHHH

2010-02-07T02:14:00.002+08:00

happy birthday to me i guess... but this years its not so happy

what drives a man to book out of camp at 1am to get home??? what drives a man to do unexplained thing bring more work to himself for on reason??? what drives a man to look back at the past year and ask WHAT THE F*** HAVE I BEEN WORKING SO HARD FOR???

well... its seems that i have been given the admin spec post in camp [the dream of many but not mine] and the lazy bum of the company gets the more important role of section commander... i can't take it that i worked so damn hard during the period i am in the coy and i'm given this f***ed up role that puts all my suffering in the pass 8 months to waste... even enduring the nagging and stupidy of that damn SSG fighting his favoritism and hate to get to where i am now... and now i can put all that training to waste by being given the post to stay in the office doing admin work and getting F***ED by my CSM... WHY did this happen to me??? is it cause i used up all my good luck for my life??? is it cause i'm just f***ed up??? is it cause i am inferior to that lazy bum??? is it cause i'm useless??? whatever the reason, its the sad fact... suck thumb again??? maybe... F***!!!!!

just to note, i only post when i'm emo... so to make it clear, my life is not all emo... only some times...

whatever...

2010-02-01T21:03:00.001+08:00

i pass my basic theory test!!!! thats all i wanna say really... other then i'm havingfun in camp and turning the big 20 in 6 days... damn i feel old

see what i mean??? haiz

2010-01-01T01:51:00.003+08:00

happy 2010...

now i post before sleeping knowing that i'm a complete losser that can't get what he wants and get hated my his peers. an unsocial freak that tries too hard to get along with others while keeping a high level of pride thats un-needed. someone who in truth is a very lonely guy that really just wants friends that stick by him and sometimes cries out for attention...

thats what i found out about myself over the last few mins of 2009... but then who really reads this and cares??? not those i care about or those i targetr this too... in fact its those that i can't give 2 hoots about who read this... oh how pitiful i am... cying in self pity...

happy 2010 btw and i hope i get the perfect grade wing zero custom i want so badly... cause material items are the only wants that i can get...

whatever... time to sleep... come selena

2009-12-26T02:09:00.003+08:00

i'm alive...

well not really... its a lonely x'mas and i spent the night watching something i'm still amazed a watched...

well, i'm in 6SIR now after passing out form SISPEC... nothing much has changed but i can see myself becoming more open to others??? i'm not sure about that but it seems to be... well, life is still as it is, looking at those blessed with more then me with a simple smile on my face and pains in my heart. is it normal? i ask myself... i'm sure others feel the same way right? but then leh, maybe i'm just craving for stuff i can never hope to have. again i look at the circle around me and i see that i have sure a weak link with the world... am i really not worth knowing? maybe. maybe i'm just demanding too much from the world and myself. i ahve to take this idea out of my head and do something... i guess. nothing will get do if i just lay there in bed and think... one problem i see is that what ever i do, the choices i make is totally different from the main body's ideas. thus leaving me out of many key events... is it truly my fault? or must i bead my ways to suit others even if i myself find no joy in it. i cannot stand this weak link with the world anymore, but there is nothing i can do about it. the web formed is too strong ot break into. the world is somehow againist me in my choices. i can't express myself to others without a problem. can't even carry out a normal presenting of a gift. i can just look down on myself and sia at the worthless-ness that is me. i no longer know where this post is going but the ranting will carry on. i dunno what others see of me, somethings they give me this look of confusion or disgust that i can't think nothing of. sometimes they say things that really hit a core in me. my efforts are not enough to be accepted or even made known? i'll just leave it at that, there is no point loking into this anymore than i have already. all i can do now is look into the future and hope for the best...

to all those that have known me during the course of your lifes, i thank you for allowing me to exist within you even if its for a short while. even though its kinda late... merry X'mas...

2009-09-27T10:51:00.002+08:00

after my BSLC and 5 weeks of ASLC then i come update this dead blog... not that bad lah

well, life has been bad going to worse at sispec... my coy has been giving alot of problems to me and my camp mates... the only thing thats pulling me along is that my bunkmates are a great bunch of people and it would sux to go on without them...

whatever... nothing to write... back to FF dissidia

2009-06-18T21:38:00.002+08:00

its been a long time since i blogged, partly due to time lack and partly due to the no mood to blog...

well, BMT is over, for a week now[plus a few days] i made it through with not much but a few wounds mentally and stories to last a long time. i must, stop telling myself that my section mates do not dislike me for reasons unknown... its over now and i most likely will not meet up with them anymore... well, i will be lying if i said that i was not to blame, my only saving grace is that at least not all of them were anti-me... only the Strong will ones that lead others... but what can i do??? spending 2 years in CJC has trained me for this kinda stuff... at least its over, and at least its only my section... this brings back an old statement i made last year...[ the more you get to know me, the more you will come to hate me] which seems to prove true again in BMT... i can only pray that this will not prove true for the one i treasure...[but it seems it already is coming true]

another point to note about my return to singapore is that i have gotten a new blade...goldion crusher ver 2.0... thought i will not be fencing for a very long time, its good to know that i can pick up the blade and fight it out when needed... oh i do miss my Jrs so very much... and i couldn't meet up with them during this block leave...haiz

one more thing that i have been spending my free time doing now is reading twilight... which i must say is sometimes a waste of time, when i degrades into a stupid love story where the two are just talking to and about each other... but then some parts are in fact nice... like the history and the constant danger the chars faces... but i still can't believe that i'm reading it... damn WC go interest me... haha

posting comes out tomorrow and i will see if my 2 months at BMT was worth it or not... for now, slack until i cannot slack anymore...HAHAHAHAHA

2009-04-26T15:00:00.002+08:00

back from that island off singapore... and i must say, its quite a fun experience... just that i miss alot of things found in singapore but not there...

i miss updated newspaper
i miss my grandma's tea
i miss freedom
i miss sleeping late
i miss waking up late
i miss ANIME
i miss my bed
i miss talking about non-army stuff
i miss people outside of the island
i miss good food
i miss slacking
i miss hair
i miss drawing
i miss reading
i miss free time
i miss talking to other people
i miss games
i miss sleep
i miss sweets
but what i miss abit more then the rest, women... i can't denine it

but there are some stuff i can't believe i am doing after coming out fot these 48hours...
i can't believe my craving for chocolate[i used to dislke them]
i can't believe how nice shopping centers are
i can't believe how nice air-con feels
i can't believe how white some people are

i'll be gone for another 2 more weeks, have fun... haha
time to think of an idea again... time given, 2 weeks... gg

2009-04-10T22:45:00.002+08:00

i will most likely not blog about the prawning trip today cause i have no time... but i was great, i learnt much from the talk cock session following it...

Now that this is the last post before I enter army and can’t touch this for 2 weeks maybe more, I wanna give thanks to the people that made a difference in my life… here goes nothing…

Mr. Augustine Chan… thanks for being more of a friend than a teacher… you were great
Ashley… thanks for being the way you are… all the way my gay friend
Cheryl… thanks for the many fun matches we had…I will be back for more
Chris… thanks for teaching me and helping me in my A’s
Coach… thanks for being like a parent figure and for all the thing you taught me…
CJC fencing… thanks for the great friends
Daniel… thanks for being someone I can talk to and spent great times with… too bad no more gaming for now
Debbie… thanks for being so friendly to someone like me
Derrick… thanks for the many talks we had… discoveries are many with you around
Didi… thanks for bring my great big bro
Edward… thanks for the many “enlightening” facts of life…
Edwin… thanks for the matches we had, carry on the meng style… thanks for the phone
Mr. Eugene yeow… thanks for being a great bio teacher
Family… thanks for being the way you are
FM fencer… thanks for being like a 2nd family
GY… thanks for the great times we had… keep on the GAY spirit
Hsuehyung… thanks for all the wisdom on games and anime…thanks for the many hours of MHF2G
Ing Hian… thanks for 6 months of hell… will not forget it
Jia Fu… thanks for being the joke that you are… hope to see you in camp
Joanne… thanks for being an irreplaceable friend
Joash… thanks for being with me all the way to the end… my good friend
Mr. Jonatan tan… thanks for being a great teacher as well as a great friend
Joseph… thanks for being with me in this last month...it’s all your fault
Jun Jie [BHSS]… thanks for being a great brother
Kai Wen… thanks for tell us so much about the history of cjc fencing... you rock
Rishi… thanks for supporting me in year 2… friends like you are rare to find
Qing Yuan... thanks for being there to help everytime... thanks for being a great friend
Tsai… thanks for the jokes many other random stuff that only you can do
VJC fencers... thanks for the great time spent
YC… thanks for carrying the soul underhand… teach it well… all the best

As I leave my house off to the unknown island… I will miss so much, so many things…
I will never forget, the ones I love
I will never forget, the things I treasure
I will never forget, the great time I spent with friends
I will never forget, the pains others have dealt onto me
I will never forget, the joys others have given me

With this, I wish myself all the best, and a farewell to all… for a while

2009-04-08T23:36:00.003+08:00

today marks the last time i fence before army... i must say, fencing is the one of the few things that i have that keeps me from becoming a hikki...

those few hours spent down at fm with friends and jrs really do allow my mind to relax from the emo-ness and everyday problems of life... also, i learn some stuff from them everytime i go down... and now taking up foil, the nights at fm become even more fun, the foil people are more crazy then the epee bunch... the sad thing is that i will notbe able to fence for the next 3 odd months due to BMT... but then some NS money will be going into it for equippment and new blade... i'm so glad i joined fencing, cause without that, i would not have met so many intedresting and great friends... knowing me, i would not have such a social circle without it... i truly am greatful

now that NS is just 2 days away, i'm kinda scared about the experience i will have in it... will it be like school again??? will that shit happen all over again??? will these 2 years be another living hell??? questions i ask myself sometimes about this future...i am kinda happy that the day i book in i will be alone as my timing is totally different from the others in my class going in the same day... lets hope i don't meet any of them in my company

2009-04-01T23:05:00.003+08:00

Today, i morn for my epee... the good girl gave it her all and passed on today at FM... i will never forget you...

after taking all that i lashed out on others and giving me that nice little curve... she went off with a bang after going over the edge again... haiz... i will miss her and her curves... no other epee can replace her in my heart... cause she is my brithday present last year from a friend after my last epee broke...

name: Goldion Crusher

competitions:

A divs 2008 team

FM open

selangor open

many a FM epee nights

many a CJC training

attacks:

soul underhand

overkill

execution

greatest achievement:

12 points off Amir[malaysia top fencer]

not once fail the blade tests[unlike the last one]

to the CJC people who fell under her and learnt from her, to YC and edwin who were insired by her and picked up french grips, to everyone else at fm who she fenced and had a great time with... and to coach who fixed her up... thanks

2009-03-19T22:42:00.002+08:00

after fencing last night and getting home damn late... i woke up at 1215 today... that's the latest ever i woke up... damn...

today was spent looking at the uni courses that i wanna take which took up quite a lot of time...

more of selangor post on day 3

Day 3… 15th march

Marc’s alarm woke us up and we freshen up for the competition ahead… going down for breakfast gave me a shock to see the girls who overslept the day before down there the earliest…nothing much happened in breakfast and we packed up and left for the competition venue...

Mans epee was up first and when I was the polls, I was shocked; the person I don’t wanna fence from CJC is in my polls… AHHHHHH… that remained until the CJC people came [they were almost late] and somehow someone’s name was not in and they had to redo the polls, now I’m with Aaron... YAAAA… than somehow there is another redo and I’m with YC… great… in my polls was a Malaysia Nat fencer, jonna, YC, another Singapore fencer, one of the old guys who came down for FM open and me… its gonna be a tough fight… my first match was with jonna being the first time I fence him, I was kinda scared, but I think that day he was off form and I beat him, same for YC and the other sing fencer… next was the Malaysia Nat fencer whom I loss to 4-5 but it was a fun match… I do miss the screams Nat fencers give out when they loss points to no name fencers like me, this guy did scream like the Malaysia Nat fencer from last year… and old guy was last and I must say he put up a real fight, compared to FM open, he has improved quite a lot… back then he was an easy match, now it’s a little harder… but I made it through my polls with 4 wins and a loss…

The other polls went on as I waited for the results of the round robins to be posted, this was after all the male epee finish fencing, female foil and males sabre finish their round robins which I must say with only 7 strips, took a damn long time… when the results did come out, I was ranked no 13th[how lucky] and guess what, I by passed the round of 64= more waiting… in total, I waited form 10am++ to 3pm close to 4pm for my match with S.yeah…

Round of 32, the match that people say I sure win, which I really hate cause these kind of thing cannot confirm one… anyway, the match was the classic he attack and I reach out to take points off, many points were gotten this way, as well as some soul underhand and I must say, a failed execution which ended up with a nice kick in the air when I wanted to take a step forward, the point still got in but it was DAMN funny… in the end it was a 15-4 win for me going into the round of 16… watching my match, I felt that I was an asshole towards to end…. But what the hack, it was fun

Next match, round of 16 against GY from CJC, a match that I didn’t really like cause I sometimes cannot get his fencing style… but still must fight in this CJ-exCJ match… it was really close in the beginning until I got the lead and the gap widen to my victory at 15-12… GY was good, I must say, my soul underhand can’t really get him and the execution is unless and so is the overkill… I think in the end my reach killed him… oh whatever, it was a nice match and I enjoyed it… what I didn’t enjoy is the wait I had to have before the match, another hour long wait… all the time I was really hungry as I didn’t want to eat lunch, later to all comes back out in the match… so fighting hunger and sleepy-ness, I waited until GY’s name was called and I jumped for joy and got to the piss to see that it’s not him name, it just sounds like it and the announcer pronounced it like GY’s name… more waiting… during this period, the stuff that fought off the boredom was all the other FM fencers who were out of the competition joking around as well as the VJC people telling me that I can beat GY hands down… ah the pressure…

The round of 8 was against the top Malaysia Nat fencer Amir… aka. Sick flick… I dunno my mindset at the point in time but it was along the lines of have fun and survive… the FM fencers behind me cheering for Amir were not helping… but I must win their cheers over with my fencing which I did and got 12 points off him… yes I loss but it was a damn fun match and Amir is a very nice guy with great sportsmanship… at that point in time, the whole FM team was waiting for me and my match as I was the last person left in the competition and the bus waits for the last man before leaving for the hotel… after the match, and going back to the hotel, we had a big 2 match in the bus, when I deal the cards, Joseph got a good hand… this is what happened

Joseph: WA, such a hand, I loss ah, I chop off my balls
Everyone: you say one ah…
[Game start, marc won]
Me: Joseph, chop off your balls
Joseph: ha-ha, I don’t have balls

Right, and after than he never got the end of the no balls joke… we got back to the hotel, freshen up and went to some western cafe place for dinner just across the road from the hotel, that’s where the interesting talk with Edward and plans for the night starts… the gum gum gum joke kept us laughing on the way back and to the after hours events that I cannot talk about, group drinking in the room and thierry’s sick thought of using the taser… when some of them were a little high and going a little off the hook, we ended and went off for other stuff, after that’s done, supper[at 4am] and back to my room to see someone sleeping on my bed and Willie missing. In case Willie were to return at night from god knows what, I decided to sleep on the chair, it sounded like a good idea at first, but then the coldness of the room made me unable to sleep and the chair is a bad place the sleep on. So I went on the floor and slept with my long pants as blankets [bad idea again]. Than its hack Willie and sleep on his bed which was missing the pillow. The only reason I got to sleep was that I was so damn tired and couldn’t care anymore…

2009-03-17T16:15:00.004+08:00

OMG... its the 100th post... i have never thought that this blog will grow so much and survive so long... and for the 100th post, i have my selangor open post about the stuff that happened there that can be said

I’m back from Malaysia with many stories that can’t be spoken and new experience that are priceless…

Day one… 13th march… [Friday the 13th]

After fencing on wed and Thursday, my fencing stuff was not really ready for packing the night before and thus I spent the morning packing for the trip that I will be going for the day itself… talk about last min packing… after that’s done, I had lunch and went down to Newton circle to meet up with the others.. But it was freaking raining… so I could not walk down to take the 167 there [saving me money] and I had to take 163 change to 162 to get to Newton circle… WA… Friday the 13th really bad luck leh…after reaching and waiting for everyone we got on the striking PINK bus off to the crossway

After entering Malaysia, it’s the boring bus ride to KL… along the way, I got to know my roommates Willie and Marc, VJC girls Annabelle, Celine and Sofia, Debbie, Thierry and the little kid better… the random talks we had in the bus raged from the pets we kept to strange stuff we seen and then to the otaku talk towards the end… Friday the 13 really hit in when the air con in the bus broke down on the high way and we were roasting for close to 1n hour and half before reaching the hotel… also I must add in that the bus driver went to the wrong hotel and we must waste some more time to get to the right hotel... after getting our keys and putting our stuff into our room [1402], we went down to wait for Joseph… everyone was down already and yet he is not there yet… I had to go up and get him down… it’s all Joseph’s fault

under boss Joseph and john, we went to eat Iran food which I enjoyed… after the VJC people left, Joseph and John had the idea of going down to china town to shop, am alright with it and so is Debbie, so we went back to the hotel to put our stuff like wallets and phones down so we are not robbed… on our way down, Marc joined us and we went down to china town via cab… to our horror, its closing down for the night… wth, we went down for nothing… so we decided to walk back to the hotel since it’s not that far away… asking directions from people we made our slow way back to the hotel going through a dark back road[ it’s all Joseph’s fault] and after 30mins of walking, we got back to the hotel… along the way, we were scared of being attacked... so i had this line," we are all well versed in armed combat, y should we be scared???" point to note, we were unarmed... haha

with Joseph and John having competition tomorrow, they went back to sleep while Marc and me went back into our room to find Willie and Thierry playing L4D… after bathing, we played a game of poker with chips that Willie brought from Singapore… after a few games, Marc was out of chips[cause I was winning] then Willie went all in, Thierry and I dunno what to do… follow or back out… in the end we play safe and back out… he did not have that good of a hand but he was playing on psycho to win… after a few more games, he went all in AGAIN… I decided to follow with him and his 12mill [chip money] bet… he had NOTHING and I won with an 8 pair… LOL… it was damn funny

that’s it for day one, the two guys plan to go out shopping the next day while I’m going down to support the CJC girls as well as the FM fencers

Day 2…14th march

Since when I slept, it’s already the 14th, I will talk about my sleep there… I can remember that someone was breathing really loudly[marc] and someone’s phone when off at 4am in the morning… and when my sleep was getting good, morning call came to wake me up [the other 2 not planning to wake up]… I got myself ready and when down for breakfast at 6am…coach said that it starts at 6, so there I was… and there I was alone for 15mins drinking tea waiting for others to arrive… breakfast was entertaining hearing Jiunn Chyau talking about their night and what an ass Joseph was… as I was done with my breakfast, I went up to get Irvin [little kid] down as he was competing that day… also I took my epee and body wire down to lent Megan as her spare blade… back down, coach saw me with my blade and went “Meng, you know you are competing tomorrow right?”this, and the same question that the AC people asked as well was the VJ girls… never see people lending spare blade before meh???

The trip to the competition venue was really long and I have given up on visiting my Jrs at their hotel there… the sight that hit me when I entered the sports hall was the sight of only 7 strips to fence on… THAT’S TOO DAMN LITTLE… and then there is the sea of blue in at the end that is so CJ...

Male foil was up first and I was roped in my Joseph to film the Joseph series and show the world his trip up to get the gold medal… his polls went well and its confirmed that he will make it into DE… so after it finished, at 10++ I went around cheering the other FM and CJC fencers fencing foil at the point in time… female epee soon started and I was roped in [again] to film Steph and Annabelle[same polls] with my cam… all this really made me wanna fence and can’t wait for the next day so that I can fence… this duty ended at close to 2pm, female epee matches can be so ever slow, and I could finally have my lunch… YAAAA… and also laugh at Joseph at Y he is not fencing yet… he,waited till 3 plus before he could fence in the round of 64… his ranking was 31 and he is fencing the 34th fencer… the match was not really that exciting but we all wanted him to win… cause if he did, than we can watch him fence[and lose] to the rank 2nd fencer…HAHA… also in females epee, the Li fang and Annabelle was a match that I wanna watch… to see another CJ-VJ match is always nice… it was close but CJC’s Li Fang won and went into the round of 16 to faced a Singapore Nat fencer which she loss 8-15… but to get 8 points off a Nat fencer is really good already

With that, all CJC girls were out of the competition, which was better than last year where we didn’t even made it pass first DE… now we were waiting for Joseph and his match with the Thai Nat fencer ranked 2nd… Joseph got beaten 8-15 and we can finally go back to the hotel for dinner and whatever shit planned out…

Dinner at some place with free flow bread… and all the crap about this name card we got about a shady place… nothing much[that can be said] happened the after dinner activities are much better…

The VJC girls came over to my room to scold the VJC guys for not going down to support them as well as take my laptop to watch anime … when we enter my room, the guys were sleeping already, and it’s not even 10pm… wth… so everything was fast and the girls got out before I went to bath… I’m not going to sleep at 10pm there and went over to the girl’s room to join them in watching anime… we were interrupted by the other guys we looked at me with those strange eyes asking what I was doing in the girl’s room… haha… after this happened a few more times, I went over to their room to play cards and mahjong as there were short of 1 person… after my 2 day mahjong course during CNY, this is the first time I played it with others… and I think I did quite well, winning abit towards the end… after Mattew didn’t want to play anymore, we went to play asshole big 2 with the others in the room[Sofia and Celine came over too so the group is quite big] till 1am where I went to sleep to get ready for the next day’s competition…

2009-03-11T23:53:00.004+08:00

results are bad for me and i don't wanna talk about it...

Malaysia trip is 2 days away and i have found a long existing flaw in my fencing that has not really been fixed... now, i must spend tomorrow training my hand to get used to moving around to get this flaw fixed...

one thing i must ask the world is y must they always come in small packages, y must they come in overseas trips, y must they be so out of reach, y must i take notice of them... Y, kami, TELL ME Y... one is enough of a problem for me to handle mentally already, now you bring in another one...

i ask myself [AGAIN]y I'm like nothing in the eyes of others... because the things i see around me tell me this hard fact that i cannot help but ask again and again why it is so... is no matter what i do pointless in the eyes of others, or is it wrong to wish to be remembered??? i can still remember a talk i had about me "bullying" someone about her height, during that period of time, we had quite a good friendship, about after the talk and i was asked to stop what i was doing and i distanced myself from her, this friendship fell apart and in the end it became nothing... and guess what, i what i did was wrong in his eyes... GG...

looking back, i can trace alot of my pains back to him... i wonder... but i guess its more suited for another time, can't be too emo in one post...

on a different note, my jobless days have brought me to new boredom levels to make me draw this...

its quite an orginal work, not much reference other than the idea...haha

2009-03-01T22:24:00.002+08:00

i will now say it, i have totally given up an writing on APMEC... i'm too damn lazy...

to note, i ended work on friday[27th feb] and now i'm jobless again... on to training for malaysia trip and NS...

today, biking trip with BHSS friends at east coast thats kinda a failure...

meet up at 1100 at TPY for lunch of subway which was kinda bad cause all three of us who ate not feeling well after that... we left the place at 1200-ish to thatb 31 to parkway there and walk to east coast... well, it was a normal trip until it started raining... under that shelter that we were to hide from the rain was a couple that all of us were damn angry at... what the hell is the good looking girl doing with this fu*k face guy??? while riding back we were all cursing... from this and a few other evidence we saw today, we have concluded that the world is very unfair... and that there is nothing we can do about it...

and for the first time biking, i got a sunburn... kinda, but now it don't look so bad already...

2009-02-23T21:07:00.002+08:00

APMEC is over and i'm back at work which was supposed to end today but now is pushed to [hopefully] friday... the pass 5 days were busy as hell but now i have time to sit back and relax to think about what happened over these few days... the new friends i met and the enlightenment i had...

19th feb... APMEC day 1

i woke up at 5.45 to get really for my boss [mom's friend] to pick me at 6.30 to reach NUS at 7... along the way its so damn sleepy and i wanna sleep half the time but somehow can't... i arrived in the office to get ready for the day ahead... i was to man counter 4 for the people from thailand, UK, USA, UAE and taiwan to sign in for the event... it may seem like very little countries but thailand has 50++ people with very long and similer looking names that i must look up for and hand them their name tags... damn hard to look for one strange name in a pile of many many equally strange names...

but i'm not the only one who faces these problem... counter 1 2 and 3 also have many many names to give out and to search... just that they have more country with less people in them... i kinda feel that they are much lucky-er than me... haha

but in truth, our job is quite slack... cause only in the morning and noon time will people come and find us, in between, there are attending the workshops and we are free outside... but i must vent my anger at the people there who were sleeping on the job when we had nothing to do and STILL earning $6 an hour while me and arthur have been working our ass off the pass 3 weeks getting paid the same rate... haiz...

at least we get free lunch and morning and afternoon tea break in this period of time... free food is always good... but then i have come to not like or dislike the free food, eating so much for 5 days really makes it very dull after a while...

2009-02-22T21:59:00.004+08:00

Marfan guy is now very sleepy and will blog about 6th APMEC when i am free and when i get the pictures from boss...

anyway... speaking to medical students for the pass 4 days have really made medical stuff sound fun and maybe i wanna consider going into it for my uni studies... see how lah... also, when talking to them[moses] i found out that i may have marfan syndrome and it seems quite scary... then a kinda full check by the medical students helping out reviewed that i show quite alot of the signs of marfan syndrome... OMG... it seems that my body is quite interesting to the students there... even my mouth draws attention... haha... see how lah... maybe i'll die young... just need to look out for eyesight problems and chest pains...

for now, pic from singapore flyer that does not do the view justice

2009-02-19T21:16:00.002+08:00

APMEC starts today... Busy to the max... but not really

all the stuff that i have been doing for the pass 2 weeks has lead up to this... all the names that i saw, i can finally see their faces... and its quite nice to meet them as there are quite nice people... i think... day one is just sitting there giving out name tags to the people that come... and a word to thailand who sent 50++ people here making my live hard... all the names damn long and strange... haiz... it will get worse on sat

today however is the one year mark of something i have done backin 2008... i can say to be proud of myself for doing it i guess... but yesterday when i watched Kurogane no Linebarrels 19, this line came to me on the show than i would have used back then if i knew of it...

"i like you, i know i can't make it, but i wanted to say it anyway, that there is someonewho likes you... i hope you remember that..."

2009-02-18T22:15:00.004+08:00

today marks the end of office work for me at NUS... tomorrow till monday, i'm out there in the convention working quite long with no lunch hour... haha... seems fun

now, i wanna give some time to one of my good friend at work... she works the hardest amoung us all without much complain... well, she does complain about my typing sometimes... she is someone who does all the work given to her with speed and all done to near perfection... in my first day of work, she slowly taught me how to do stuff and how to do them correctly...

i speak of our office printer... haha... but everything i wrote was about the printer that i have had the pleasure of working with for the past 2 weeks

today was damn rush and i have really just got home at 2145... everything for tomorrow must be ready and packed... names must be confirmed and many many more... i even had lunch at office with my other workmates... haiz... today, there is OT pay... haha... other days don't have one... so all my effort is not wasted...

got to sleep early now...

my office printer/photocopy/scaner/good friend

2009-02-14T21:35:00.000+08:00

It is strange that today I feel an unknown feeling of anger, sadness and maybe envy… its really strange to have these kind of feeling over such random events…haha

I guess I’m really breaking down into nothingness, my mind is really messed up

To tell the truth, I hate this feeling… but I guess it applies to others too… but it seems that it around everywhere and around most of the time… I should stop slulking over my inability and find something to put my mind off this shit

On a totally unrelated note, large shopping centers are a complex maze that I have really never found a way to get out of without a map…O.o

I HATE THIS

2009-02-13T22:38:00.000+08:00

ITS FRIDAY THE 13th... THAT EXPLAINS MOST OF WHAT HAPPENED TODAY

2009-02-09T21:55:00.002+08:00

The first part of this is written at work… damn, today is a freaking boring day… the whole day I did only one task… make name tags for the people going for the convention soon… all 400++ of them… damn it lah… the whole morning was spent printing the names… the afternoon, cutting them to size and slotting them into sleeves…waste of a day lah…

But I haven’t really been doing much at work so this is a welcomed change… but let it be the only one… I want to slack abit…. I can plenty many money working plenty little…haha

2 days ago, was my birthday… and I spent it outside shopping for my birthday present… yes, it is the one day I allow myself to spent a fair amount of money without feeling as guilty as I would… sunshine plaza is the place I spent my birthday with Joanne buying overpriced good imported from Japan… if a phone strap costing $18 is not overpriced, I dunno what is… I brought for myself a MSN-O6S SINANJU gundam kit to make at home as well as a gundam T-shirt [yes, I brought a shirt for myself… very rare]the lady with me was more doing a shopping trip for her sister then shopping for herself, though she did buy something for herself… damn the KKnM shop having a sale on the day and it was damn packed…walking around and getting what I want was so damn hard… adding on the fact that I have this huge box with the gundam in it to carry/protect around with me… damn, even getting to the counter to pay was hard… but I guess it was worth it… too her, thanks for spending a day with me… thanks for the gift

Now, on to the 8 hour process of making the MSN-O6S SINANJU… well, it was not 8 hours in one go, it was 4 hours on sat night, 4 hours on Sunday morning… I started at 2100 and it took me and hour++ to make just the body, another hour to make both hands and head, 30mins to make both shoulders and one freaking hour to make just one leg… after that one hour on the leg, it was 0100 in the morning and I gave up and went to sleep, if I were to carry on, the sky might be bright when I’m done… just to note, the leg has 4 layers of plastic and has 5 joints in which to bend and 2 boosters that can bend outwards to show the effect using them…. This is true for both legs… and the waist has the central area and 6 flaps around it, each about 10 pieces to make…

Day 2 in making and 2nd leg and waist were done in about an hour half and back pack another hour… with that done, the “gundam” is done… all that’s left are the weapons, a beam rifle, 2 beat axe, 2 beam saber and a big shield all done within about 30++ mins… that completed MSN-O6S SINANJU is damn cool and big, towering over my XXXG-01W Wing Gundam “Ver.Ka” by almost half… well worth the time taken to make the beauty…

I guess that’s all I can say about my birthday…

MSN-O6S SINANJU

2009-02-08T23:12:00.000+08:00

before its too late[later than it already is]

happy birthday to me

2009-02-05T21:15:00.001+08:00

Again I’m writing this at work when I finally got some free time at 5pm…

Yesterday I took leave from work and went back to school to join in the cca bazaar…as pointed out by one of the teachers; I’m there to… 1. Free fence, 2. Join the bazaar and 3. act as J1… of which I only did 1 and 2… fencing again after a period break really lowered my skills… but then I must train up for the Malaysia trip in march… so more fencing for me in the near future…

But I have to talk about how I sold my soul to the devil [female vice capt] yesterday and threw away my pride and had fold roses at the fencing booth to give out to girls to con/seduce/ask them to join fencing… of course I was not the one giving flowers out, I was the one making them… the other Jr boys were out asking people/girls to join… but to openly sit outside the canteen folding flowers is a little bit over the top for me and I really really regretted it… until, someone [a fellow guy]joined me and wanted to learn how to fold those roses…[yes, I’m not suffering alone] the weird thing is that the numbers of Jrs who sat by me wanting to learn how to fold those roses grew… I count 5 who were trying their best to fold roses along me… but more often than not, they were asking for help than folding reducing the amount of roses I could fold during that time…lol… one thing I must note, even with the same teacher, me, all 5 of them came up with a different ver of a rose… which I must say is quite interesting to note...

For me, I guess selling my soul to the devil was not than bad after all, at least there were others who joined me at the back of the booth [back bench which everyone can still see] folding roses given to girls only, my only reward was to see the smiles on SOME of their faces when they got the rose… for me, that’s enough…

I must also note how many roses were “stolen” by the jr… the girl were asking me if I could make one for them… I can’t refuse can I??? But after yesterday, I have quite run out of green wire to make the stalk of the rose…

2009-02-03T22:09:00.003+08:00

Well, I’m now writing this at work at NUS cause I have nothing to do again… these few days at work really made me miss school…a lot. I always have this feeling that I should be studying right now and not on the com the whole day, even if its work I’m doing which is earning me some money…lol

My normal day at work starts at 6.30 am when I wake up for breakfast and leave for work… my mom drops me off at macritchie for me to take 74 to NUS… every morning I see bus SBS995E come and I take it for the hour long ride there including the jams along HC there… fighting off the need to sleep, I wait the hour long ride till I get off… there, it’s a 10 min walk to NUS and the building that I work in… along the way I might meet up with Jia Fu who happens to live there and is also leaving for work at great world city… I must note that SBS995E reaches the bus stop at mac quite on time but reaches my stop at times that can differ by 20mins or more… 2nd day at work, it reached at 7.50am, yesterday, it reached at 8.20am… LUCKY work starts at 8.30am…

Mornings are for me it seems to slack around and wait for work to come to me as my 3 bosses find stuff for me to do… then its working on the com or walk to and fro from the printer back to my table collecting print outs… I now know how damn hard it is to print certs for events…. Every one must check name and date and everything else… wtf… also,there is my "workmate" rishi whom i msg when ever i feel bored or just wanna talk... everyday a few msges fly between us... alot to talk about our own work...hahaa..that’s kinda my work so far and this lasts till 23th feb where I will be unemployed again training for the Malaysia fencing trip as well as for NS…[yes, it’s a bad idea to slack around and waste time like that]

Now, back to the first day at work, more correctly, the night of my first day of work… after work I went to vivo city via 166 to meet up with the fencing jrs for the ALL MEAT BUFFET… I got there at 6.30pm and booked sits that the place… waiting an hour for people to show up is not fun at all… trust me… but when they finally arrived, the fun begins… there is the "coin" given to us with "yes, please" on one side and "no, thanks" on the other to show when we want more meat or not... the deal among us was not to flip the "coin"...the salad bar was what we hit first, but picking up only a little bit, I returned to my sit to eat… than came the meat, after the first, it was a non stop flow of men carrying meat on a stick to carve it off in front of us onto the plate…again they came even before I can clear the last piece of meat…

During the meal, the football match was going on on the tv behind us and we were watching and eating at the same time, it did allow some time for the meat to settle down in us before the next bite… also, we became good friends of sorts with one of the waiters with meat and he would came over and serve us while watch and commenting on the match the was going on… we were betting with him who will win the match… soon, we started to slow down on our meat eating frenzy… the point to tell me to stop eating was when I wanted to eat another bite of rare steak and almost puke it out… than I told myself that I must stop eating… I turned over the “coin” and ended my meal… it was indeed all you can eat and that was all… and I’m not the only one, the others were also starting to feel sick and full… one by one we stopped[some didn’t…wtf]

After we all had our fill, we left and walked slowly[cause it feels sick to walk] to the bus stop to take bus… I took 855 with YC back home… thank god I have this one straight bus home from vivo…

2009-01-28T23:17:00.005+08:00

this post will short as i have to work tomorrow....

today was my first day at work and it was boring and fun at the same time... printing and filing as well as com work is boring and all, but it beats lsacking at home big time... but thats not the real deal today... today is about the ALL MEAT BUFFET i had with my fencing jrs...

i will post about it again but heres what i ate...

well-done steak x1

rare steak x3

chicken drum x1

chicken heart x1

chicken breast in beacon x1

ham x2

pig thigh x1

fish x1

mutten x2

pineapple slices x1

sweet potato x1

can't go wrong with a name like that

thats half my plate

our fencing bottomless pit giving up

2009-01-23T22:17:00.005+08:00

well, CNY is just around the corner and i have found a job to keep myself busy for the next 3 weeks... ya...

i must say, this week was rather hell for my legs, Tuesday i went on another cycling trip with rishi, joash and mei xiu... than today training with my Jrs back in school...where the hell did Mindy come up with this hellish training PT???

the cycling trip... same as the last one, only i met rishi on 88 on the way there[arranged meeting on bus 7487J] and went to pasir ris to wait for joash and mei xiu who are late...again... back at pasir ris park and that same bike shop, we rented our bikes and went off into the great unknown... the pace was slow as we followed mei xiu's pace and we got to the air port with no problem... taking a few pics along the way...[question of 2008, y do girls like to take so many pictures???]than entering ECP... rishi's bike failed and died, we spent an hour fixing the damn bike with the help of some kind Malay guy but still cannot save it... we had to leave it there and send MX back on a taxi to pasir ris while we rush[with tired bodies and legs] back to pasir ris before 8pm... after 4 hours of riding, we did made it back at around 8pm with much movitvation from that Mega MacSpicy i WILL eat after the damn trip... after a heated talk with the bike shop owner about the "lost" bike, we went off in 403 to have dinner and talk about old times... my Mega MacSpicy we a worth it reward after cycling for so DAMN long... 88 back to AMK and tranfer to 138 home...

today, went back to school alone [damn you joash and rishi] and greeted some old teachers and went for fencing training... free fencing was what i wanted but it seems that its PT day... damn... Mindy came up with this killer leg training that really killed our legs and my back[damn frog jumps] and i was so damn tired to fencing like how i used to and just fence the standing still way which kinda works... but then i only fenced one match [after PT and one before] before letting others fence... another mixed weapons day as sabarers and foilist take up epees and fence... and then there is Megan than i must really teach a good lesson to for her rushing fencing... but then... i can't... this new job of mine starts next wed[training day...damn it] and goes on for 3 weeks... means no fencing for 3 weeks and a last min rush before the Malaysia trip to train myself... damn that's not a good thing...

i wanna let my legs rest after i got home but its a Friday... to go with parents... means standing up in a shopping center... means my poor legs... tomorrow is sat and i must help my father clean the house for CNY... not something i enjoy doing since my friends wanna meet up and play in the morning... guess i can't join... damn it... whatever... to all happy CHINESE NEW YEAR..

us... to pay the fine

i never understood y people like to take pictures of the sand

its just that

2009-01-14T23:09:00.002+08:00

i think its time i stop being so emo[maybe for this short while]

thinking back at this week and the week before, much has happened.... the return of didi was a great one that i enjoyed much... its been awhile since we got to talk and eat together as well as play... but this only brings home the fact... I NEED A JOB... i can't waste away at home everyday... somemore, i need money to go get stuff on my birthday... damn, i need money, i need a job...

what i can say is that these time alone gave me much time to reflect on the past and also learn that friends and the company they give is the best thing in the world... it is true that we only truly understand something when its gone... and thus i must treasure what little friends i have... but then there are problems with that as well... cause sometimes one can't help but ask oneself "what am i in the eyes of others?" and ask your friends " who am i to you?" i guess this question and many others can only stay in my mind... i must learn from hyakko...

the day out with derrick widen my knowledge so very much... never have i just gone to the library[EVIL] to read, i have rarely gone to get a story other then manga... all this has shown me what i have missed... and also what i read has increased my knowledge of the human mind bit i little bit... i may not understand most if it but the parts i can understand enlighten me...

i guess i should really improve my fittness over the few months i have free...i find i'm too slow in fencing and i need to increase my speed... yes... i need to increase in speed in both fencing and chanbara...joined in another training session with my jrs again and this time, i had to fight them as part of their team training... i may not be the best fencer to do this as i', not that great of a fencer, but heck, i get to fence... i must try and master this new move i came up with... must fence more...

i must say, i'm in love with godzilla once again... these few days of nothingness made me search up the old hero and find the old movies... it is very nice to relive my childhood days and watching godzilla again...i find that the older godzilla movies are much better than the newer ones... i wonder why...hmm...

2009-01-10T22:36:00.002+08:00

i think its a little late for the new years post about 2008 but i guess since i have really nothing better to do, lets do it...

thinking back into 2008, i must say it was fun... and painful... and and kinda confusing after a while... my life is still about the 2D world... my mind still in the world of its own...

never in my life have i felt like such an outcast even within a group... in the end, i can only go back to myself to think things through... one thing i ask myself is whether i will be remembered by those i hold dear... i know i am already "that guy" to some people already and there is nothing i can do to stop this... in the end, you reap what you sowed... nothing went in and so nothing will come out... i have seem first hand how forget-ible i am and its not a good feeling to watch yourself fade into nothingness like that...

damn it lah... i have nothing to write... whatever lah

2009-01-09T11:09:00.002+08:00

i was bored and nothing to do before open house... so there is this interesting list of questions rishi asked me to do...

#1 The first person who tag in your blog is?
rishi, I very sure… also he wanted me to do this… so, to rishi

#2 Your relationship with him/her?
a close friend I guess, for the pass year that I have known him

#3 Your impression of him/her?
the slacker who can sometimes give out really good advice… a really friend in times of need and when one needs cheering up

#4 The most memorable thing he/she had done for u?
simply being a friend of mine is the best thing I can wish for and the most memorable thing he has done

#5 The most memorable thing he/she said to you?
the person I like is……[person’s name cannot be shown][it’s a shocker]

#6 If he/she become your lover you will...
GAY… get away from me

#7 If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve will be...
lets change the question to just things he has to improve in… stop slacking when it comes to studies, but then, it doesn’t really matter now does it…

#8 If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
run for cover… he has the backing of at least half the school…

#9 If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?
I have no idea… ideals maybe

#10 The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is?
I have nothing in mind really… maybe just go out for lunch and talk about the past???[damn I sound old]

#11 Your overall impression of him/her is?
A really good and caring friend… maybe one of the few friends that I can say I was very happy to meet in CJC

#12 How you think people around you feel about you?
crazy, mad, sick, too much of an anime fan, playing too much

#13 The characteristics that you love about yourself are...
Tolerance towards people… I can stand sometimes the worse of people… but there are limits

#14 On the the contrary, what you hate about yourself?
my “great” social skills, my “wonderful” spelling and my “perfect” eyesight

#15 The most ideal person you want to be is?
Sebastian Michaelis from Kuroshisuji

#16 For people that care and like you, say smth to them?
You might not remember me. But, I'm sure I would still remember that a person like you existed in my life.

#17 Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you. Pass to people with blogs only.[maybe not be able to obey]
1. Rishi
2. Nik
3. Joash
4. joanne
5. ashley
6. cheryl
7. YC
8. Eirene
9. Jun jie
10. Didi

#18 Who is no.6 having relationship with?
some girl who is quite short

#19 Is no.9 a male or female?
Male

#20 If 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
GAY…

#21 What is no. 2 studying about?
games maybe???

#22 When was the last time you had a chat with no. 3?
the night before x’mas

#23 What kind of music band does no. 8 like?
I have no idea… damn

#24 Does no. 1 has any siblings?
i dunno...

#25 Will you woo no. 3?
GAY…but I don’t mind...

#26 How abt no. 7?
GAY…

#27 Is no. 4 single?
Yeah… think so

#28 Whats the surname of no. 5?
Toh

#29 Whats the hobby of no. 10?
playing

#30 Does no. 5 and 9 get along well?
lol… they are gay buddys

#31 Where is no. 2 studying at?
Catholic Junior College till last Year. Awaiting enlistment now.

#32 Talk something casually about no. 1
we both need a job

#33 Have you tried developing feelings for no. 6?
no and will not… she has someone else

#34 Where does no. 9 lives?
whampoa there

#35 What colour does no. 4 like?
I have no idea

#36 Are no. 5 and 1 best friends?
They don’t know each other… but they might be if they knew each other

#37 Does no. 1 have any pets?
don’t think so

#38 Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
hmm…

#39 What is no. 6 doing now?
in school maybe???

here ends this strange thing... have fun reading... time to kill that teo

2008-12-26T22:20:00.006+08:00

merry christmas... yes its late, but better late than never

today i went out with sec school friends to east cost to cycle... its always good to meet up with then to chat or do anything... time to meet was 1115 and as always i was early and everyone else was late... much less came today then what was planned... lunch followed and we made our way there.. the hour long ride on 13 was hell...

we ranted our bikes and went off... its ash first time on a bike in quite a long while and he is still not that well on the bike... we let him lead and follow behind him in his not fast and not slow pace...where we rode it was the other direction of when i was with rishi... so we got to the air port and back in under 3 hours... not much hapened along the way... other than the chains coming off from KT's bike and i have to fix it[half the time i dunno what i'm doing]...just the normal talks between us and the joking of ash due to his inability to ride slowly... not blaming him or anything... its a very good effort for someone who dunno how to ride a bike...

the trip back is another one hour to TPY for dinner... than there is the large amount of time thinking where to go for dinner... it was between minced eat noodle, sushi and BK... in the end... it was just go to a food court... after dinner, ash wanted to go to the street stalls to get more food... hey, who can say no to more food???

ash in his good man pose

views of the sea

us, minus the cam man

2008-12-07T23:32:00.003+08:00

I HAVE THE PILLOW!!!!!!!!!!!

yes...i won the pillow along with my team, GY, YC and sai...

i reached FM at 8.30ish to find the doors locked and people waiting outside... we all and a few more waited for coach to arrive to open the doors for us... we, CJC team B were with good terms with the ACI team and we joke around alot... as there were 8 teams in total, just winning the forst match allows us a 75% chance to win the pillows... the joke was that we face ACI in the first match and thus we get our pillows.... guess what, we really did face them in our first match... and we won by quite a large diff... i was there just holding and increasing the lead while my team mates did the real killing... YA PILLOW

me in fencing wear facing the cam[pic from junming from ACI]

the next match was with SMU team B... there were no pushovers... it took alot of skills to just get points off them... and even more to keep the lead... more so againist their anchor who was damn good...

lunch followed and the 3 girls team fence it out to see who is 1st, 2nd and 3rd, round robins style... there was CJC old girls, the mixed team[with CJC menbers] and SMU team... nothing much there, SUM won with CJC 2nd... but the 3 hour wait was boring for us and we started to cheer with the ABC song, every point we went from A to B to C and on and on... we pass Z... thats a good sign...

next is the CJC team B vs the dream team... not much needs to say about the beating we got there but heck, WE HAVE THE PILLOWS... YAAAAAA.... after the whole thing, i went out for a drink with my team mates and went over to Swang...

god today was hell... but now i have my simmon's beautyrest ~ the pillow with pocketed coils to sleep on and get ready for tomorrow... YAAAAA

2008-12-06T21:21:00.003+08:00

unlike last week full of events, this week is more relexed and calm...

thurday and friday was spent painting at S'wang giving me some workout[cause of walking up and down the ladder] and some colour on my body... mainly white... while relexing from painting, i was killing a diablos and man did it have a hell lot of HP... took me 40 mins with my bone horn+ to kill it... my god...

today... FM OPEN

waking up at 6.30 for the first time in a long time[not enjoying it] and packing my stuff it go down to FM for my first competition after 6-8 months... been training p for this day for the past 2 weeks and it was finally came... and coach FINALLY returned my blade... after a very very very long time, i missed it so very much...

this competition was sponcered by some bed company and thus the rewards were PILLOWS, which were more important than the medals themselves... I WANT A PILLOW...PILLOW

polls started at 11am cause its polls 6 and we only have 3 strips to fence on... wait and cheer my Jrs alot the way... in my polls, the malaysia old guy, the malyasia guy, attacker with yellow epee, black socks and someone else... a nice clean sweep for me and i advanced into the DE matches with a rank of 4... guess what, my first match is againist a friend who has asked and failed to turned up for a match last week... this is fate[a very gay term]... i face Edward Young with the strange grip... my match with him was short as he charged in alot and i can take points off that... but still it was fun fencing him[he has been asking my to fence him since even before the A's]

next is lunch as the girls had their polls... with 18 girls taking part and half of them were CJ for ex-Cj members... i forsee a medal and a pillow for CJC... after lunch was my match with the ex-CJ member... it was a close match, 14-15 to me... took alot of my wits and skills to get that point off and boy was it great...at this point, there was no one by me from CJC left[i consider myself a CJC member]as bjorn and sai were knocked out... top 8 for me... i face some guy who beat me but at one point in the match towards the end, i went crazy and just fence for the fun of fencing and trying[even if it was imposible] to win a pillow... at pont 10 and 11, i shouted PILLOW to get the fun running during the match... haiz it was a loss but it was fun never the less... I WANT A PILLOW... TOMORROW I WILL GET IT

tomorrow will be the team matches and my team[me, GaY, sai and YC] WILL win that pillow

today, CJ fencing has earned it name as the house to a bunch of jokers who fence for the fun and for the PILLOW...everyone in FM fencing community will remember us as the ones who made life more funning and happy...

PILLOW

2008-12-02T20:59:00.003+08:00

a week has went by and it has been a week full of events...

Monday... fencing training
Tuesday... badminton at NP with T30 people[y them i also dunno] and eating ash's hotdogs at NP
Wednesday... monster hunter and night fencing[ damn Edward never come]
Thursday... when out to buy a fish and stuff on bike[a first for me]

on to Friday...

some great person by the name of rishi thought it will be a great idea to go biking for 20km... it was a good idea... i was happy to join in[could use the training] i meet up with yahui and tim at paris ris[2nd time I'm there in a week, this is not good] and waited for the ever late rishi to arrive... we rented the bikes and started to ride out into the great unknown... the first 2 hours were fine... riding around to east cost park, pass the airport and the runway watching planes take off... when it hit 7pm, the sense that we might not make it back to parisris park by 8[shop closing time] is on us... the park connector we have been following will take too long to follow, so with rishi leading, we headed into some unknown area to get back to paris ris... the 2 hours of wondering around and getting lost finally got us back to paris ris park... less tim cause his leg cramp and we had to call in belle to get him from unknown location back to paris ris park... over all, it was a great and very very long 30++km ride around the Eastern area of Singapore... some places that we went pass while being lost was the big giant, ikea and whatever the 3rd one is next to TPE... as well as TP [the poly] and many many empty fields around the place...

picture taken while riding

dinner at 9.30 pm was kinda a first... and eating the maga macspicy was an unending war trying to finish the damn thing... took 88 back with rishi and yahui... was suppose to drop off somewhere to take 163 home, but rishi forgot where somewhere is and failed to tell me to drop off... therefore i took the 88 with yahui to AMK to change to 138... got home at 1130... damn tired...

Saturday

when out to play soccer with sec school friends who are also free after the A's... meet up with CS and zombie as well as the other poly people... my lack of any phy actives in the pass few months have reduced my speed and reflexes down by quite alot... but i never really good at soccer so i'm not one to say anything... but it was fun to get to talk to old friends again

Monday[PROM]

i left home at 1030 to meet up with QY at Thomson before going down to the hotel to check into the room...skip to the event itself... not only did i feast on good food, the view itself was a great feast as well... i guess when i get the pictures, they will speak for the every itself... on to post prom at some club at some place near the river... drinks in there were ex, so my class and i went to get drinks from outside and enjoy ourselves abit first before going into the club... well, there are some unlucky people who are born at the end of the year and thus are not 18 and cannot enter the club... tried and fail he did and we joined him outside hoping for a chance to get him in... in the end, he told us to just go into the club and have a good time... dancing is not my thing and i really find no point in it, but heck, i'm here to have a good time and i will do just that... together with Amanda and the rest, we danced quite alot i must say... but then... i got tired and went to get the free drink we were given... the girls asked us to get for them too but in the end they did not want to drink, can't bare to see good alcohol good to waste, i drank 2 cups of the thing... and still feel alright... i left with the girls at 3 back to the hotel to play monster hunter with QY and ian, tried akantor 2 times, both fail due to ian... then he went to sleep after complaining abit[spoiled kid] and QY and i carry ed on playing till the morning... i was so tired that while shooting lao, i fell asleep a few times... haiz... breakfast follow and i got home... to sleep

2008-11-23T21:23:00.002+08:00

after the A's and now with the entertainment... and to start things off... a nice long eventful day with friends...

the start of the day was preparing to leave the house for the anime fest and class chalet right after... went for the anime fest at suntec...this was the first I've been to and in truth... it was kinda a let down... other than the fact that i got some stuff and got to laugh at some really bad cosplayers... the gundam cosplay was nice though... going there was just to get stuff and feel the experience... and follow her around as she goes on her plan to photo all the cosplayers??? haha

after the fest... guess what... its 2pm... i'm meeting my class at 4.45... so i took the train home, rest for 15 mins... took the train back to city hall change to pasir ris and got there in time... and waited a whole 30mins until the next person came... and the last one came at 5.30... so in all, i waited almost an hour for people to arrive... wow

as it was raining, the possibility of a BBQ was low... but as i waited for people to show up and killing the monoblos white monoblos, the rain started to get smaller... and when we got to the chalet, it had stop... thank god... i started the fire along with joash, PT and hui yi... and set back and eat but not much... waited for the guys to come.. than the fun really starts

when jia fu, jesh and jagan came... we talked awhile and went to the arcade... damn... haven't been there for so damn long... played abit of TC4 with the pro jia fu and abit of GGX... and bit of the racing game... before long, we wee called back to cut cake for the 4 people celebrating their birthday that day...after the whole celebrations and "fun" we slacked abit while i played DJmax with hui yi for an hour... also somewhere where my skills have dropped... the round of cards and mindless nothing when on till 2.30am... thats when jagan[who i'm sure was high] and dom, the birthday boys, had to wear their boxes[presents]and dance... and jagan had to down some "drinks" and got realy high and when into the pool with those boxes... so many first's in one 24 hour period cannot be good for my health...

when it was pass 3.30 in the morning [and i'm shocked that i'm still awake] when the guys just set outside and talked for a very long time about many many different things... it i must say is the first time i have done something like that with the guys from my class... i wonderful experience i must say... i feel together with them... after the whole 2 years of being alone and away crap... after that... we just walked and talk and walk and talk till the sun came up... seeing the sky brighten up with the rising sun was a wonderful sight to behold... and i have stayed awake through the whole night without sleeping...

my tired body was keep awake by some unknown thing that prevent me from sleeping, until i sit down on outside the chalet and started to knock off... it was only the trip to get breakfast and head home did i got up again and packed my stuff to leave[ stuff that i brought but did not use]... breakfast must be the highlight of this whole day... watching jagan and jia fu just talking in their tired and "drunk" state was just great... nothing beats that...

the LONG trip home and my fight against sleeping took about an hour and i reached home at 10 to find mom and sis still sleeping... i just bath and KO till 3++ this afternoon... and my parents wanted to go suntec to shop... i think going there once a week is more than enough for me...

this whole 2 days if i can even call it that is by far one of the best days of my life... i just enjoyed it to the max... ah... but its the first and sadly the end... i don't think i will have a chance to have that much fun with them again... i just see what i have for my life up ahead... now that everything is over, i am at a loss as to what to do... OMG

haiz... my only regret is not doing something during this period of time... now, time to sleep and end the day... my sense of time is screwed... yaaaaaa

2008-11-19T00:07:00.004+08:00

one month ago, i was worrying about the A's... now... its almost over
lets see... GP is screwed... math may be screwed... bio is surely screwed...econs may be screwed... chem i don't really have much hope... oh look... thats all the subjects... oh F***

but thats almost over... no point crying over spilled milk...i can only look forward...

today[yesterday in fact cause its pass 12am]... NCC gathering back at BHSS... meeting up with old friends was the best... the whole bunch of us sit down, talk, eat free pizza and be at awe at the generation gap between us and the current batch... how the jokes they made we strangely un-understand-ible for us... haiz... we are getting old...

also, having a "campfire" really bring back fun times of the past... even if it was a short period of time we were there... ahhh... it was fun... and i ask myself... where did such great people go to??? where did all the great people from sec school go to??? JC life was crap as compared to sec school... i guess with achiveing good grades, some people threw away their fun and playful side??? i can still remember how with just a few of us, we were having a great time... but now, its hard to get along with so many... whats with the backstabbing, lying and cheating??? where is the loving class with good friends that i miss so much??? i guess i just can't compare those wonderful days with the crap life i have[had] now... thank god its over...

but still, JC did have so good come from it... fencing is a great sport that i wanna get back into... in fact after the bio paper 3, i already went to FM and fence and man have i rusted... just after 2 15 point matches, i KOed and couldn't really fence for quite some time after... omg... i must retrain up for the FM open as well as the competition next year...must train more... MUST...therefore, after MH week next week, i will train real hard for the fm open on th 6th... and hope to make it pass the round robins...lol... i have 3 days after prom nightto train... sweet...

catching up and anime and playing monster hunter is all the stuff i'm doing now... quite boring but heck, its fun...

2008-10-25T00:44:00.002+08:00

A's starts in a weeks time a i'm still not ready for it... DAMN IT... i am more ready for what ever i want to do after the A's more that the A's itself... this is not good... not at all...

well, these 2 weeks have been spend studying with QY in the pac along with waking up late and wasting quite alot of time...in short... I'M SCREWED

to think about it, there really is nothing going on in live worth noteing down... my emo side hasen't even rear up once since school ended [now i know where all my problems come from]. but then again, i do miss those days... it was fun i must say.

stupit website that can't let me find a good picture without feeling guilty... DAMN YOU

i have really ran out of crap i want to say while waiting for myself to feel sleepy...

discover my world

16/10/08

its good that you have noticed my pain...

in the end, you did change, for the worse

19/10/08

its only in this period that i know how much i'm truely worth

25/10/08

again, a dream showed me my greatest fear

2008-10-10T22:53:00.006+08:00

today was the last day of school and what a day it was...

not only did i ponder about going out with the class, something great happened to a great friend... in short... he has my respect for what he has done...

ah but i still cannot believe a year has gone by so fast... time to look back at this year and remember all the crap and fun times i had... and all the damn mugging... to think that this whole year i have devoted my life to this school and the people in it kinda draws tears...all the gift giving and words of bye are just not my thing and yet i still fall prey to it... i must say, i will miss the school and the people... i will miss going up 5 floors every morning and the everyday school life i have gotten so used to... i will miss my "emo" table and my chair... and the class room...haiz... i miss too many things...

on the event... card making for teachers[y did i do such girly stuff???] and the creation of the crap up wind mill that i really have no idea what it is about... all it does is remind me of Didi's artifact back in sec 4 DnT... haha... well, there is the badge giving out thing in class... everyone got a badge from Luke,HM, and Kelly reflecting their personalty for the pass 2 years... mines Mr.fantastic due to me being long and flexible??? i dunno... but the others are quite fun and accurate... than there is the 2 hours entrapment in the hall... brother's talk was nice... but sitting there for too long does make my legs cram up... hey... at least i appeared[for a damn short while] in the video that was shown...

was suppose to go hunting to day but i decided to go out with the class while in the end i didn't cause i forgot that i'm broke... damn... anyway... i must say today was great.. at least i killed a tigrex... that's something to be proud of... yeah... no deaths some more...

one day, it will all end. Fun times are short and painful, the inevitable parting feels lonelier because it was so enjoyable… school rumble

The cold blade will cut my warm flesh, the red line of blood shall bring salvation to my eternal pain..."emo"table[it was there before i got the table]

my badge

i will miss my study place at the PAC

sad that i don't have photos of my class...all well

AHHH.... y must the class chalet be on the same day as the big anime convention???

7/10/08

why am i so worthless in the eyes of those important to me???
9/10/08

i realy hope that you have not taken me for granted

why am i greeted with that gloomy face and yet smiles are given to others???

2008-10-03T23:10:00.002+08:00

after a long while of doing really nothing much, there really is nothing much to say...

we... the As are in a few weeks and i just suddenly lost the drive to carry on... what a great time to do so...someone please save me... bring my back to my senses...

and after the emo day of yesterday... i made of few new discoveries???

one thing is how i found out about my feeling towards hate... if one hates someone for a reason, i feel that this feeling of hate will and kinda must always be there... more so if each party has gone through crap because of this hate... to forgive and forget is to totally disregard the past crap that they have gone through... but in truth, how can anyone forgive and forget all this???

but why am i ranting on about all these useless stuff... yes, ranting on... i found out that talking in real life kinda seem pointless now, i mean, no one gives a damn about the this i say or the ideas i have... couple that with the small existence and uber bad luck i have, i might as well don't be there... very few people talk to me, and no one cares if i talk... well, i can learn from Chameleos and disappear into the bark ground.... being a lonely for too long and one kinda developed a habit of talking to oneself, and the pointless things that i say some people care... the important one, who gives a damn???

my school life is coming to an end soon, in 4 more school days and i am "free".. it is a happy/sad moment for all... for me, i am finally free of the class... ya... no more of them... but then, that also means no more of those friends outside class... with the very small social circle of mine, i treasure everyone... and it all comes to an end in a weeks time...

enough of this ranting... tomorrow there is still tuition and hunting to be done...

discover my world
23/9/08
i need help...alot of it

29/9/08
welcome to my world brother, feel the pain i have been with for the past 4 months
the human body is very screwed up

2/10/08
i find there is no need to talk anymore... no one gives a damn
how can you disregard the crap they put you through???
once again, you have proven me right

2008-09-19T22:26:00.004+08:00

behold... my new game to play... monster hunter freedom 2G

with the help from QY, i have been successfully hunting monsters... by hunting i mean watching and by monsters i mean dragons...

but i cannot forget the feeling of killing my first real boss, the Yian Kut-ku[the not so big red flying bat bird thing that spits fire]...the feeling of forgetting to being healing items to fight your first boss with only 3 lifes. the feeling of your last life againist the weaken yain kut-ku using a weapon that you are not used to... and killing it with just a sliver of life left[one hit i die] just makes thr whole process worth while... ah... and now i have mass killed the sad little yain kut-kus with QY in short 3 min matches...

Yian Kut-ku

than there is the congalala[the fat pink monkey hippo thing that farts] thats just a joke to kill and hunt... there is the pit fall trap that made it fall head first down showing its bright red glowing ass for all the see and bomb... but killing it is a pain in the ass... whats with the fat HP and fart???

congalala

than theres today where we hunted... the Shen Gaoren and Ashen Lao-Shan lung... both were epic fights with me bow-ing away and QY just having fun... the Lao-Shan lung fight with the best... it was just so close... 2 epic fights in one day can't be good for the body...

on a worse note, the prelim results are back... dosen't look too good or bad... chem is no more A[uber mugging next week] but bio i did better?[at least better than what i thought i will do] but screw that paper 3... but math is a killer and so is econs and GP... so in short... SCREWED

starting next week is entering full mugger mode for the A's tha i can truly have fun... YES!!!

oh yeah... today i can say is my chicken day... chicken pie for breakfest, chicken rice for lunch along with hunting Yian kut-ku[that are chicken like] and the Diablos[with its chickem mode] and chicken for dinner.... ya chicken

discover my world

15/9/08

when you are in the wrong, don't try to argue your way out of it

why does it have to come down to this???

i can't believe that those words came out of you...

17/9/08

i will never forget this feeling, the hate, anger and the pain...after it all, the joy

18/9/08

whats with today??? God's gift???

19/9/08

there are too many chickens in the market...

2008-09-12T22:30:00.002+08:00

this is war... and i just died a bad death...no restart button in sight...

i cannot say how badly i screwed up my chem paper 3, econs paper and math paper 1... the only saving grace were the sciencde paper 1s... thats where i should score well in... i hope

nothing much happened this few day... just the normalgoing school and dying in the exam hall... today on the other hand was sweet... when to school for a 75min paper and freedom for the rest of the day... where it was spent with QY,ian,joash at AMK shoping for games...

home is for spaming PoT and a whole lot of nothing and more nothing... sleeping and even more nothing... and drawing... and more drawing... but maybe what i'm doing can't really be called drawing...haha...

it truely is amazing how some people change during the exam period... their habits change and so does their way of life... some for the better, some for the worse...

and the new fever now is soul eater...haha... can't really get enough of it... and the anime is so damn slow... and so is the manga... damn it...draw faster you guys...haha...

discover my world
9/9/08
a girl should never be placed before a friend
a simple word can calm an insane mind

10/9/08
i had enough of your all hail myself speeches

11/9/08
so thats how insignificant i am in your eyes

2008-09-05T22:57:00.003+08:00

bored and feeling insane

what a week of quite alot of nothing... i have been going to school and studying for the past 3 days and slacking for 1 plus studying at home today... it truely is getting boring...

and yes... travel fees are damn high for me... ouch... this is so againist the money saving nature of me... everyday i spend at least $2 on travelling to school and back and for lunch... ahhh... i wanna save money damn it... i still have spore to buy after the prelims...

i think it was sunday night that i was kinda killing myself unconsciously in my dream... having your own hands pressing down on your neck is not a very nice feeling... to the point where i was breathless and grasping for air when i finally let go of my neck... but after this "near death" experience, i wonder to myself... what will it be like if i died??? will i be remembered or just forgotten as just a nuisance in the life of many... i guess i'm just thinking too much about myself... haha... wanting to be remembered by others... what a selfish wish...

being with just a few people for these few days may be a good thing or it may be bad... it may be reducing my already low social skills or just reducing my really small pool of friends... talking with rishi one night really open up my eyes to the world... y am i so anti-social??? even i don't have the answers to my own mind's problems... thats not good...i think i may just need to step out into the real world... maybe that will work...

1/9/08

you are asking for too much you know that???

2/09/08

what do you think about me???

4/09/08
spending time apart may be a good thing...

this was taken in the males restroom in TPY... what kinds of defects were they talking about???

2008-08-31T22:35:00.003+08:00

what a week...prelim hell

the week has been filled with papers that bring your hopes up and than slams it down so hard...

GP = GG... i tell you i'm gonna fail my A's cause of this
chem still can other than that dumb PP question that made me loss 8 marks
bio is no time to finish and a few blanks in the evolution question...[watching life in cold blood did help abit]
math is strangely do-able... for once, i tried and finish every question...o.O

and on to the teacher day gathering on the 29th
wasted alot of time in school watching screwed up performances and nerds dance... the only nice thing was the dance club's performance...

back to BHSS for me after the performance with QY...meeting up with old teachers and old friends rock... even if i wasted the whole day doing a whole lot of nothing... i did meet up with HY and dan again after god knows how long... and watching QY and HY playing monster hunter make me wanna play it as well... haiz.... but my PSP don't allow it...DAMN IT

than there is today... where i wasted just reading soul eater... enjoying the insanity in it... kinda feel that i'm slowly going down the road to being mad and insane...sweet... at least it makes life more interesting... better than the boring life i have now...

and boredom is going to school everyday next week to study for the exams after the holidays... there goes whatever life i had... and the fact that i'm falling sick is not a good thing... AHHH

discovery of the day
18/8/08
the loss is most pain when it was treasured all the time

19/8/08
things are not the way you think they are, they are never as good

24/8/08
does no one believe in maintaining the states quo???

26/8/08
i can't believe you have become the very person you hate..
if you are not wanted, y stay???

28/8/08
there is a limit to being late

note: i was very very very bored

2008-08-15T23:46:00.004+08:00

the week has come to an end and so has my night studying for the week... happy and sad at the same time...

haven't really done much worth blogging about... just that i drew something full again after so long of random art on my notes[math notes most of the time]

oh yeah... still got the pass-a-paper-around thing on Tuesday... haiz... sometimes i wonder if putting in effort is really worth the results... ah... maybe, maybe not... who knows??? maybe my existence will just burn out and no one will remember me...maybe that's better

and that [screwed] math test o Tuesday as well...

and the 6 hour non-stop studying on wed... adding the damn Cl B and chem extra lect and Gp extra lect into me already busy life... and all i wanna do is go into the library and study...

night study has been fun... studying with joash, nik, the 3 girls from T28[whose name i can't spell], rishi and joanne...haha...sweet... 4 days of studying without anime or lego to play with... and i can say i've done quite alot??? at least my chem revision file is filling up...thats a good sign... one thing i found out today... the bio notes for applications sux alot... i was more finding mistakes in the notes than really studying from them... but in truth, its cause i can spot the mistakes in them that i have learnt the stuff... if not, i might still be blur about the damn SCID and CF crap... its also in night study when i blur out that i figure out some facts of discoveries about my life... what great joy...

discovery of the day

13/8/08
misery seeks company[or one they think is company]
you truly think she gives a damn about your values and morals???

14/8/08
the fewer friends you have, the more you treasure them and the more you are vulnerable to them.

15/8/08
the more time people spend with me, the more they will hate me...
Selena, you were wrong...

2008-08-07T23:04:00.003+08:00

Yes… I am free again… because tomorrow and the day after and some days after that are holiday, FREEDOM!!!

Talking about yesterday, I ended my fencing in school with the meng hwee challenge. Yes… I was challenged by 6 of the J1s in 15 point matches… and damn it was tough… and I haven’t really really really fence since the A divs, this is a rather interesting day for me…

One thing I wanna say to all the fencers I fenced yesterday, you guys were great with their skills and all, cause you guys haven’t really been fencing much, you lack the speed and reflexes needed… but it’s ok, it all comes with more experience… and thanks for making my last fencing day and days before my A levels such a great experience and time well spent…

the meng hwee challenge

the people who tried[from left...T,B,me,GY,YC and the girl, LF]

Yes, yesterday… from the start of the day I had this strange feeling that it will be a bad day… but I was proven wrong…

I spent quite a lot of time doing chem. With was strangely fun for me while I was doing it… I have found joy in doing chem… wtf…

I got my TTGL book back… thought there was no rush on this one, but it is always nice to some drawing material when I’m bored at home… Joanne, I hope you liked the book

School was not as boring as I thought it will be… I mean, there were 3 tut yesterday… but GP [should be boring] was interesting Mr. Chan showed us more of the pinky show which was very entertaining… I mean, when do you see people scolding their own country and being hosted on YouTube??? Chem [used to be boring after everything was taught] was interesting as I could just do question on my own… going back to the new found love for chem questions. Math [boring] was free time for me to do Bio… [Not the right thing to do but heck]

Class was strangely quiet today… yes… peace is always good…but… [Peace breeds complacency and ultimately leads to decadence, but if struggle is part of daily life, people will never fall into that trap…pumpkin scissors]

Now, on to today… Kim greeted me in the morning… DIE, DAY SCREWED… and she placed her *** on my table…AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

PE was fun… ya…great game of netball[not scolded for violence…woot] and I worked up a lot of sweat… which is always good…cause that means that I worked out…I hope… but adding to the meng hwee challenge the day before and this…I am one very tired wreak…

Yes… and I must add in the uber waste of time in bio lesson today… what a waste of time when people are trying to use math to a genetic cross question in bio… they wasted like 20 to 30 mins of time… which I used to read finish the and do one chem question before class ended… damn lah… the time could have been used more wisely… like go through other question…not get stuck on one genetic question where they are trying to force the wrong answer into the question via math reasoning in a BIO lesson…!!!

Rest of day was just the same… 2 hours of chem [sweet]

Met milu on the 167 again… like the 3rd time in 2 weeks… this is so strange… we never met up like this till just a few weeks ago…haha… at least I have someone to talk to on the way home… she is great company… better than most in the uneventful class[as compared to T17]…

And I cleared 6 ep of PoT today… omg…

That’s all today… tomorrow still have to walk to CCAB and dance some dance… myself, I’m looking forward to the walking more than the dancing… hey, at least we are doing it in style… the T-shirt design is DAMN nice… yes, design over use-ability…

And something I read in …

[As usual, I knocked first and waited for a reply before entering. Like a doll sitting on a chair, a cute maid greeted me with the brightest of smiles, like a sunflower greeting the sun. Ah, I feel so warm!

Nagato sat by the table reading her book, like a Camellia blossoming in spring. Argh, what kind of comparisons am I making?]

This somehow related to my life… ah…

2008-08-04T21:34:00.004+08:00

ya...more free day and i come and blog
more interesting weekend for me... fun, not so fun... sleep

1-8-08

today i have to hand in that damn NYAA report that has been bugging me for the pass 2 months... with a little big arguement between friends, we finally got the report in... and we made our way to TPY for a movie that we have been looking forward to for the pass month... the mummy 3...and boy was it a let down... AND THE DAMN PRODUCERS RIP KING GHIDORAH OFF AND PLACED HIM IN... i am damn angry at that... how can they do this??? Godzilla fans everywhere will be damn angry...

well... feastival of prise was damn good... first time there and damn it was fun... there is also something very funny about getting a msg asking where joash and i were sitted from her who was just 2 rows of sits away...the whole event was great and i really felt damn good after that... just not the bus ride at 1120 at night at indoor followed by the 1210 MRT ride to AMK to find the last bas of 138 left at 1145... had to take a taxi home costing my $6.60... ouch... other than that it was a great day...

2-8-08

SC4 at QY house... and i am hooked onto that game... custom character GGG and archer was fun... but the joke weapons are still the best... god knows how many food weapons there was... corn, hot dog, giant squid, meat bone...haha

FOOD FIGHT!!!

went for NDP after that [again] and again i ahve no idea what was going on with the whole performances... all i know is there was some fat lady singing and a bunch of people dancing on the stage... all i enjoyed was the fireworks... there is some strange joy in everyone just to see something go BOOM!!!

3-8-08

spent the day sleeping... yup just sleeping

2008-07-29T21:44:00.003+08:00

i finally have time to blog after finishing my NYAA report… these few days have been rather eventful for me…

25-7-08

Fencing with jrs is fun… very fun… well…its me 2nd last time I can go back for fencing until my As are over… went out with parents to orchard road cause my mom need to get some stuff… and this also means I get to go KINO…YES… only there did I found out that stuff in Malaysia is so much cheaper than Singapore… I did get a TTGL book… it was found in the games guide section and it was a gamble to buy it as I will not know if it’s a game guide or a anime guide… thank god the gamble paid off… I see my luck is not that bad…

26-7-08

Math tuition followed by going to Thomson plaza… there I saw… $18.50 for 2.5kg of rice… $62 for 0.443kg of beef and $140.33 for a bottle of ice wine… haha… the fairprice there really do have the finest prices…

27-7-08

After tuition I wanted to go school and study… I did… but the door was locked… when joash came, we went to TYP to try and find a place to study… library and both Macs full… in the end we went to LJS to study…

Ok…maybe life wasn’t that interesting but I had fun…and I still have new getter and POT to watch… and wtf with school rumble season 3 starting at ep 25…!?!?

2008-07-17T21:44:00.003+08:00

boring hours drove me to pose... lol

haven't been doing much the past week, than today rush for 4 hours, than now nothing to do...o.O... strange world

well... not say not doing anything for the past week, i did went for a magic show/play yesterday at the esplanade with the WHOLE family... the magic show was nice and all... was spending my time trying to figure out how it was done... adding in the fact that i forgot to bring my specs...haha... couldn't see much... well the story was touching and all, it was done by a church [FCBC if i'm not wrong]. i did enjoy it...

i have also found a joy in reading this book known to be painful by the bio teachers... the origin of species... yes... it is a very interesting book to read and it also respark my reading craze that died when i finish reading the dan brown books... but now there is a new way of reading the book... i have downloaded the soft copy into my com and have transferred it onto my DS and i can now read the origin of species on my DS...hahahaha...

i am still under the spell of my beautiful being and i have not hurries to get out of it... surely this has got to be bad??? but i guess given my current state of being... having a pillar of support of sorts may be a good thing... how i and at the edge now is kinda freaky that i'm still going on...

i myself cannot believe how small my existence is now... i wonder if anyone is scared of being forgotten??? scared of being alone when around people... but even if i make my cries out to the world, none will hear me out, because my flame is too small or maybe cause there is someone who outshines my flame... every time i see the golden rule of humans being in play... what i can do to you, you cannot do it to me... if i can make you feel bad, you cannot do the same back... its as if the world is just taking everything away from me one by one... leaving nothing but the emptyness in life...

its as if he is out to get me... taking away and forcing his through my life... but i have no one to go to but him and yet its not any better... its the devil or the deep blue sea...

his flame out shines mine, to be seen from afar,
much like the sun overpowering the stars.
only when gone does he no long deny,
like the sun, when little stars shine.

2008-07-13T23:03:00.005+08:00

long long since the last one... school has taken much time of my hands...

one thing take took up a lot of time is the NYAA report that i must finish by the end of the month... i almost done with it, only need to change my skill section into a day-by-day thing...damn... how to do that for toy making??? yes and the bearer of bad new for the whole report finished everything already...lol pro...

some stuff that i have noticed these few days is how a good friend of mine is not coping with the stress of being in the class… I feel very very sad for him as he is not looking well mentally… I just wish I can help him…sadly I can’t

been out last Saturday with QY to sunshine to get stuff… I got myself a TTGL figure that can pose…haha… quite nice only counting out that a part broke off today…haiz… but lucky can cover up for it… and it can perform that giga drill breaker…wonderful…

giga drill breaker

after walking around to a Conner selling *stuff* we found another show that sells models and figures as well but more of the USA kind of stuff…WWE and stuff… but amazingly, I found a ALT model kit in there… yup, time to start saving money… and also on the top shelf that it seems only I can reach, we found a Mazinkaiser figure with a shin getter 1 figure… god knows how long they were they before us coming along but it was what QY was searching for… yes… after playing SRW on the DS and PSP, we have found a liking for the Mazinger and his brothers along with the getters… yup, it was it come, watching anime made even before we were born, now I can say we have reached a higher level of otaku… its like leveling up in a game…

and speaking of shin getters… I have for some unknown reason found a great liking for them building on the liking from SRW… most liking its hearing all the stuff QY said about the series that I have found this strange liking for them…

new getter...ya...

speaking of stories from QY… yeah… the world might end this week due to an experiment in Europe. The people want to fuse 2 atoms together in the world first try at nuclear fusion… but what QY said is that they might fail and the atoms fold into itself and form a black hole on earth… which I need not say is very bad thing… or the energy released is so great that it forms a mini sun on earth… another bad thing… so for those like me who feel that the world is going to end… do what you always wanted to do and live for the last week of your life…

another thing that I found out is how beauty something can be… lately I have been looking at something to me is so beautiful that I can’t take my eyes off… I wonder if everyone has that one thing that to them is so beautiful that they can’t stop looking at it… what has become of me??? And just when things are beginning to look well in my life…ahhhh

and i last note... GGG has also caught my heart... i have no idea y... maybe cause he is the god of destruction... and i love destruction...

HELL AND HEAVEN

2008-07-01T22:59:00.002+08:00

After a wonderful day out with friends to the life of a student again... nice 2 days... yup

30th June

OMG...I HAD SO MUCH FUN WITHOUT THE CLASS TODAY

Ya... start of day must go school for chem spa... how great... nothing much there, just the normal chem spa. After the spa I went home to bath and freshen up to meet up with nik and joash to go watch a movie with T30.

Back at school, nik and I waited for the ever slow rishi and some T30 people to walk out of school and take bus to Far East and change to 124 to DB... MISCOM to the EXTREME!!! Joash and tiny went to summerset rather that DB... they had to run to DB from there to catch the movie... MISCOM to the EXTREME 2!!! We bought an extra ticket by mistake and had to call in a friend to fill up the sit...

Wanted is a damn nice movie... it made my wanna change my life... take control... time to talk to people... now it made me wanna learn how to use knives better... I am so going all out in chanbara now...

Went for dinner with the T30 people at the Singapore flyer... damn the wheel is big...damn big... very very big... we ate some KFC like fast food that cost much the same for a lot more... I could not finish my meal... that shows how much there is...haha...

Took 70M home with rishi, nik and joash, transfer to 163 home... but the ride took an hour... considering its from the city area to central maybe it’s not too long... my god did I have a fun day... ah... can rival the days I spent in Malaysia for all the camps and the fencing trip...haha... never to be forgotten...

1st July

School starts and I have already loss my mind... got up at 530 in the morning to meet rishi for morning run... in the end didn’t run cause the weather not good... wait... maybe it’s just a reason to not run...hmm...

Not much today... just got back the bio MCQ... can’t say anything cause people might come kill me if I did... well its nothing new but my existences is still growing smaller and smaller with each day... even good friends prefer to be with others than with me... soon I will just disappear and no one will notice... I’m sill praying that those important to me will not forget me...guess it’s not working

Speaking of this, I wanna commend on my class’s wonderful system of choosing sits... they take this bingo game with 24 little balls and roll and see what number comes out... the number determines where one sits... its fair and all...until one takes into account that the balls are not replaced... therefore the person at the end gets the last sit...another thing to take into account is the order of which ones spins the toy... from what I can see, those with higher rank in class have top picks... and “unseen” by others, they replace the balls and spin again till the sit they want is out... so these with a low rank or just those who are less cared about[hated]in class have last pick... yup... I had 4 balls to pick from 9,22,23,24[numbers very nice one... the sit all in one corner]... and that’s partly because nik was beside me and 2 person were not in class at that point in time...yup... what a fair system...

Ever had the feeling fate is toying with you??? I have that everyday now... I guess it’s the 2nd year curse that hits me every time... I will go against this... my existence will not grow smaller... I will prove my worth; make my mark in the world...

yup, burning out

One is alone, the other draws a crowd,
One wants to interact, the other always doubts.
They are friends, but far apart,
One treasures the other, the other leaves one in the dark.

2008-06-27T21:09:00.004+08:00

right... the day after the H2 papers... now is the one week wait for the Us to come in... so not looking forward to it...

25th may

BIO paper was a DAMN KILLER...KILLER I TELL YOU... GG, GONE CASE, FINISHED... and the morning i got to school i see the sky i know is GG already...nothing more needs to be said... go home and emo...

yup... not good

26th may

MATH paper also GG... time to go home and emo my sad useless life away... i now understand why i bring a knife with me everytime now... its to use to kill myself when its too much... right and i must waste 4 hours of my time to do the damn CL B paper which was a sleeping period for me... i want to study chem!!!

27th may

chem paper... also gg...2 questions cannot finish... MCQ i was thinking off track... not to say the need to sleep keeps coming to me... haiz... just kill me already...

and the discovery of the day... my good friends joash and nik and i have this nice balance going on that i find quite cool... everytime 2 of us go crazy/mad/childish/high, the remaining one will somehow reamain sane and watch over the other 2 so that they do not cause too much problem... itl like when nik and i go high, joash is always sane to watch over us... and when nik and joash go crazy, i will be there to keep everything in order... this is quite cool i think...

what i find most interesting these few days that my existences seems to be growing smaller... my veiws and comments have not been taken into account... what i do have not been noticed by friends... what is happening??? am i just going to burnout or got rot away???... save for a few people, i have most likely not been noticed my everyone... haiz... is maddness not enough???

maybe one day i will make a list of the factors about my life that makes it very very screwed up... yes... one day

for now... i just hope i will not be forgotten from those people important to me... that will be the worse case... i hope and pray that this will not happen...

2008-06-20T22:18:00.003+08:00

BAD LUCK HITS AGAIN

yes i have been experienceing another string of bad luck over the pass 2 days...

yes...starting with the fact that i still haven't gotten my blade back from coach yet after he forgotten to bring for 2 days...but i don't blame him lah...i mean he is busy... next is the careless me leaving my headphones in my pants and they got into the washing machine and are now un-useable...ya... time to get new headphones...

the worse case of bad luck is that my sandals are now spoiled casue of some bugger who stepped on my sandals when i was walking casue the sole to tear... cause it quite an old pair and the only sandal i have been using for a few years... its kinda weak...damn the bugger... now a have to get a new pair... ya... wasting more money... just what i need...

well i guess some good stuff did happen in this 2 days... met up with old friends for lunch+dinner at sake sushi buffet MADDNESS... yup 45 tako balls eaten by 2 guys... not to add in the 7 handrolls by QY alone... i also ate my fill... while is quite alot i might say... adding in the ice-cream and watermelon at the end...haha... i was still full at 10pm that night when we finished the buffet at 6pm...

the arcade trip was fun too... i beat beatrice!!! yeah... and that was after a year's worth of not playing RBF2...haha... garnet rocks man... period... HOD3 was fun...omg... 2 S rank for the stages??? how in the world did get that...and after not playing for bout a year... strange world...

what more needs to be said???

thats bout all thats happened these few days... other than the under17s match on thursday... but thats for the J1s to talk about...i'm just there to watch...haha...

2008-06-18T17:36:00.002+08:00

again this blog is abit outdated ah... just abit

another else notice that the night sky these few days have been quite bright for a night sky... something like a shade of orange...hmm... i wonder...

been studying these days but production levels are not as high as i want them to be...haiz... the fire that was burning at the start is been put out... still... have to keep pushing...

went to Didi's house in the weekend to welcome him back to singapore...haha quite fun... meeting my friends from sec school again... haiz... how i miss them... going for another meeting tomorrow...haha... looking forward to it...

speaking bout tomorrow... its the under 17s... i am in it but the Jrs that i have been interacting/helping/training are going to fight it out in their first competition... so place your bets on how many wash outs there willbe tomorrow... i'm guessing 5...haha... anyway... i hope all the trainings they had before this was enough... cause i know for my year it was not... and to note... the J1s this year are damn on about fencing... even more than me last year... they even go FM on their own to train...omg... and to those of you J1s who haven't collected your plastic tubing, please get them in the fencing room and pay me... i hope to see a great match tomorrow..haha

and i still have the damn NYAA report to write finish in a months time as well as picture taking for all of my model sets... thats gonna take some time... and i still have quite alot of anime to watch... and some to claim back from friends... I WANT MY TTGL BACK... also to note... i have gone mad... yup...mad

and i wanna beat this and use it ASAP

2008-06-07T23:20:00.003+08:00

i am begaining to like looking at the sky... given that i have nonthing better to lookat for the pass few days i was in school studying...

these few days i have been in school[away from the ever evil com]studying and hoping to get info into my head... now i have a choice, i would rather NOT study in the library... the PAC is still the best place to study... nice wind, nice lighting, my bag next to me and i can think aloud... ah... studying heaven... and yes... NO COMPUTER...

went back to fencing last friday... man have i deproved... all well... at least i still have the know how on how to fence...haha... and it seems that my Jrs have gotten they equippment... haha... great... now they can really train...and time for me to start making those 22 plastic shifts for my Jrs...haha... i am so glad that i have not lost my DnT blood...

watching prince of tennis these few days... what can i say... its like taking crack... i have to watch the whole match in one shot... i cannot stop in the middle of the match cause it will be hnging in my mind who won and how he won... all well... maybe its a form of destressing...

i have figured out that i may be one of the more unlucky person in socialty... i have seen cases where the very thing that i want to do is being done by a friend or happen after i leave the place... i have also seen questions with 2 logical choices and i randomly pick one of the 2 just the get it wrong... MOST OF THE TIME... it is very very painful to see the very thing i was waiting for to happen just when i have to leave... haiz... maybe i just have to accept this unlucky-ness of mine... get use to it, embrace it, make it my own

behold me... the bringer of bad luck...

maybe this whole thing can be solved if i can return to living in the real world again... because i am still living partly in the anime world and partly in a little space in my head full of fantsay and make believe...yes...but coming into the real world is kinda hard... should i try???

2008-05-29T21:23:00.006+08:00

the lost city of CHANDRAPUNANITAN!!!!!!!

rite... thats was the fun-ness of the fencing outing last sat

24th may

got a msg from aaron in the morning about a fencing outing later than day... haha... sure... y not go...

went for math tuition first before taking 855 all the way to vivo city where we were to meet... rite... msg say to meet at 2... i got there at 1.50... so i walked around aimlessly for 10 mins and 20 mins more to find the Jrs gathered at the main hall of vivo city... waited for the others to arrive before taking the "train" to santosa... haha... haven't been there since sec 2 outing??? forgot already...haha...

walked to the beach from the station where we alight and placed our bags down before going for lunch... damn... the food at sabtosa is damn EX... $21 for some chicken meal...haiz... what to do??? the supply of food centers there near the beach is so low... so by DDSS, the pirse will be high... and it proves true... wow... econs worked in real life...o.O

went back to the beach to play some beach games before finally taking a dip in the sea... MASS CANNONBALL... haiz.... we tried to pull kain into the water but fail to get him completely wet...haha... after all that crap... some Jrs and i decided to swim to a nearby island[connected by a bridge but heck] for the fun of it... damn... half way there we felt too tired and decided to swim back...nah... we not so stupid... mad, but not retarded... and for the fun of it... we decided to swim all the way back...haha...

after good to 7-11 for drinks, we decided to buried sai[again] and video him going in and out... soon another Jrs got buried and we also had a couple ver where both of them are buried...haha... spent a few hours just digging, filling up the hole, digging it out again, filling it up again and digging again...haha... we many people are together, we all go crazy... maddness is a really fun state of being... haha

we went to bath and freshen up when it started go get dark and met up with everyone before going back to vivo city and having dinner... on the way... i found out the some of my Jrs are also true anime watchers[means no B and N] and we spent alot of time talking bout anime anime and more anime... dinner was subway on the "roof" of vivo coupled with the old photo taking...

haiz... even going home was interesting... but thats another matter... sad matter...

in this day i figured out how important it is to be mad for some people... its somehow the only way one can make your existence felt by those around oneself... cause some people just have such a small existence that he will be treated as an extra by others no matter how hard he trys to fit in or make friends... so the act of maddness is a way to increase his existence so people will notice and maybe befriend him... but sadly this only affects total strangers like a new class or something like that... it will not affect set mindsets bout the person by people has interacted for a long time... haha... but on a another note... maddness is fun... you see things differently through the eyes of maddness...

CHANDRAPUNANITAN

from the lost city of chandrapunanitan

the explorers in search of chandrapunanitan

group photo again

the many steps in attacking in fencing

and now Mugen no Frontier - Super Robot Taisen OG Saga...hahaha

2008-05-23T21:36:00.002+08:00

ok... just finished all my H1 papers for mid years... how to say leh... DIE

forget bout GP today cause all the ideas i have for the topic on heroes are from anime and games... ya... GaoGaiGar for the win[but cannot use] and worse off the the essay... where the freaking sci and tech which i have been pumping on did NOT come out...WTH...

and econsis just as bad... cause one week of mugging econs doesn't really help if your brain is "full"... i can just write out everything i know about econ growth and marcoencons... damn sad... just hope that i don't get a U like the common test...

thinking back on my week of mugging and non-stop studying... i feel that i have chanced on some interesting... i slowly began to notice that the way i look at the world is greatly different from others... it seens that i look too far into the future and for the "greater good" of the human species... heck... that justs makes me different[strange] from other people...

also... mugging can cause tensions to run high even between good friends... point to note how some people just cannot concentrate when someone is around/within sight... and hoh some people just make the area a no study zone... well... no changing the way people act... just have to accept it...

which brings up an interesting fact i figured out... i found that friendship is one great irony... true friendship is built on the flaws of ones friends and how to live with them... where as a "false" friendship is built on what benefits one can reep off others and the same to you... it seema that only with reals friends one can scold and tease[insult] the other party with little/no side effects... it might even be better for the other party...o.O

time is really running out as the hoilday[study non-stop] period is now on me... i just hope i can spend my time wisely and study...

thank you for being there in times of need,
thank you for being there when times are bleak.
thanks for helping me all the way,
i hope we can all be there at the end of the day.

2008-05-09T23:21:00.002+08:00

right... event full week???...crap up PE to bio SPA skill A to chinese singing thing to CL B test[which i MIGHT pass] to best day of the week... thats everyday with an event to talk bout...

5th may

PE...netball... accuse of being rough again... so its my fault for push the ball away and you ran into my hand... hmm... what am i to say to that??? wrong place wrong time??? killed in the line of duty???... but with the way everyone is now.. i'm not suprised... i guess that day was just a one off event when i felt like i'm within the class after a long time...

6th may

ya... bio SPA skill A... one hour of non-stop writing and drawing 4 digrams to add to the piece of work known as SKILL A... at least i managed to finished the work within the time limit... but i was thinking whether to cancel out the calculations part of my answer cause of the question... in the end i just did it... one big cross across my paper...haha...

went to get my new GC after skill A with rishi... damn... have to wait for him outside his class for damn long to wait for him to pack up... well at least he is willing to bring me to this unknown place to get the GC... the 960 we took there was damn empty lah... we were the only people in the back cart of the long bus... haha...finally got there and had to find the shop that sold the CG... the shop owner very effective... i go in only he know what i needed and i got the [DAMN F***ING UGLY] GC within 5 mins... haiz...i'm bit sick of blue already leh... took 851 to AMK with rishi after that... really greatful from him to help me out... cannot carry on with JC life with out a GC... and i DAMN THE BUGGER WHO TOOK MINE... HOPE HE FAILS HIS A LEVELS

sorry... emo out burst

7th may

rite... PE... everything was fine... just running a few rounds round the track... but after that... play basketball... thats when all the fun comes in... aside from the fast that i can't play basketball, the teams were spit ourselves such that there were 4 guys on one side and 3 one the other... the rest of the team is balanced out by girls... i was with nik and joash along with kelly and HM... the others i not sure... game start... haiz... getting owned... i will not blame anyone that we are getting trashed cause partly i'm damn tired from running 8 rounds and that i can't play the game... but also cause somehow we were outnumbered by at least 2 man... whether or not the other team knows this i'm not sure but they were taking full advantage of it... whether to make fun of us or some other reason i dare not say... but from this way of acting [i may not be any better] i detest them for their actions... to the point of willing to throw a punch at those with little honor...

went for joash's chinese singing thing... haiz... y he must crap up in the middle of the song... all well... at least he done his best...

8th may

o.O CL B test.... OMG... i could read the stuff there... i could do the paper... i may be able to pass... OMG... finished the paper in 30 mins while miggling with QY on WEWY...haha

and to all who condem me in why i'm in CL B... its cause i can't read the questions of the damn CL paper... so if i can't read the question???... how the hell can i answer the damn question... and one more thing... can i ask how the hell do i study for chinese when i can't read what i'm studying... like don't even know that i'm reading... so yeah... screwed

9th may... BEST DAY IN WEEKS...perfect day

woke up at 0530 to take the first 855 that come by my house... in the end i got to school at 0620... replaying SRW while waiting for the others to come... when down for the prize presentation/shocking wake up call thing in the hall... aside from the uber tall guest of honor and the one man choir and the shocking 8A and god knows what else pro... nothing much happened... it was rather boring... i was thinking of study plans for the week ahead so that next year i can return to recive at least one prize...haha... must aim high...

one good thing that happened way that the class indo domistic helper/big mouth not in class... so class was damn peaceful and quiet...quite rare... also... a few people skip chem tut... so the class was quite small...haha... all the better... better for learning... dunno when another day like this will happen again... i hope soon...

ya eventful week... ya tired body... ya degrading sanity... ya crap up life...

go ahead and chip away my sanity,
enjoy when your blood spills a many.
watch what you do, watch what you say,
it will be sure to came back and bite you one day.

2008-05-02T21:53:00.002+08:00

back from a hard day of playing capt ball... i see that i am updating this blog once every 2 weeks??? give or take a few days???

looking back on life... i see a few days that are quite "fun"

28th april...
AHHHHHHHHH.... i wanna kill myself... what bullshit bout being a gentleman when i can even play a nice game of net ball without harming or almost harming 3 girls... i should really go and die already... damn... i wonder is it my fault of a case of wrong time wrong place...??? really try to work off all that anger and hate in thai boxing but didn't really work leh... damn DAMN

30th april...
joanne's birthday, happy birthday little girl... hope you like the gift joash and i got you... strange... now that fencing has stepped down... i have so much free time to remember joash's and joanne's birthday...haiz... but other than that... i have no free time to do other stuff... like reading books or stuff like that... studying really taking up alot of time ah...

was minggling with nik during math tut... haiz... should not have finished the math HW so fast... but i think we each earned bout 300-500 MPP...

when for fencing after quite a long time of slacking... today, we had to bring the J1s to FM for training... haha... quite nice to feel that i'm the only serior there helping coach... in the end i was playing DJMAX on QY's PSP and slacking off... also QY and i were abusing the minggle systhem on WEWY...haha... totally devalues any pins that need minggle PP to lv up... best thing happen when i found out that the J1s used my blade until the wire was cutted... best thing is that they never tell me... haiz... have to ask coach to rewire for me... lucky the cost not so high... so going to ask the J1s to pay for this...

1st may
when to watch The Forbidden Kingdom with joash and nik... damn rishi made us come so early to watch the 1250 show and he didn't turn up... haiz... the show was nice... the fighting part only... the story bit off... heck... got 2 eyecandy can already... played abit of arcade after than... damn... my skills all gone already... must be about a year never really play arcade my skill all poof already... got trinity blood book 8 before going off... have to get ready for spart day tomorrow...

2nd may
sports day...haha... got up at 0530 to get ready and take the first 163 to meet rishi at TPY... haiz... we changed to 157 and got to some unknown place and walk quite some distance to CCAB... waited around for a while before the events started...haha... watching teachers and other people running...

went to play capt ball with the class and the Jr class...haha... damn fun even if we only got 4th... but at least better than last year where we had our asses handed to us... haiz... even my hight cannot do shit if the ball is thrown in an arch over me... so sad... but at least i blocked my fair share of balls coming in...haha... so happy with myself... and the rest of the team made up of the to classes combined was great... wonderful...

after the whole event is over QY and i went to TPY for lunch and wanted to go back to BHSS to play around with our Jrs... BUT the school having exams now and CCA step dowm for the period... in the end i went over to QY's house to play DJMAX... haha... played for an hour plus... my record so far...12100 combo... haha... but still cannot beat HY's one... 20665 combo... OMG lah... how the hell did he get that???

thats botu all that happened these few days... tomorrow still have to go for the CJ band concert...haha

damn... i think i really hooked onto DJMAX already... keep having the songs in my head...ahhhh... i wanna play sunset rider and ladymade star...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

for her i try to be more
but sadly, i can't hide my flaw
i just have to change who i am
in hopes to be a better man

2008-04-21T22:13:00.002+08:00

damn this blog is outdated...

anyway....i just completed my 4 day marathon of kinda endless working with no time to rest and watch anime... friday to today each have one BIG chunk of time spent to study or improve my education... or just spend time with friends and working out...

18th april
5hours non-stop today cause the stupid CL B is at my break time and thus i have no break today... haha... 5 hours non-stop education... kill me now... at least after school i can rest abit and have lunch before going to the library and studying with joash till 1530... went to the fencing room after that and slack off waiting for the J1s to stop training so i can fence... in the end i played QY's PSP till around 1700 before fencing sabre with one of the girls... damn didn't even get to fence epee today... haiz...

19th april
super pack day... math tuition from 1100 to 1300... sci tuition from 1430 to 1630... chanbara from 1700 to 1900... fencer dinner from 1900 to 2245... thats bout today's events... the fencer dinner was fun... haha... jason's birthday... now he is one year older... but not any wiser... thanks Mr. tan for the wonderful dinner where so many events happen... thanks kent and victor for providing much entertainment for the night... its ok kent, i hope that thinking others went through the same sad life as you helps you sleep better at night... and to all fencers there that night... that hand joke thing ends there... lets not bring it into school time... haha... thanks all for the wonderful night that we had...

20th april
woke up at 0840 today so i can leave the house at 0900 to meet joash and study together at woodlands library... we met on 169 and went to mac for a greatly over priced breakfast... that new breakfast thing at mac... not really that good... not worth the $5.80... at 1030, the library is already full and we could not find any free tables to work on... we had to use some coner of the library and start studying... it was quite productive i guess... i did a summary map for bio and some other crap... but i did fail to understand vectors and complex numbers for the damn test this wed... haiz... and rishi still have my complex 2 which i need to revise... we left the place at 1330 for lunch and some entertainment at the arcade... haiz... my GS skills lost already... didn't make it pass the mansion stage... DAMN... we returned to woodlands library to study... damn the place is even more pack... had to use some other coner on the first floor to study... we left at 1600 and i went to my grandparent's house at S'wang...

21th april
if the 5 hours marathon was not hard enough, i have a 12 hour marathon today... haha... i think i got high on non-stop studying... showed off during PE... haiz... my breaks were spent on the bio summary map and F***ing CL B... nothing more to say... i guess my highness kicked in in bio lect... really lost my mind there... PE was worse... haven't played a game for so long i think i got damn rough... hit jagan twice... sorry man... really sorry... my highness really kicked in when i said that line that won me 31 push ups... haha... but strangly... there was no feeling of guilt, no feeling of remose, no feeling of pain when i've done something wrong... i finally understand what it means to mean what you say... and i mean it...haha... i mean, whats the point of hiding the feeling of hate??? just make it clear that i hate you and just be fine with it...i really don't see the point of hiding feelings like this... went to gym and "boxing" after PE...haha... 3 hours of fittness... can't get any better than that... had dinner in school with joash `before going home and getting ready for sci tuition at 2000.... haha... and this completes my 12 hours marathon today... and my mind os not really working well... wonder what stupid things i'm gonna do tomorrow...hahaha

is it truly worth overdoing,
when its worth doing?
can i get everything all in place?
will it all be just a waste?

btw... code geass and S-CRY-ED FTW

2008-04-12T22:27:00.002+08:00

since today i'm resting cause i'm quite sick, i will take the chance to blog...

this week was kinda busy.... mainly cause of CL B that came into my life and i must waste no spend time studing chinese again... anyway... this week is marks my slow return to being a mugger... and also cause of CL B, its kinda stopping me from doing so... haiz... some much time wasted...

8th april
JOASH'S BIRTHDAY....haha... happy birthday joashh.... kinda late but heck.... but i did give him a birthday present...haha... cause he is now 18... no more said

went for the choir concert to support adam and joanne who were performing... adam did ask me to go support them last year... so y not??? reached the place 45mins early cause i'm not sure how to get there... but i did in the end... the concert was enjoiable, amazing how the human voice can sing so many notes and at such loudness as well... i was constantly drawn back by how pro choir people are after each song... i will never look down on choir people anymore... not that i have...

9th april
weapon exchange day in the fencing room... the foil'ers tried epee, the epee'ers tried sabre, and the sabre'er tried epee... but casue of different weapons rules and stuff... sabre'ers were slashing with epee... foil'ers did quite well in epee..haha... speed counters all...

10th april
today got a freaking running nose the whole day... haiz... wonder y i'm falling sick... and today i quite a packed day... classes till 2, CL B till 3, GP sub with kai till 4 and bio lect till 5... haha... and tuition at home from 8.30pm to 10.30pm... hahahahaha.... i'm getting a little crazy

11th april
the illness has taken a trun for the worse... today was even worse than yesterday...damn... i really have no mood to do anything... maybe the only reason i'm in school today was cause of the chem test... which i hope i did well in... break time before the test, while others are studying, i was sleeping outside of class on the bench... and today PW results come out... haiz... got a C... dunno y i put in so much effort an dstill get this kind of results...haiz...

i went home today stright after school and slept till 6pm and went to see a doc... damn... fever of 39.0 degree...haha... went home and sleep even more.... now record... slept at 8pm and a friday...haha... guess i'm still weak...

thats just bout all for this week...nothing much... now i will go rest some more...

2008-04-04T22:19:00.004+08:00

back from fencing A div at clementi...haha... CJC got quite a catch this year... been leaving class Early this week to go to support or to fence...

on a different note, YAH... pass my fitness test...hahaha... silver... 8 pull-ups, 9.4s run, 265 jump, 47 reach, 63[67 really but 4 no count] sit ups and 12.13,min for 2.4...HAHAHAHAHA

31th march to 3rd April

The Monday was the ladies epee single event, ladies sabre single event and the men foil single event... i went down to support at 1 with QY, kian, kent, jess and a J1 girl whose i forgot her name... the ladies did very well, all of which made it into the top 8 placing... the sad thing is that sam and nov had to kill each other off at the match to enter semi-finals... we could not cheer for anyone as both are from CJC... in the end, sam made it into the semi-finals along with mao... sam lost in the semi-finals while mao made it into the finals with an impressive 5 underarm hits in a row... but sadly, we did not win gold in the match... but claimed the 3rd and 2nd placing...

The men foil was another event where we made it into the finals... nothing much to say but that i was a very very close match

Tuesday was men epee singles event, men sabre singles event and ladies foil single event... my round robin pool have john boon in it and i was damn sad cause i have never beaten him before... anyhow... i just have to beat everyone else to get a good placing in the DE... as said, i loss to john boon 4/5 but its alright cause the loss is quite small... i did beat every other fencer in my pool earning me a overall placing of 3rd...which means i sit the first DE round... it was smooth sailing into the top 8 for me...

i won my top 16 match just in time to watch Jason and the nat fencer from MJC match... i will have to fight the winner of that round... Jason was losing and the nat fencer was taunting him very badly... in the end, Jason loss... i went up next to fencer the nat fencer... i know that i and weaker than him in terms of experience as i only had 1 year of fencer experience... i just waited for him and try to take point off him... the first point was a double, i was very happy to score any point against him so i was cheering from myself, so was the CJC people watching... i scored a single point off him via a straight attack with the FSN mindset... haha... another double followed and then a single flick shot from him on my arm [the mark from that attack is still on my arm today] from then on i just scored single shots off him when he attacked... in the end, he pulled out of the match due to a fever... final score, 13/4

i was up against kian in the semi-finals... i have very little chance of winning him cause we have been fencing together since last year... in the end i loss together with my first blade broken when we clashed... i cried for that blade as it saw me through 2 competitions and this one... i fought very hard to take revenge for that blade for 2 point before feeling very tired and losing the match 8/15... kian went to beat the other MJC nat fencer and win the gold medal...

on the sabre side, i was not sure how it was but the finals was CJC vs CJC so yeah... foil we got silver after a very intense match...

wed was the team events that we got silver for men foil, ladies epee and ladies sabre... team matches were a round robin system[ which is very screwed up]... also, QY brought my a new blade to replace the one i broke on Tuesday... it was my belated birthday present... thats like the best thing ever... really really thank full for him for doing that...

Thursday was the final day and the team event for men epee and men sabre... round robin again and we were up against VJC first where we loss... the matches after we were winning... the best match was CJC vs MJC for their gold medal or our bronze... the first 4 matches were very close with us having a 2 point loss... when i went up against the nat fencer i won in the singles event, i brought the lead to a 2 point lead... every point i scored i was so happy that i jumped myself back to the starting line to start the next match... kian was up to maintain the lead and i was up against the last guy from their team... i brought the lead to a nice 4 or 5 point lead... Jason also scored a few nice hits against the other nat fencer... with a nice 7 point lead, kian went up to face off... we won in the end with a nice point at the 2 sec mark and won when the time ran out... we were all so happy than... yet, round robin is a very screwed up system when the team that won bronze beat the team that won gold... also, the matches were bit screwed up when the strongest member was losing points to the weakest member from the other team...

Sabre team we got a gold as well with a close 44/45 match against RJC...

total catch will be shown here later...

that's most of what happened during the 4 days... now i have to really catch up on school work... lucky i done carboxyoic acid and PnC before hand... so not really late to hand up work for anything like that... BUT next week for 3 big test... math, econs and chem...WTF... AHHHHH...

have to go mug soon

all the medals won for A divs

everyone that played a part in winning

all my medals from a year of fencing

2008-03-29T23:26:00.003+08:00

haven't posted for a long time... these few days have been hellish for me... too many things going wrong and too many thing to do... but i somehow found the will to blog...

few days ago, i had a dream that compiled me to write 32 lines for her... i may not even know who "her" is but somehow i wanted to write it... enjoy...

you are one who changed the way i think,
is it you whom i see in my dreams?
you are a fine lady,fragile and fair,
being without you is a feeling i cannot bare.

sometimes when i'm in darkest night,
i look to you to find the light.
sometimes when i'm in pain,
i look to you and i'm fine again.

i have watched silently for some time,
wishing that all will be fine.
i wish to help you as much as i can,
for you i will become a gentleman.

talking to you is great,
a feeling nothing can fake.
being with you time flies,
i dread the moment i must wave goodbye.

watching you there by yourself,
how i wish i can accompany you with myself.
watching your back as you walk away,
how i would like to walk by your side, if you may.

maybe i'm too rush,
make i'm not trying hard enough.
whatever the case may be,
i hope that you do not hate me.

even if nothing is happening today,
i sometimes hope that the is a way.
all i can do now is to look to tomorrow,
and wish that it bares no more sorrows.

the few hours i spent with her,
are surely time i will treasure.
we have few in common, sad to say,
but friends i hope to be, everyday.

too many things have got wrong these weeks that i have given up on accounting them... i just hope that the following days will be better... hope is strong word to use here... for i am really just living each day as it is...

2008-03-15T22:17:00.003+08:00

looking back on the one week break, i found out that i haven't done anything other than fencing related stuff... Friday, we had a J2 fencing camp with guest visit by our seniors... damn long day... 8am to 8pm and dinner after than in town...

14th march

J2 fencing camp... ya... non stop fencing from dawn till dusk... not really... i woke up at 0600 and got ready to go the school... left home at 0700 and got to school at 0740... the 132 came faster than i thought... wait outside the fencing room till 0815 for Kain and the girls to arrive and open the door...

i waited till 0900 or around that time before i had the mood to fence... i started fencing with Jessica, than Clarabelle, Novielene, Sam and Kain... all were 15 point matches... IN A ROW... hahaha... i was damn tired after that... and it wasn't even lunch time yet... soon we went down for "breakfast" at 1100 and sat down and rest awhile before going back up to the fencing room to fence again...

some seniors came down and we had a hell of fun fencing each other... soon we were all hungry and the girls ordered Macs... damn if i had known that the canteen was closed than i would have ordered with them... but... i was my own fault to be too concern about money matters...haha... in the end i just walked backed to the coffee shop downhill from BHSS to have some food before walking back...

if memory serves me right, i fenced Joseph, Kai wen and master today... i loss every one of the matches but hack... it was damn fun fencing with them... one learns so many new things from it... also, we were treated to the full range of tricks, marry making and fun from the seniors from their fencing...

we went for dinner in town after the whole event at 2000... when we got there, we wanted to go to food republic, but no sits there.... so change plans, to go some noodle place with overly priced food... soon, the J2s decided to walk to some food court near DB to the dinner... it was quite a long walk, and we had to carry all our gear along with us... but when we got there, the sight of a near empty food court was damn nice... we hurried to placed our bags down and get some food... most of us got Korean food that was damn filling for $6.50... Jason and i helped clear the leftovers from the girls who could finish their meals... we talked till 2200 when the seniors wanted to meet up at Starbucks and slip little cups of coffee... Jessica, Novielene, Kain and i went home rather than join the seniors cause we were damn tired... we walked to some bus stop and waited for our bus... i went home with Novielene again on 167... today, i did walk her up the path and saw her off near my house there...

i spent the remaining time of today saving all 91 of Jessica's pictures from the Malaysia trip... waiting for Kai wen to send me his and i can burn the whole lot into disc and pass to the girls...

now for the malaysia trip day 3

9th march

I set my alarm to go off at 0550 in the morning so we got an early start today... QY and i freshen up for the day and went down for breakfast... we were rather early today... breakfast started at 0630, we were down there at 0615... And, we were the only CJ people there until Morgan came down at 0645... Also to note, we were told to meet in the lobby with all our gear at 0715... Kai, kai wen, Bjorn, Jason and kain came down at 0700... Wow...

When we reached the hall, there wasn’t many people there yet and we were still rather tired... some rays of confident came from Bjoen with him announcing that we will win this because we have THE POWER [GGG references] and Bjoen [beyond]... that did lighted the mood for me... but the thought of fencing people who are god knows how many levels above you is damn bad...

My competition starts at 0900 and i suited up and got ready to fence by then... i was to fence in poll 1, right at the end of the hall... let me break down the people in my poll... there is the top Malaysian fencer, a nat HK fencer, the one who beat the HK fencer, the left hander, and noob and me... looking at the competition, i only had chance to beat the left hander or the noob... i did beat the noob... and loss to everyone else... but my matches against everyone else were small losses... 4/5, 3/5... but a must say, the matches were all fun...very fun... i still remember the screams of anger from the Malaysian fencer when i doubled him 3 times...haha... evil me...

Jason and Kain did better than me, 4 wins to 1 loss... kai and kai wen scored about the same as me... soon all our matches are over and we rested and waited for the results... i went to watch the sabre guys fence... QY did quite well for a guy who hasn’t fence for 2 months; he still managed to scores quite well in his poll...

The results were out at 1200 and i was ranked no 49... haiz... not a very good score... the guy i had to fence next is some bugger from i forgot where with nat fencer training... when i fenced him, the scores were going from a led back to a draw and back to a lead to a draw again... this lasted till the final min where he had a 2 point lead over me... at that point in time, i knew that i cannot catch up within a min and just decided to have fun and play around with him... at the start of the match, i charged right at him trying a move that Calvin taught me and worked on him before... haha... in my joking mood... i was having quite a lot of fun charging in at him like that but i still didn’t score any point or loss any... the final score was 10/8 to him...

Like me, the rest of the CJ fencers all got knocked out in their first DE matches... the only one left is kai who fought on till the top 16 where he faced the top Malaysian fencer who was in my poll... haiz... he loss but we had a damn fun time there... a lot of experience gained...

We planned to go out after the competition... meet in the lobby of the hotel at 1830 [i think] after we all bathe and freshen up... QY couldn’t follow us because his ankle problem caused him not to be able to walk around too much... we met in the lobby at 1830 and went off to some area filled with food stalls to have our dinner... it was a damn good dinner with fry ray, snails, prawns and clams... somehow my intake of food increased so much that i was cleaning up the plates of its leftovers... the rains came and hindered our plans to go china town... in the end we decided to go time square to do a little shopping... we walked to the huge shopping centre and reached the place at 2130... The centre closes at 2200... haha... 30mins of shopping... since i have nothing in mind to get, i just followed the girls around and “guarded” them from any danger that Malaysia may pose...we met up back at the star bucks at the main entrance and walked back to the hotel... we still didn’t want to sleep yet and so we went to a waffle shop and had waffles... Bjorn and 1 shared a double chocolate ice-cream waffle [hack how it will hurt my throat] we finished our waffle and waited for the girls to finish theirs... in the end, they could not do so and Bjorn and i had to eat their leftovers... after that, we returned to the hotel and watched a movie...

We went to Jason’s room to watch the movie using QY’s laptop... we were watching this Korean movie about some wishing stairs thing... it was supposed to be a horror movie but i found in less than that... the girls were screaming during the movie which made it kinda funny... but the funniest was kai wen covering him eyes during the movie and Bjorn hiding behind Sam halfway in the movie... haha... it ended at 3am and we returned to our rooms to sleep and get ready for the following day of nothingness while we waited to go home at 1800... Before that, we were free to do anything...

thats all for now...

the men epee fencers

singapore twin towers

the gang

Bjorn with THE POWER, behind Sam

2008-03-13T12:26:00.005+08:00

due the fact that i have really nothing to do now... i will blog about yesterday... a freaking long and tiring day

13th march

J1 fencing camp... i was there to help out... i woke up at 0600 to get ready to go to school... when i got there... it was around 0740... we were told to meet at 0800...so yeah... bit early... but, till 0810... no one came yet... and the other J2s didn't come till 0815...

the plan for morning is to have PT till 1200 and break for lunch... the J2s other than Jason, Kain and Sonia joined in with the J1s to play some ice breakers...some old but yet fun games later... we were to start some basic footwork training... if we had that kind of training every training, than by may we will have rock hard legs... so that gives a idea of how tough the training was...

running and push ups came after that... first, the guys were to assume the push up position while the girls run one round around the track... and when they returned[quite a while later] we were to do 10 push ups... than it was the guys turn to run around the track while the girls assume the push up position... we ran faster so the girls didn't have to hold the position for so long... we did this 4 times, but the each time we were doing more pull ups and harder ver of push ups...

after that, we went into real fencing training... the basics that all J1s must know... i joined in to teach the J1s and to help them if they needed any... lunch followed after that

after lunch, the J1s were given the chance to fence in full gear... we had to lent them our suits and blades so that we can watch how they fence and those see who remains in fencing and who has to leave... the girls were to fence first while the guys were to have training under the teacher...i was to judge the matches and teach them how the game works... my blade is one of the blades that was in hot demand... cause its the ONLY french grip in the room... but it was heart pain when the GIRLS were poking so hard with my blade such that it was bending upwards[like all other blade that was used that day] my heart cries out for my blade every time it got hit... but i spotted some rather good female fencers and hope that they can remain in fencing and develop their skills... the guys came and fence after that... same thing... but the guys were ALOT less rough when it comes to using of blades... but one blade did have its wire cut...haiz...

dinner was pizza.. at 1800... the camp ended at 1700 but many stayed back to fence[so nice of them]... we fenced till 2000 before going off to town with mr.tan and some of the J1s and had tea at wheelock place... i took 167 home with Novielene and Victor... Victor got off 2 stops later... Novielene and i went on to some prata place there where we got off... it was not far from where we stay but her father was coming to fetch her from that bus stop... i bid she farewell and walked home in the dark protecting myself with my blade... in the end, i think i got home faster than her...haha...

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stupid, where is the john bull i strive to be?

how can i leave her behind me?

i must set some rule,

and follow them in what even i do.

that's all for today... still got another fencing camp for the J2s on Friday...yay... my full body pain is still gonna get worse... i'm so happy...

now for what happen during the fencing trip to Malaysia... day 2

8th march

[spelling of names may be wrong]

I set my alarm to go off at 0600... but, Morgan called and woke us up at 0557, and the morning call service called at 0559... THAN my alarm went off...haha... QY and i bathe before going down to the 2nd floor to have breakfast... its a classic hotel breakfast... we were told that the guys could go back and rest till 1000 where we were to meet in the lobby to make our way to the venue of the competition, Olympic hotel...

QY and i returned to watch anime till 1000 while Morgan played QY’s PSP in the room... when we met at the lobby, some were late... so we decided to go off in 2 groups... i followed Jason, Kain and Bjorn and took a taxi to the hotel... total trip fare...RM5... which is bout $2.50...lol... Singapore meter starting price...

The girls have not started fencing yet... but Joseph, victor and JJ have already started their men foil round robins... from the looks of it, they were up against very tough people... JJ won only one match in the poll and the others i dunno... soon the girls started fencing and those they were fencing were net fencers, it is no douth that most of they loss most of their matches... and i don’t blame them... even i can’t even hope to beat those FEMALE fencers[not that i’m sexist or anything but female fencers are generally weaker] the only one that did alright was Sam... she got a few wins in her poll... but those that made it through, grace, Sam and Anabelle, none got through their first DE... so yeah...

QY and i went to cheer Joseph on... even though my voice is dead-ish, i still cheered for him... he made it through his first DE and we were hoping that he could go further... but sadly he didn’t go any further... he lost against a nat fencer... we went back to the hotel after that... QY, me, Joseph, Kay and Kai wen...

We went to a shopping center next to our hotel after returning while waiting for Joseph to bath before going for dinner... i tried to buy an apple... but it seem that i need a price tag on the apple before i can buy it... o.O... we met back at the hotel and went off to get dinner... Joseph showed us this restron called naab where we could get good erande food... we were joined by an FM/ex CJ fencer call Ming how [spelling maybe wrong]...it was a short walk away from the hotel and we ate a good dinner... it was damn filling... one big bowl of rice and lamb meat for me... can compare to MY chicken cutlet at RP... we went around to walk aimless for 2 hours[i kid you not] after that following Joseph and ka wen through the different shopping centers around the area...

We returned at 2200 to get orders for tomorrow... men epee and men saber... before going up to sleep... but before that, Bjorn came up to our room to pass us Kain’s and QY’s PSP for charging[long story] and cause Jason, Kain and the epee girls having some meeting in his room, 614... he was ether-ing on QY’s laptop... super fun game... he left at 2320 and we went to sleep and got ready for tomorrow... QY’s and my big day...

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i watch those that others don't,

for i know what its like to fight alone.

is it better to be with you at the end,

or watching from the back from from the start to the end?

pictures from day 2

the epee fencers

joseph fencing... in blue

2008-03-11T22:43:00.005+08:00

i'm back from fencing in malysia...

i returned this moring at 1 am... got home at 2am...mom came and fetch me...once again... she is the best mom even...

thinking back on the trip...omg... i had so much fun... but at a price.. my vioce is dead again... and this time i feel it might take longer to heal... maybe an apple is not enough anymore...

i'm gotten post each days events here for all to read... plus pictures taken...haha... enjoy

7th march

bio paper today... hopefully my best paper... but... dunno lah... after that... at last ALL the papers are over and i can truely enjoy my hoilday and trip to malaysia and get my ass handed over to the fencers there... also got back my A' level chinese results... watching everyone jumoing for joy at their As and Bs...some Cs and Ds... i can only stand there and wait for my results... i was not expecting anything more than a U, and a U is what i got... but i'm alright with it... what i'm not alright with is that there are those who passed and need not worry about this stupid subject anymore and are sobbing in one corner crying about their Bs and Cs when they could have gotten an A... what the hell... the U grader is here alright with his results and those that got higher than him are unhappy with their's... wonderful... so should i go kill myself cause of the U???

but after that crap... i met up with QY and the other fencers and got ready to leave for malaysia... we left at 1400 and got to singapore customs at 1530 after a detour to pick up some FM fencers... i am not gonna write about the 6 hour trip there but it was rather boring... STUPID SRW STAGE... i'm stuck there for the WHOLE trip... on the way we saw a rainbow... and the girls all gathered that that side of the bus to look at this rainbow... but i have to say lah... it was a nice big rainbow... quite beautiful... when we finally got to the hotel at KL... it was around 2100...

we got into the hotel and got our rooms... bit of a problem there cause of some of their room mates... my room mate was QY and a J1 Bjorn... but in the end... we switch room with Joson and Kain who got a 2 man room... so its just me and QY in room 1314... sadly, Morgon couldn't room with us... haiz...there goes most of the fun... we met at the lobby at 2130 for dinner and stuff...

when we came back, Morgon and Joseph came to our room and jam... yeah... Morgon rocks with the guitar... while thats going on... QY and i were watching anime on his laptop... it went on till 0100 in the morning when we chased them out and went to sleep... tomrrow we need to wake up at 0600 to eat breakfast and later go support the girls when they fence...

thats it for day one...

tomorrow i still have to go for fencing camp with the J1s... haha... time to have more fun...

you cry there when you pass,

while i have sorrow to mask.

what right do you have to cry?

when i'm alright with mine...

here are pictures i took on the first day... but its from my phone's cam... so not really good pictures

at the pit stop on our way there

the rainbow...

2008-03-06T22:16:00.002+08:00

so many a day i have not blog...
due to the constant mugging for a useless cause...
how i wish there wasn't common test...
how i wish i was not in this mess...

well today i am still mugging... even thought my best paper is tomorrow and i have to go off to malaysia tomorrow... thanks to all who wished me all the best...haha... today i went to mug with joash, joanne and menvil at RP... interesting choice for a place to mug but its really good there... the library there has NO evil feel to it... it not a library i tell you... its an entertainment center...

studied bio today... went through all the topics tested during the 6 hours spent there freezing in the library... lucky i brought my jacket there... if not is really freeze to death already...

we met at 12 at the RP busstop... as per normal...i got there early... like 20mins early... cause i misjudged the time it took for 169 to get there from my house... well... its better to be early than late... joanne came soon after... and we met up with joash in the foodcourt... it seem that he was there at 1000... LOL... he really loves the place... had lunch there... omg... the chicken chop there is damn big as compared to school's one... and the price about the same as well...went to the library after that... study and study and even more studying... we were blessed with a person playing the panio nearby...haha... what wonderful conditions to study in...

we when for a break at 1600... tour the area around the library... wth... the library has a games room with an Xbox 360[please fix me] and 2 pool tables... what kind of library is that??? erally went round the area oing up and downnn the building... went back to study after a 30min break... the library closes at 1730 and we left to study in the canteen before have dinner there...

westen food again... joash, joanne and i ordered the chicken culiet... o.O... they gave me the smallest piese of chicken amoung the 3 of us... thanks joash and joanne for giving me a slice of their chicken to even out the 3 pieces... but now... abit too much ah... juat a bit... in the end i finished the chicken after a very long while... joash's and my next plans... wear something for racial harmany day...lol... see if i can find any nice japanese worrior clothing and i wear...lol

went to crossway point with joanne to get long socks for the fencing compeition tomorrow... haiz... scared i wear my pld green ones they don't allow... when home via MRT change 138...

got home and started packing my clothing and stuff for tomorrow... managed to stuff 4 days worth of clothing into a bug WITH my fencing equippment...nice... watched HELLSING OVA 4 after that... i study bio tomorrow morning...lol... no mood to study now... HELLSING 4 is the same old over ownage and the unkillable Alucard... evil show... maybe might respark my sadistic life...

well, i'll be back on the 10th of march... gonna miss my grandparents' birthday...haiz...

2008-02-29T23:15:00.004+08:00

today is a rare day... the 29th of feb... once in four year event... cannot miss this chance to do something interesting... i always feel that anyone born on this day will have the coolest birthday ever...

today was rather short... 4 classes only... but... when i see friends leaving for home at 1, i have to stay back for fencing...cause fencing compition in malaysia... leaving singapore on the 7th of march...

again, the door was lock in the morning and i had to leave my bag in T30... math lect was useless... complex numbers also not coming out for common test...haiz... econs was also as useless... the teacher can't really teach well... haiz... think i have to give up econs for common test...

stayed back after school for fencing... after seeing nik and joash off at 1pm[cause their CCA step down or not on a friday] i went up to the fencing room and waited... fence for the J1s to see before going down to play ice breaking games with the J1s. PT and games followed...haiz... can't play basketbal well... paid my compition fees today and my mom came and pick me home...

my family and i went to northpoint today... my sister was emoing away cause of some shit in her life... really heck care her already... i myself have too much things to think of...

looking back on the 29th of feb, i cannot forget the 28th of feb... THE best day i had this whole week...

28th feb

God bless the 28th of feb...

the new J1s are welcomed into CJC via brother paul's talk and the pinning of the coller pin... the hour was filled with joy, laughter and a little sadness... this marks the last year of studying for me until after NS... also that the common test are less that a week away... time to fight the beast known as the COMMON TEST!!!

PE followed after that and we were to train for the fittness test next term... i have to get at least a silver for it or it means more time in NS... and thats the last thing i want... the timing i have to beat for the 2.4km run was 12.40 mins for a silver... i came in in 12.30min... haha...yes... i have to thank HM for "pushing" me on on my 5th round... i might have kept walking if not for her...lol... next mission... pull ups... i could only do 2 max last time... now i did 4... wow... 200% improvement... damn happy with myself...

the thing about today was that there will be no teaching for my class... after break was a math FA followed by a bio and chem SPA back to back... i did alright for the FA... taking into account that i did not study...

bio SPA... LOL... crickets... relive EAGLES... again, i was the onlt one who did the whole experoment... JF and jagan tried but i guess they could not catch the cricket... OMG... there was a mouting cricket in the box i went to... so interesting...

chem SPA was just writing and writing... skill A also nothing much... plan to go for bio extra lesson after class to inject some more bio knowledge into my brain before CT... but went to T30 to play cards abit before going... played bridge with rishi, elton and joanne... lost again...haiz... went down to get a cup of tea with joash and joanne before going into LT5... talked about the terrorist what escaped yesterday...lol... he is so dead if i meet up with him... can help me shapen my knives...

bio extra lessons was interesting...went through replication...needed it cause i kinda forgotten the processes of it... was hoping to do more like transcription and translation but nevermind... thats good enough...

went out to eat with rishi, joash and tim from T30 at far east KFC... than went back for night study with nik... from where i sit, the view is damn good...lol... can see everyone... went for bio lesson during night study at 2100... axon and stuff... another topic i need for the CT...

mom came and pick me again after night study and she brought for me an apple... i thank God for giving me such a good mother...

thats my uber good day... almost all of it...

why am i studying so hard?
when all i can do is just hit the mark.
so many problems of the mind,
i just hope after this i will be fine.

2008-02-26T22:24:00.007+08:00

another short day again...

i didn't go night study today... cause... my friends all not going...lol... studying alone is a very sad thing to do... but i did managed to study chem with joash after school from 1430 to 1700 in the library... i finished writing all the reactions of alkane to phenol during that time... i am sort of ready for chem common test already... but still got my math and econs still not good...anyway... i miss my grandmother's food, so for the first time in a week i am eating dinner on a weekday at home with my grandparents...

study math today... but not well done cause the com is next to me... can't fight the com... have to use it. finially fixed up the nagato that Cheryl brought for me from japan... interesting its the same model as one i already own but only if a different colour... but i'm still greatful for her helping me get it...

mine is the one on the right, the one she gave me is on the left... i would prefer nagato something other than a swimsuit but thats the only one got that was within my budget...haiz...sad life...

i was talking to a friend of mine today and he came up with this wonderful poem[my my standards]...

it is fine to just watch you from a distance,

but when you are near, i denial you of existence.
i really want to talk to you more,

but i dare not, that is my flaw.
i hope you can accept me as who i am,

with a slight chance that we can still be friends.

-a friend

caught up on PERSONA today cause got some time before i started studying...

i guess God doesn't really forsake people just like that... but today was still more bad than good...

gonna sleep early today to catch up on lost sleeping hours...

2008-02-25T22:39:00.002+08:00

a day filled with fallen dreams and wasted time of sorts

i think that God has forsaken me today for everything that i was looking forward to today happened the opposite of what i have hoped for. most of everything i done is not enough, most of everything i tried my best to do gives little to no results. whatever that i have planned resulted in failure and waste of time. what i was looking forward to most today was nothing when the time came... God, have you truly given up on my worthless little soul???

i guess i just have to get use to this disapointment in life...

2008-02-24T22:56:00.001+08:00

Strange thing that i’m writing this on my father’s van on my way home from my grandparents’ house...

This 2 days were for me to rest up and get ready for next week of school... my sore throat has gotten better thanks to an apple i ate last night...

23th feb

Sore throat still there... at least its not worse... but its not any better as well... math tuition today was rather slow... revising on diff and i can’t really grasp the concept... tangent and stuff not really my good topic...haiz...

Went home and slack after that... 4 days of heavy mugging has taken a toll on me... at least now got time to rest... slack till 1700... than have to go for chanbara...

Cheryl is back today... last week she went to japan[lucky girl]... today our legendary fighter came back as well... he maybe have gotten slower but still faster than us... can seethat he is abit slower now...but...he is still owning us[or maybe just me]. Calvin had to go off early today... so talk cock session tady was short... today’s topic is games...

Went home via 130 change 855 again.... both bus came fast...so reached home quite early... still have som anime to clear... but was surfing web more than animing... all along my throat was killing me... super painful... almost will to do anything to cure it...

In the end, i asked joanne if she knew how to cure these kinda stuff.. singer so maybe might know... she sugguested an apple... nothing to loss...try lor... did the bio online test while eating my apple... 16 min finish the test already... damn tricky test... but still managed to get 15/20...

went to sleep at 0000 under orders to rest so that my throat can heal...

24th feb

Amazing... i felt much better... my throat doesn’t hurt that must anymore... i can talk without much pain... but now can’t really talk much... that apple really worked... WOW

Today only have sci tuition... nothing much happen... my chem and bio still bout the same like that...

After tuition rush to finish my GP essay on equality... had to bring my laptop to grandparents; hiuse so that i can finish it... also had my hair cut by my aunt at my grandparents’ house...haha... i like my new hairstyle... i am so greatful for my relatives who meet up every week or so to catch up on stuff... we are more like one big family and many small ones...

Thats all that happen today... tomorrow still have to go night study and gym...YAY...

2008-02-22T22:15:00.004+08:00

time has became a limiting factor...

been going for night study these few nights... go home also no time to blog or watch anime... today... no studying... watch anime...blog...slack...play...

quite alot has happened this week... i am feeling rather unwell these few days amounting to a rather bad cough today and lastly a uber change in voice... now i sound really different...i hurts to talk as well... my legs are aching as well due to wed's PE... run up the slope at full speed does train your legs but at a painful cost...haha...

19th feb

nothing much happened today... class ended at 2 and i had bio SPA at 3... waited in the canteen for time to pass by... SPA skill D again...still not very sure how to do it but managed to come up with rather alright answers... SPA ended at 5 and i headed to the canteen...

on my way there, went by the fencing room...sounded like someone inside fencing... it was kain and a J1 girl training saber... i got nothing better to do till 7 so i stayed there with them... in the end played one round of saber with the girl...loss 14-15 but it was all in the name of fun... but i got myself sweaty before night studywhich i should not... went down to the canteen and meet up with eirene and jane...they going night study tonight...haha...

tonight i studied outside the stuff room there... rishi joined later on but didn't do much... i finished some work today... quite proud of myself...haven't done this much work for quite some time...

mom came and pick me again... i love her for taking care of me so much... on the way back was quite tense...cause of that sms that i sent... haiz... lifes like that...

20th feb

didn't sleep well last night... woke up with a slight irritation in my throat...

short day today... but got PE...haha

PE today wasn't tough at all...i think... [uber regeating saying that]... ran 4 rounds and did some jumping... till now no real effort to do... next...reflex training... running back and forth... race with joash but we are always neck and neck... this training was just abit hard cause i was bit out of breath... had to climb[i jumped, of sorts] over that gate leading to the road... had to race up the slope 3 times... my god... pushing myself up the slope... PE ended there...

i went back up to class and slept outside class on the bench... it was a damn good sleep...really caught back some time lost from last night... was 45mins into the break when i woke up and jagan came to open the door...

fencing after school... fence a few people...win some loss some... left at 1730 to bathe and get ready for night study...

night study today with nik... outside library... slowly got less and less things to study already... did some tut and note taking before slacking off when rishi came from facil training at 2130... mom came a pick me agian... best mom in the world man...

21th feb

managed to sleep better last night but the irritation is getting worse... better drink more water

stort day today as well... after class went to TPY with nik and joash for lunch and riseballs... came back to school and went to the library to study abit before bio extra lessons... nothing much to study now... haiz... next week must start going through all the topics tested for common test...

bio extra lesson was in the new LT5 went through bio molecule and enzymes today... the T30 people are joking around behind me and joash...haha... really lighten the mood in the LT...

wanted to skip night study today... but decided not to... in the end stayed in the canteen playing DS till 1845 before heading to the library... met up with rishi and we studied together... damn... facils really got it tough man...rishi's eyes were damn bloodshot and he was getting calls during the 3 hours we were in the library... did went off for a while to check up on stuff... i followed cause i got nothing better to do... reached home at 2220 and went to sleep soon after that... hope my throat gets beter...

22th feb

my throat did NOt get better... it got WORSE...wtf... even talking is painful now...

another short day today... gp lect, chaem SPA and math lect... after it all i went to the library[again, i'm going there too many times] with joash... wanted to reseach on terrorism but ended up seaching for war and soon super robot wars...

one of my fave mach in SRW

went for fencing after that... damn... my throat got EVEN WORSE... now even my vioce sounds different... only fence 2 matchs today...won both... saw a few J1s sign up for fencing... got a few good looking girls...ya... talking to QY bout SRW when we went home...

today's target... watch all the animes that have been piling up over the pass 4 days when i was off at night study... got gundam 00, sayonara, rental magica, PERSONA, shana and shigofumi to watch... got a few nice lines that came off shigofumi...haha... it makes dying seem fun... maybe i should try...

thats all for today i guess... more anime before i go sleep

2008-02-18T23:03:00.000+08:00

Production level damn high today...

Today was a damn long day... classes till 1600, gym till 1700 and night study till 2200...
Trapped outside class in the morning again... placed my bag, along with joash’s, in T30 before going down. Math teach also trapped outside with us before kim went to get the key...

Break time learned how to play mah-jong from jia fu via the bio/chem. Way...haha... banboo is suger... classes after that were bit boring...almost slept

PE learn how to play volleyball...i still sux at it... right after PE go gym with nik, joash and adam. Did a 8 min run and 4 sets of stuff...haha...aching hands and legs...so high from pain... went to bath after that before going to TPY for dinner with Joash... got a 1.5L green tea to power me through the night study later.

Came back and watch the volleyball team vs the fitness club in a game of hand ball... very nice match...vollyballer won... night study at 1900 with Rishi, Joash and some fencing girls. Did bio bacteria and study for econs test tomorrow... wanted to go TPY later to top up my card but mom came and fetch me... so no need... got home at 2220... slack before sleeping...

Night study tomorrow again...HAHAHAHA... i’m going nuts... meng has entered mugger mode

DAMN...today missed my chance...haiz

2008-02-16T21:48:00.005+08:00

end of my super packed two days...

15th feb...

quite short day today... only got 4 classes...

the best thing that happened during thise 4 classes was bio lect... OMG...i topped my class in the bio test... huh??? was not even thinking that i will do well... and in the end... an A...strange things happen in life... had to go down and receive a chocolate mr.bala and mr.yeow...have to thank them for their hard work to push the lots bio grades up so much...

after that went to the evil place[maybe not so evil anymore] to mug again... haha... i have to face the fact that i have became a mugger... haiz... did vectors lV till question 14... skipping a few parts that i dunno... tomorrow go ask mr.tan...

went for fencing after that... everyone downstairs somewhere doing something while i stayed in the fencing room with QY watching him play SRW and watching G Gundam owning everything... everyone dunno go where... best bet is stay in the room time they come back... did that till 5pm like that... all the wasted hours that i could have used to do something productive...haha... nevermind... this year haven't talked to QY much...

went for rockafella after that and after dinner in school... change of clothes and waited outside the evil place for hui min and the rest of the class who were going... while waiting, met up with yvonne... the J3 that was with the insect group during EAGLES and who was so interested in millipedes having sex... she joined me and joash during the event...haha

rockafella was great... started at around 1930 like that and went till 2215... first band up was jason's band... OMG... jason is a damn good drumer, what wonderful druming... and the other players in the band were wonderful... the next band up was ok i guess... only when the bacd called class X or something like that came up and play and they brought the house down. a wonderful singer and players make for a rock on band... for a friend, i cheered my heart out for the players...

other than that... nothing really interesting happened during rockafella... joash went off early cause he lives in woodlands and to get home will take like an hour...so better leave early... when everything was over, i took 132 with yvonne and saw her off at the busstop near thomsom CC and waited for 163 or 855 to come... 855 came and i took it home reaching home al around 2300

thats my day for today... tomorrow will be the best sat of my life...haha

16th feb

overview of today... 1100-1300, math tuition... 1230-1630, science tuition... 1730-1900, chanbara... 1900-1945, talk crap... very pack ah...

woke up at 0830 today to get ready for math tuition later... left at 1035 like that for thomsom plaza area there... math tuition today was damn productive... i finished vectors lV... went to thomsomplaza after that to buy a bionicle set... yes its a child's toy but i like it... its fun to build and rebuild...haha

behold... makuta vamprah[the one i brought]

rushed home for science tuition at 1430... today went through organic chem [again] and genetics of virus and stuff... learned quite alot i guess... getting ready for common test in 2 weeks time...

1630 tuition end, i have to quickly pack for chanbara later at 1730... got there just in time... today was hand work... it was fun playing with the wooden sword with friends and chanting the oh so famed line"luke, i am your father"... i found out that the bo is a really fun weapon to use... but i'm still not good with it... but i can still perform some nice moves with it... held my own againist a match of bo againist 2 swords...

after chanbara, we had our talking section again... today was about bush and some religion stuff... we also managed to talk for bout an hour letting the time fly by...

went home via 130 change 855 again

thats today...

2008-02-14T21:54:00.005+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

well... as expected... today's export was much more then the imports... there are people from the class who mass give everyone...haha...thanks for the chocolates...well, giving IS better than receiving...

spent the last 2 nights making paper flowers for a few girls... gave 8 of them out even before school started today...haha

my hard work x 10

making the paper roses made my hands ach but overall.. i feel it was rather worth it... i just hope that the girls who got the flowers liked it...

this morning was spent giving out these flowers to 8 girls[Milu, Joanne,Suying, Ya hui, Eirene, Lindy, Hui min and Su yi]... look so strange carring a bionicle can around with the flowers inside... but at least it was worth the effort.

damn...y did V.day have to be on my longest day of the week??? and on the day with PE and bio SPA??? haha... kami-sama doesn't want me to enjoy today. still, PE was "fun"...

break time went to take the flowers for the class for the intra/inter school flower giving thing. my class only got 2 flowers of which one 1 is for real feelings... one for me[from tiffany, my cuz] and one for Liyi from god knows who. went with Joash and Adam to give flowers to their targetted girls... i brought along my last flower to look for Nicole and give to her. met her on the 4th floor and gave her... haha... she was like in shock...but i'm happy she likes it...

bio SPA today... first time i see the pra room quiet as everyone is busy writing the answers. the only people who did the exp was Nik and I... strange thing why the others don't wanna do it.

after school SUPPOSED to go for sphese visit... in the end... not going. cause Kelly go if Hui min goes and Hui min not going...so... and Dom also not going... not enough people...cancalled...

went for lunch with Joash after that... and went to the evil place to study... went out for a while and met up with ian and talked about SRW...haha... and met with Eirene and CY and she gave me a CNY/V.day card...haha... how nice... now i feel bad if i make fun of her hight again...

thats like all that happened today... going for rockafella tomorrow...

2008-02-07T23:09:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to me...

well... its Chinese New Year today, as well as my birthday...haha... interesting... anyway... i just returned from visiting and slacking off before mugging tomorrow...

time to recap what happened the past few day... which is alot... all i can say is that the week of hell before paved way for this wonderful week... somehow things are going rite...

5th feb...

other than today being a short day, the day before the class had the super hard bio test... which means we don't have to take it at 4 today... which means we can enjoy ourselves. after school we had to help mr.tan with arranging the tables in the canteen for the "pork lard" tomorrow. alot of work... had to carry the benches to the corner as well as carry the tables to the area. 2 hours worth of CIP and getting ordered by "boss".

the class planned to watch cloverfield in the evening. we were to meet at 6.30 at far east... so i went home to bath, get money and get ready to move out.

i left home at 1715... planned to go TPY to get chips for the movie before going to orchard... luck was on my side as the bus came quickly and i got to TPY and the chips with much time to spare. getting to orchard was fast... too fast... it was 1800 when i got there... so i walked around the place till 1830 before meeting up with luke and walking to borders to waste more time waiting for the judo people to arrive.

soon we gathered and moved to have dinner and buy tickets. dinner took a long time cause they ate quite slowly and we were waiting for dom and lynette. when we gathered, it was 2020[movie starts at 2015] we harried to and sat down to watch.

the movie was using the video cam 1st person view thing which produced a super shaky film. all in all, it was not bad... the alien was big and unkillable... the ending was very short... just cut off when the uber bombing started. BUT... there was another piece of info in the end... in the sea view shot, something was seen falling from the sky...alien... i can't believe that everyone from my class,other than me, missed it.

6th feb

half day school today... celebrations was rather boring... other than IZ lim's song which was funny and catchy... the lion dance was... alright...

went to sunshine plaza with Qy and HY today... i went to get a gundam set as my birthday present as well as my NYAA skill...toy making... i planned to get a god gundam... but the shop was out of stock... in the end i got myself a wing gundam "ver Ka"

this is the gundam to be made

had to rush home cause my mom needs my help with housework... took 167 from DB... omg...it took so damn long... took me an hour to get home... did the housework and went for dinner at grandparents' house...

it was just like every other CNY dinner, nothing much happen... went home at 2200, got home at 2230... start work on wing gundam

it took me so damn long to finish just the upper body... 2 hours... while building i was talking to friends and counting down to CNY... at 0130 on 7th feb... i finished the hands and put the body, head and hands together to form the upper body... damn that took long

day 1's work

7th feb

CNY... woke up at 9 today and had a fast breakfast before going to my aunt's place to visit her... went back to my grandparents's place after that... collected red packets and went to the park nearby to take photos.

after lunch, we cleared the tables for a game of black jack... didn't do well today... won $4 only... if only i was at my lucky spot, i would have won more... sadly, my uncle was at my lucky spot and won everything... haha...

my family celebrated my birthday for me as well... got more red packets... haha... before cutting the cake, i had to down a can of beer... cause now i'm 18, i can drink openly...haha...

went home to finish my wing gundam... finished it at 1700...after a total of 4 and a half hours of work... looks damn nice...haha... so happy...

complete

mobile amour mode

went to visit my mother's side of the family in the evening... more collection and more fun...

thats today... now gonna slack more before sleeping... this will be the last time i can slack so much... have to really study very very hard after CNY...test after test and V.day...

2008-02-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

the stort week has started and its not a good sign...i think

to start the short week off, is the super long day... classes till 3, PE and than a bio test till 1730.

math tut was used for the vectors FA... AHHH... i could have answered the questions... just run out if time... haiz... chem lect was damn slow... due to the fact that i partly studied it before hand and done the stuff, i was just sitting there trying to catch anything i missed... very slow process.

bio tut next... was asked to write the genetics table out...twice... dunno y mr.yeow asked me to do it... filled with quite a few mistakes... haha. econs lect was interesting... really... so was bio lect... forgot my notes but hack... gonna mug tomorrow break to make up for losted time...

bio test...DAMN... mr.yeow is a evil one...set the test some hard lah... filled with traps and super hard questions... i even thought i misread the data and crossed out my answers before rewriting them again... the last question was completed in 7 mins and and i wrote it like a story like that... DIE...

went to the gym after that with joash and adam... did a 10 min run and someother stuff... haha... my left arm is like die now cause its not as good as my right... cannot handle the same stuff..lol... fencing has made one side pro and another side noob...haha

went for dinner with adam and joash after that at TPY... brought rice balls and went up to the food court to eat... talked about stuff but can really remember...

went home and slack cause CNY on the 7th...really study uber mugging and night study... so enjoy the lasts days of freedom i have left... and V.day around the coner also...haiz...

don't you dream of embracing the girl you like like that??? but for me... it truly is a dream...so sad... another lonely V.day

gonna go emo already...

2008-02-01T22:32:00.000+08:00

the week has ended...

today was hell...wait...this week was hell... test after test and a broken phone, mind and heart. how bad can it get??? i'm lossing my mind these few days... strange ideas going through my mind... like how i can looking more at how the hairstyles of a girl look rather than they face... ah... my mind is slowly rotting off into nothingness... the tests today also did not go well...math i dunno how to do the questions...die already lah...

this morning showed me a great insight into the workings of the class... i can't really understand what the girls of the class are thinking... just because the one who normally get the key did not come today, does that mean that you guys don't need to get the key??? well... had the back door been lock, this problem will not happen as someone will go and get the key... but it so happen that the back door was not lock and they just used the back door to enter the class today. therefore no one bothered to get the key to open the front door. and their excuse for not getting the key is because its not their duty to... what kind of **** is that??? if not for the fact that today was a short day, some of the handphones left in class would have been stolen... i stayed in class to mug during break as i wanted to save money[and get myself away from my drug]... i found some phones left in class on the table in plane view. had i not been there and someone found the back door unlock[we can't lock it], the phones would not have been there anymore. the last thing i want is stuff going missing from class cause of some people's lack of sence of duty. i heard that this happened to T30 earlier in the month and hope that it will not happen again.

went to the evil place to mug after school today. wanted to meet up with joash and study together. interesting sight i saw when i found him after having lunch... maybe i should not have been there and interupt the two of them...haha... oh well...can't leave even if i wanted to cause it will look strange... managed to finish viruses today and abit of chem before leaving for fencing...

fencing today was lead by kain... some pe stuff to do that i feel is nothing. went home with QY today again... went to thomson plaza first to check the comic shop cause he wanna get some comics...

went home and watch anime and play until now...haiz... rental magica not bad leh... the opening song leaves me thinking of alot of stuff...cause the worlds are so meaningful

faith by lisa komine

Believe in yourself
Be who you want to be...

I will shed no tear, I will face my fear all alone
All the doubts in mind, I will leave behind

Lost in the dark, seek for the light
I hold out my hand into the endless night
To get through the time in strife in my life
I tell myself over to never give in

Feel your heartbeat inside you
Don't be afraid
Keep the faith
That's the key to all the doors ahead
Open up your way with the brighter hopes for today
The sun will rise upon your way

Believe in yourself
You're not alone
Believe in your strength
You'll find your way

My weakness inside is something I can't hide from your eyes
So fragile and fair, so much i can bear

Breaking the chain that binds you from pain
Through gentle rain, you're free once again

Searching for truth and love in my life
Till I find my own I will never give up

Listen to the voice of your heart
Deep in your soul
Keep the faith
Let it work a miracle in your life
Never look back on sorrow and let go of your pain
The light of love shines upon your way

Feel your heartbeat inside you
Don't be afraid
Keep the faith
That's the key to all the doors ahead
Open up your way with the brighter hopes for today
The sun will rise upon your way

Believe in yourself
You're not alone
Believe in your strength
You'll find your way

haha...maybe i emo too much already

2008-01-31T22:17:00.000+08:00

hmm... going back to my non-bloging days

this whole week has been an interesting one. also, jan has comed to an end and its time to reflect on what i have done in the past month.

stupid day for me today... i dropped my phone at home to day and the screen cracked... therefore my phone is not semi useless...AHHHHH... and i liked that phone... had to use back my old phone from now on till i get a new one or a can get this one fixed... Y??? kami-sama... y are you doing this to me???

my poor phone....AHHHH

this week was eventful, had to climb into class another time this week cause of some girls keeping the key while staying in the canteen while the others are waiting outside class. this is a big problem from everyone in class... we are always trapped outside class, OR the class is not locked and whatever we have in there is at risk. everytime i see most of them waiting outside, i have the feeling to climb into class and get everyone's stuff for them. this is what i do whenever people are trapped outside class before a lesson after PE. i go in and get their shirts out for them to change or bath and get ready for the lesson ahead. how i wish the class comes up with a solution for this key problem... on the other hand...i'm getting quite good at climbing into class...haha...soon,no class on my level will be safe from me...hahaha

the chem test results are out...21/30... after i worked so F**KING hard the day before to get the concepts into my head. whats the point of mugging so much just to get these kind of results??? enter emo mode after that... watch me enter mugging mode soon..when night study starts...

haha...Dr.hui came to school for a talk today... Dr.hui is the docter i visit when i am sick[which is quite rare]... interesting talk about a good death...

it seems that there will be some intra/inter school flower sending thing for val day... sending a rose to Amy in SAJC...pri school friend that i strangly still sometimes keep in touch with. hope she likes it... for val day ah... maybe gonna give a rose to a girl... maybe... if i can get my hands on one... on a rose, not a girl...

been watching quite abit of anime these few days... the newer ones from the 1st wave of 2008... animes like, wolf and spice... sayonara zetsubou sensei season 2, shigofumi, minami-ke season 2 and PERSONA.

wolf and spice is an econs anime with some love in it...haha...interesting combo... shigofumi is bout letters from the dead to the living... nice to watch the reasons y people wanna die... like this one...

"i sometimes think that too: what will happen if i jump? we have those thoughts, its not that we want to die. but it does not necessarily mean we want to live. there wasn't a reason at all. just like taking a differernt touth home, i was just in the mood. so i jumped."

on a different note, i have been getting back into the PKM crazt abit these few days... i went to asign a PKM for everyone in class and search up this new thing call Moemon[pokemon+moe]

cause of anger issues with the class if i posted the list out here, to know what PKM i have signed each menber of the class... have to contect me... and i might explain to you y each menber has his/her very own PKM... but, Moemon different thing...can show...haha

enjoy... the first 151 PKM

time now is almost 11pm and i have a econs and math test tomorrow that i ahve not really studied for... GG... therefore i'm going there to get my head chopped off and fail...

2008-01-26T21:18:00.000+08:00

i have locked my blog for the past few days due to someone attacking me and my friends... i hope this whole thing is over and i can blog again...

to those i have angered, i am very sorry about what happened this 2 weeks. my mind was not working right and i wanna say sorry to those who have read this blog and felt angry at me. gonna say sorry in person next week...haha

to those who are angered at my low standards of English, careless mistakes when typing and all the uber spelling mistakes... i am trying to improve everyday... you can ask me if you want English matters changed in any of the postings so i can improve my English as well as spare others of coughing blood and adding to the already bloody blog while reading it... thanks

quite a few things happened this past week... haha

24th jan...
got a chem test today on organic chem... i was easily going through the paper until the last question... damn... cannot do... after thinking a while, i can up with the answer. but after talking to my friends after the paper, i felt that my answers are wrong... haiz... cannot have high marks already...

went for my first project spheres trip today... grouped with Adam and Derek and we when from floor 8 to 6 of block 21... met this super friendly uncle who greeted us and talked to us about how the CJC people always visit them and how they were very happy that we took time off to visit them... due to the lack of old people in our floors that were willing to talk to us, we finished fast and went to the playground to talk and rest... we took 139 to TPY and i took 163 with rishi to go home

25th jan
LAST MASS PE... YES... how many more???... NO MORE
after the rather boring GP lect, we went for our last mass pe... same thing... 7 runs in under 12.40 mins... like the last one, i did not make it... BUT... i improved... i did not walk throughout the 7 rounds... i finished in 13mins... haiz... have to do extra rounds after PE... today is jumping and pull-up training... jumping no problem, pull-up...die... but i did finish 2 sets of 6 assisted pull-ups... so should not be that bad... if i keep this up, i CAN get a silver...haha

for the first time in the year, i went to the canteen after PE rather than going up to class... i wanted a drink before going up, but sit down with friends and talking made me lazy to walk up 5 floors back to the classroom. when i did walk all the way up, to my "surprised" the door is lock...wow... we were waiting outside till nik wanted to climb in again to get his stuff to bathe... i stopped him cause i know he can't do it[i tried before so i know] and climbed in [again] to get his stuff... soon, i became a servant, helping classmates get their clothing for them to change and get ready for chem tut later... kim came up after the bell rang and unlocked the door. i was so lucky that mr.tan did not come before kim.. if he did, he would have reported me to the office for breaking into [my own] class. i hope i don't have to do this again cause its very bad for me and the class... note... i was so damn lucky the classes facing my class were empty... if not ah...DIE

went to eat before studying with joash and nik before going for O2 facil interview. helping joash with anything he dunno for his organic chem tut... O2 interview was super bad... don't think i will make it in... haiz... first mistake.... waited outside the wrong room... when i finally got into the right room, the three interviewers asked super weird questions as if they were toying with me... eg. "if you were a underwear, what will you be and y?" i utterly cannot answer that question without them thinking wrongly about me... i even blushed in front of the three girls...WTH... if they asked me to do something like dance or something i don't mind but... this is a bit...haha they even asked me if i think i am handsome... my "no" was taken strongly by them... haiz...cannot make it already lah...

when back to BHSS after that... met up with Shawn, KH and CY... NCC training...HAHAHA. wtf man... shawn is like damn buff now lah... i'm a stick next to him...the sec 1s this year really small... like little kids like that... total 18 people joined NCC this year... not bad... best thing was PT with old friends and the part Bs and Cs... haha.. nothing compared to MASS PE at CJ... not really panting after PT...so yeah... so many good times spent with my friends in the 4 years we were in NCC... reliving the days where we suffered together and had no complains about it.

26th jan... today
woke up with a freaking sore leg...cause of the PE and PT yesterday... went for math tuition and brought the last book of 新暗行御史. damn sad lah...cause alot of the good guys die... blowed up in one way or another... main guy got his arms chopped off and died in the end too...

went for chanbara today and had alot for fun...going back this monday... means i gonna miss spheres visit... doing alot of footwork today... killing my dying legs....y calvin??? if my legs are aching tomorrow, get ready for sms spam Calvin... had a damn long chat after chanbara bout some lame jokes and poly courses and later to the surgery that Calvin had to go for cause of his tooth...

after so long of isolation, what a long post... haha

2008-01-18T22:13:00.000+08:00

another week of school has flew by...

what an event full week, competition and school and competition tomorrow... day 5 has just went by i and have a feeling that i should change this way of going about life... i should just care for friends who care for me... treat others the way you want to be treated... i shall carry that out next week and see if it is a better solution to my problems...

i wanna take this chance to say sorry for all those i called f**ktards on monday... i was in rage and posted that... but i cannot help it if you wanna act like one and earn the name rightfully...

rishi got me the O2 facil form today... i was planning to get it after school but he got it for me before that... wanna thank him for that... i filled up the form after class with joash and handed it up to the S.C before training... went for lunch with joash after that and mug abit before training started... saw the coop people interviewing the J1s outside the lib... what kind of questions do you guys ask??...haha... mug abit more of hydrocarbons... have to know all the reactions before sunday or else i am dead...

mass pe today again... but today was not as tough as the other days... we only did one set of stuffs rather than 3... my run time was 9.50mins....which is an improvement from tuesday... haha...if this carries on... i might just get a silver for my 2.4

i was trapped outside class again after pe today... took a little rest before talking to nik while waiting for joash to come up and open the door. did some studying for hydrocarbons before the class came back from break and class started.

went for fencing training today... but no one told me that there is no training for J2s today and i brought my stuff for nothing...damn... anyway...when to train the J1s with sonia[hope her name is spelt right]... they to do 4 round around the track which i joined in and some fitness training that was really tough... it was fun to talk to the Jr and help them learn how to fence... i am not that good a fencer but i try my best to aid the new ones into this super fun sport.

when home with QY today... haven't talk to him for so long... he had to take a cab home and i was amazed at how the meter jumped and a trip from school to thomson plaza took $7...!!! wow

oh yes... Mr. tan jek suan tagged again...
i am amazed sir, you used slangs in this tag... anyway sir, i want to address some problems that you have brought up. firstly, i am blogging, this can be seen by the whole world, even my class. so you cannot say that i am not telling my feeling to my classmates. sir, i cannot become too intrapersonal because thats the way i am, its abit hard to change that. and concerning your worries about me going to break down, i assure you that i am far from breaking down at this point in time. i would say that i have became a happier person over the course of this week. and sir, i douth we have the same idea of what it means to be a man. my idea is that i am trying to be a gentleman of honor and duty and in those terms, i have not reached the level i feel that i can be called a gentleman yet, but i respect the honor of myself and those around me and i am trying hard to improve myself to reach my target, in that i feel that i can call myself a man. sir i hope you understand this and thank you for feeling worried about me, do tag again.

thats all for today i guess... tomorrow still have novices team event after my math tuition... haha... mental and physically all in one day...

2008-01-17T21:35:00.000+08:00

day 4 of keeping to myself and i have made a wonderful discovery... i feel damn good. i dunno y but i haven't felt this good for a very long time... the year 2 curse has returned but i can't care less about it... not now at least...

i was watching the last ep of tengen toppa again and this few lines relate very nicly to what i am going through now... after some change in the words, this is what i have come up with

to stop devolution of my mind,
i have sealed myself in this withdrawn space!
my actions are the proof of my determination
you foolish beings conceited with false friendship.
tell me, do you have that determination?
do you have the resolve to do what i did,
and protect your mental wellbeing?!
None! you have nothing nothing nothing nothing...!
you have absolutely none!
without any determination,
without any resolution,
without anything!
you use your so called friendship for your own desires,
and in return,
you have become conceited with that very thing!
that is the limitation of false friendship!
that is why you have to be annihilated!

totally unrelated towards the end but a very nice speech

today was full of tuts... chem, bio, GP and math... the whiteboard is really dead and almost cannot be used already as it now takes alot of effort ot remove the ink that has dried on it. Mr.tan was given a small [about A4] size space to teach us during the chem tut. Mr.chan had to use the notice board in the back of the class as a black board during his lesson as now even the projector is not working. it was nice to go back to using the black board again... a little funny but a fun and interesting way to spent a otherwise boring lesson. the amazing thing is that Ms.yoong could rub off the ink during her lesson to make room for the math that needed to go on the whiteboard.

forgive the bad picture taking but this was my classroom during GP lesson... i took a fast picture before jia fu thought of the idea of taking a video of the lesson. oh nik and i found out that Mr.chan also watched the dick lee video when he said a phase and we caried on with the song. very funny... talking bout nik, today we were talking bout something when Mr.chan brought up something bout future jobs... it linked to me telling nik about the alien story and soon to star wars...the wonders of speech...

jagan didn't come today and i had the sit next to me free. i still respect him but not invading his space to such a large extent but it was much easier to get my stuff out of my bag when it is placed to the side of the table rather than under it. some took over his sit to place they stuff but it didn't make a difference to me if he was there or not.

went over to T30 to play 1 round of bridge before leaving for home and tuition. haven't had chem and bio tuition for so long that my knowledge of I.E has rotten away.

it seems that there was a war there just now because of the fake meng that did not have any balls to use his/her real name when he/she wanted to shoot ben. this caused a big misunderstanding between some people. lucky for me its over... to the fake meng, i care not if you are reading my blog or not, but next time you wanna tag, grow some balls and use your real name and own up to you own work.

thats all for today i guess... haha...
my life has taken a turn for the best and i thank god for all he has done to help me in this

2008-01-15T22:09:00.000+08:00

no anime to watch tonight so i will take the time to post now...

classes ended at 2 today with an hour break before PE. nothng much happened today... just a very interesting discovery that those people are not as quiet as i thought they were. was trying to tranfers a picture i drawn during math lect onto white paper that i always bring along with all my treasured drawings. the drawing was of the back of a girl... was learning how to draw different hairstyle and i choiced this girl. couldn't concentrate in the classroom cause they playing cards while talking/shouting [earphones on so not sure] loudly. i went to ask rishi if i could use their tables for a while so i can tranfers the picture. in the end, tranfers fininshed already went to play bridge with them again. do ok i guess....until the last match where i had no choice but to 1. feed my oppentent or 2.drain my parter of his trumps.....damn sad game....but still won in the end...but after alot of scolding from them...

MASS PE again today and it was in the rain again.... again we had to run 2 rounds around school...today i had a new achiviment and that is to run finish the 2 rounds under 10 mins...i did it in 9.55 mins....haha....not very good but an improvement. lighting warning today during PE and we had to move into the shelter to carry on with PE. where i was located, the heavy rains came in and it was not any better than doing PE in the rain than in the shelters. soon there was a big puddle under me and i was doing me sit-ups and leg rises in that puddle....haha.... super cooling.

when for a NYAA talk after that. have to write a report about my whole NYAA experence that was other 9000 words. but my EAGLES reflections already 13.7k...so.... i am kinda done with NYAA... got my 70hours of CIP from spheres, got my 18 months worth of toy making for my skills and got my fencing for my sports..haha...finish already....

talk bout fencing...tomorrow got training....gonna train damn hard from now onwards so i can prove my worth in the upcoming competitions. my promise with derick is 3 15 point matchs every training and i am starting tomorrow.

was watching PERSONA ~trinity soul~ just now and all i can say is that its like rewatching kida only an even darker version cause the fighting in it is very evil like...haha. such a nice anime to wait for....so lookiong forward to it...

oh yeah....to mr tan jek suan who so kindly tagged
i would like to take up your offer but i would perfer to stay in 2T31. i have no idea why you would visit my blog but i wondering why you will demote yourself to talk to me via a tagbox and not in person when you want to offer me this. i would prefer to stay in T31 and watch how low it can sink. besides, i have never said anywhere in this blog that i wanted to join T30 or than T30 is better than T31...i have only stated that they were a more interesting group of people compared to the slient[spelling mistake in last post is now corrected] people in my class which has been proven that they are not so quiet after all.

2008-01-14T22:14:00.000+08:00

wow....i'm posting almost everyday....
amazing....

anyway, today was an interesting day. had my share of good times and bad...

in the morning, i went to pass derek from T36 some DVDs with some anime in it and when off to the hall for an event involving the whole school....J2s and the new J1s.... when i got there, those people studying in the same room as me were not there and i waited from my friend until i got really bored and when to sit on in the 2T31 row... as i was the first one there, i was the front man. joash came soon after and we talked abit before he went to sit at the back of the still empty row. it took those people 5 more mins before they came and formed the row behind me... the event was to give thanks for 2007 and give blessings for 2008. nik went up to get some good achivement award... i was happy for him but felt very angry at myself for not doing well enough in my studies to get the award while some buggers from class who did worse then me in the 2007 EOY exams got the award. i was very pissed at that... but tonight nik scolded me and told me that if i was good in my studies, i do not need an award to prove that i am good, all i need to know is that I AM GOOD... i really wanna thank him for that cause it really helped me alot and i will now strive to work very hard to prove myself to myself.

today i had 3 lects...bio, math and chem... after break was bio and chem back to back. as i had some chem HW to do, i brought it down with me for break knowing that nik and i will be trapped outside our classroom during break cause everyone will be off eating later than us and on one is in the classroom. BUT today was different... nik and i left the classroom early like we always do and plan to return after we have eaten to grab our notes and go for lect. but when we returned to the class at 1145[break was 1100 to 1200], the class was locked it is always is. no one came up to unlock it and we are trapped outside our classroom without our notes for the following lect!!! it seems that the rest of those f**ktards have taken their notes and went down to eat without a thinking that there may be some people who did not follow their chain of thought and left their notes in class.... but without my notes, i can still copy down what was on the slides, but i can't...cause my eye sight suckz and i need specs to read what is on the slides clearly. BUT...my specs are also in class....therefore...i am so screwed for the next TWO lect!!! i got very angry at those f**ktards for robbing me of my ability to refer to something during lect and that means that i may be wasting 2 hours of studying and lose out to those people. i value what i learned very much and i also want to respect the teachers by bringing my notes and understanding the lect...that the way i am... but now i can't... lucky for me nik called hui min and got the key for me at 1155 and i rushed into class and just grabbed my bag and specs and went off to bio lect... what a bunch of f**ktards who care for themselves only... もーやだ、死んじゃえー

i lost my spec casing in bio lect today....damn angry with myself... got a new one from my mother...thank you mom....

after school today, those people wanted to clean the classroom. but if they only can care about themselves, than i am the same and care for myself. i ran off to T30 after school ended and played bridge with them....haha.... did better i guess.... went off to have lunch with the T30 guys after that at TPO's LJS. interesting group of people to hang out with.... strange thing is that i have now gone out with them more that with those people... haha...went home with rishi again on 163... walking in the rain abit to get to the bus stop...

today blogged quite alot...haha...interesting... time to sleep already
still have to face those f**ktards tomorrow...haiz

2008-01-13T21:45:00.000+08:00

TODAY SUX AND ROCK AT THE SAME TIME....

today was the day for novices. i woke up at 6 in the morning to get myself ready to go to clementi by 9. i always wake up an hour early from the time i have to leave home if i have to go in the morning. woke up, have breakfast watch some anime before packing up and left home to take 138 to AMK mrt and take mrt to jourong east and change train to clementi. i though it will take me bout an hour and half at least to reach there....but in all only took me an hour.

go there slack off till 9 and put on my suit and get ready to fence in the round robins. BUT... my group is the last one... last one to start. so i went around watching the other cjc fencers fence. helped some of the guys abit but i think it wasn't usefull enough cause they all got kicked out.

my poule has 2 semi-pro fencers(i am one), one pro fencers and 3 weaker ones. my first match was againist the other semi-pro fencer... i was feeling damn lazy and cock up my first match........... lost 3-5 my next 3 matches are againist the weaker ones and i wanted to trash them to so i can get a good index...but sadly, i didn't do as well as i wanted and loss a few points to get the win. last match was againist the pro fencer... i lost 3-5 again. but at least i was 2nd place in my poule.[thanks fencer for pointing out my mistakes]

when the round robins results are out, i was ranked 24th with 3 wins and an index of +5. in the middle of the DE group. my first fight was againist the 41th fencer. i was hoping for a easy win but i got a win of 15-14 while was crap cause i know i can do so much better. but at least i won... as conpared to the under 17s competition last year, i lost in my first DE match. so that was my first achiviment for the day.

while waiting for my next match which was a tough one, i laid down with derick and talked about alot of thinks like evolution and disguesting things in the hot springs. i told him about the plates of earth moving on lava around the world and taught him hom evolution is carried out. he told me about how some worm thing living in hot springs can lay their eggs in your nose if you dive in the hot springs and cause infections and possible death. it was an hour of knowledge exchange between us as we somehow always have these kind of talks when we are talking. i told him that if a can win the next round, i will buy him a drink. and if i can win the one after that, i will buy him a KFC meal. with that, i went for my next match.

next up was to fence the 9th fencer. i got a nice win of 15-8 againist him and i felt very happy with myself to win another match and advance up to the top 16. i went to watch jason and kain fence and they both also made it into the top 16 with me. but i know that they will advance further than me because they are more skilled than me.

next up was this guy call alex who i was warned to be very good againist my type of fencing where i just stick out my hand and use my long range to score a point. he is taller than me and that took away my range advantage, and he locks my blade very well stopping me from attacking. in the end, i lost 10-15 to him. at least i put up a fight againist him.

i left after that match cursing at myself cause i made alot of stipid mistakes in that match. i went to have dinner with derick at Macs and wanted to get him that drink i promised. but he rejected my offer and we laughed it off and promised that we will return next year and go further. i went home via mrt and my mom fetched me at YCK mrt station.

today i did go further into the competition than the last one but i killed myself with all the stupid mistakes i made throughtout the whole event.

bit late now...think i will go sleep and get ready for school tomorrow.... and face that bunch of fucktarts again.... haiz...sad life...

2008-01-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

today, i learned how to play bridge from ryan from 2T30. quite an interesting game but i'm still rather noob at it. pity my parter cause he has to do all the winning cause i can't really play well. nevermind...its my first day playing...so still can.

went for a GP lect today, the teacher was the best man....jokes all the way and he is overly interested in papua new guinea. most of the examples he site most from papua new guinea, how they still study under a tree and are technolgicly behind the world.

MASS PE AGAIN TODAY.....AHHHHHhhhh
2 rounds around school and 2 sets of 20 push-ups, 20 sit-ups, 20 jumping jacks, and other stuff. but today...NO RAIN....so sweating like a pig on the court. i am so freaking unfit....how to win on sunday??? after mass PE go back to class and sleep before finishing up chem pract. what i found out was that the girls who held the keys brought their money down with them and went for break after PE. this left the guys "trap" outside class if not for nik who went and get the key. how can the girls be like that and leave us outside??? who cares now..... let them rot in hell for all i care now. stayed in class the whole break cause i don't wanna walk all the way down 5 levels just to walk back up again.

went home with rishi today after playing cards in the 2T30 class till 3pm and interacting with the T30s a bit. T30 is some much more lifely than T31.... so much more fun. better than the bunch of slience buggers i share the classroom with. took 851 to AMK with rishi. wanted to gp toa payoh for lunch cause i didn't eat during break but none of them wanna go....haiz...walk out to the main road with rishi and took 851 from "my" busstop...on the way it was raining heavily and we hope that the rain stopped when we reached the busstop near home. the heavy rains reminded me of the EAGLES camp...haha.....miss the time spent there... lucky for me, when i got off 851, the rains stop already and i waited bout 10mins for 138 before going home and havung lunch at 4.

gonna miss the girls fence tomorrow cause i wanna go home after math tuition and do some HW and go for chanbara tomorrow. i feel that its better to train myself there than watch girls the fence, they stone while fencing making the match slow. jason and the guys are gonna kill me on sunday for that but i don't really care....i rather train before going for novices. hope all goes well on sunday and i get to at least to the semi-finals...haha....need alot of luck for that...ALOT...

not much anime to watch these few day.... finished kiba already than dunno what else to watch already....haha.....maybe i start on steel angel or something.... or go finish FFXII RW

so looking forward to the weekends where i can rest well....haha

2008-01-09T22:26:00.000+08:00

mass PE yesterday.....
had to run 2 run around school before doing push ups, sit ups, back rise, jumping jacks and GST IN THE F***ING RAIN. it felt good to lay down and feel the rain drops falling on me. the rain did take the hest away from PE but it made our shirts heavy. try doing jumping jacks with a wet shirt jumping with you. GST was the worse... i was walking up the grandstand during the 3rd set cause i just can be bothered to run up anymore.

after the whole thing, i was completely wet. had a puddle one the floor when i took off my socks and dy them. lucky got school shirt and pants to change back into, if not i had to walk home in the wet condiction....sure get sick. and i cannot get sick now....not with novices this sunday.

was fencing today... got angry at randell as i heard he will be in the school team for the novices and i will be the backup only. my skills are better than him and they placed him in the team. strange. anyway... my place in the team will be determined by my performance in the novices this sunday...so i might still have hope of being in the team. anyway the team also still unconfirmed, so i still have more chance.

loss to kain and jason again today but i already know that they are better than me, so can really help but loss to them. just must try my best this sunday.

today i felt a change in my views towards the class. i feel that they are not worth talking to anymore, not even worth being with. if they wanna leave me out just because i hang around with nik shows me that they are a bunch of fools. the only reason why i sometimes wait outside the class door before going for lect i cause nik wants to wait for the class. not like i have anything againist that but if the class hates him, y have anything to do with them anymore??? still, he is my good friend and i respect what he does...so wait with him. i am interacting more with people of other classes more than those from my own class....strange. now my favorite sight is being able to set where the class does not sit in lects, i'm not even sitting with my class anymore in lects now. i feel like testing out a few stuff with this new event to mess around with my class more. haha

watched the last ep of kiba today... fighting all the way. and they killed off one of the main characters. i feel the ending abit short as they put in the last fight as well as the ending and the last boss all the the last ep. so abit rushed.

still have chem holiday HW to do during the weekends while i have no idea how to do...haha. i kinda like this feeling of having alot of work to do. got sense of achiving something in the end. kinda sick i know....haha

wa...bloged quite alot today...

2008-01-07T22:05:00.000+08:00

yoz...

think i might keep this blog going for quite some time...haha

got my new time table today...

wa....most days 2pm end already....nice

the bio lect today was not as fun as the last one

talking to rishi and nik more than the lect itself...

i know i watched too much anime when a lect on evolution makes me think of tengen toppa

i was thinking of these lines from the last ep

it goes like this

we are evolving more with every passing minute!

with one revolution, we move forward a bit!

that's a drill!

this drill rips holes through the universe.

that hole will become a path for those who follow us

the wishes of the defeated and the hopes of those who follow,

with those two thoughts, with 20 sprials weaved in, we'll carve a path to tomorrow!

that is tengen toppa!

that is gurren-lagann!

MY DRILL IS THE DRILL THAT PIERCES THE HEAVENS!

it makes no link to bio what so ever but it was going through my head throughout the lect....

went for free fencing today after classes...

only jason, kain and me are he only guys there

i fence with both of them....won kain and loss to jason

DAMN... like that how to go novices???

worse...when to fence the girls

won 15-6 with grace and 15-7 with capt

how can i let them score so much???

like that got novices sure die one....

worse...fence sam...won 15-12

WA....i was hoping 15-6 likek that cause she is the best female fencer but 15-12 too sux already

AHHHHH....must train more.....must train more

these few days watching Kiba...

its an anime where the producers kill of characters to end an arc of the story

i see minor charecters being killed off like extras like that

till a point where i was asking myself when this character was gonna die...

gonna finish watching it soon...6 more ep

damn....hate it when i finishing a nice anime

but i wanna know the ending....haha

one of the characters that DIDN'T get killed

one anime that i've finished was Sayonara Zetsubou sensei [goodbye mr.dispair]

strange anime....funny and meaningless

the 12 eps were filled with jokes and missunderstandings

it is a great destresser for me....haha

the last ep even talked about y the anime finished and had 2 character intro...

character intro in the last ep???...nice

so long mr.dispair

posting my last part of my EAGLES reflections today

hope you enjoyed the whole thing

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Day 6

The day started at six in the morning when I had to wake up so that my bed does not take up space in the hall. It was still raining when I got up but the rain was not as heavy as the day before. I took this chance to run over to the mill with a friend to pack my bag and get ready to bring it to the hall and ready myself for the trip home. When I got to the mill, I the rain was rather small and we took our time to pack and fold our clothing. We even planned to have a morning shower as we did not bath the day before due to the rain. By the time we finished packing our bags, the skies opened up and poured down on the camp preventing us from getting our bags back to the hall.

I was stuck in the mill waiting for the rains to subside and thinking of what I will do when I get back and what I will do with my new found friends from the camp after we return to Singapore. All in all, I was stuck in the mill for an hour from 0630 to around 0730 waiting for the rains to let up. While I was waiting, my friend went into a deep sleep in front of me due to the three hour sleep we had earlier in the morning. When the rains did get smaller, I tried to wake my friend up but he was in such a deep sleep that I could not wake him up and I had to leave the mill without him.
In the hall, most of the girls gathered and were waiting for the guys stuck in the mill. I was told to return to the mill and wake everyone up and tell them that they were to gather their bags in the hall by 0830 and get their beds and sleeping bags ready for collection. I returned to the mill and woke up some of the people there before the rain did the job for me and it poured again. Again I have to wait till the rain grew smaller before I can run back to the hall with my bag. I knew that the window of chance will be small and so I readied my bag and waited for the rain to subside.

When the rain did get smaller, I ran with both my bags to the hall along with some of the guys and get got ready for breakfast. But there was none yet. We must have all the beds and sleeping bags accounted for before we can have breakfast. We spent the next 30 minutes searching the area for the missing few sleeping bags, they were left in the tents when we took our bags our yesterday. A few brave souls went out into the rain again to get the sleeping bags back and we stored the sleeping bags into the store room before going to have breakfast.

While we were consuming our breakfast, the farmers took the time to sell some rice and dragon-fruit to us to bring back to our families. I brought a kilogram of brown rice back for my grandfather to eat for he loves brown rice. With that done, I went to have my breakfast which was rice with some fried meat.

We had to unpitch our tents after breakfast and we went into the rain to take down our sleeping area for four days. What we found in our tents were swarms of insects hidden in every corner. If we could do active catching on that day, we would have filled half of the vials we brought to the camp. Under the tents are crawling bugs and under the covers were ants and earwigs. Flies were flying around in the tent went we opened it and many more were everywhere. Being from the insect group, we were unshaken by the sight, but those for other groups were not the same.

When my tent was down and packed into its bag, we went to help some of the girls. We had to endure the constant screaming by the girls went they see anything crawling near them. While helping them role the tent and packing it in the bag, we also helped them get rid of the bugs crawling around. This shows us that even if the bugs are so many times smaller than we are, we are still scared of them for an unknown reason.

After all tents were accounted for, we plan to take a group photo of all the members of the camp. We were separated by height and lined up in the hall. For once in my life, I felt normal as I was with the campers who were 180cm or taller and everyone around me are around my height. We were arranged in front of the camera and I was standing on the side in the 3rd row. Behind me are those shorter ones who are standing on benches and the tables. We were betting whether the table will be able to take the weight of the girls standing on it and what the reaction will be if the table breaks. The guy next to me claims that when the sound of the wood snapping ends, the girls will all scream together and everyone will look back and curse in shock. It so happens that the wood under the tables snapped under the weight of the girls and as said, the girls screamed together and started to try and get off the table while everyone in front turned back and cursed laughed. Everything that was predicted came true, we were amazed but we knew that it was common human reaction that whatever happen, happened.

The table was changed and it broke again before we were able to take the group photo and get out of the way of the girls who were rushing to get off the table. It was till raining then and this caused the bus that was to pick us up to be very late. We spent the time taking group photos with old friends and those newly made to remember the six wonderful days that we spent in the farm. We took as many photos as we could as we knew that once we board the bus, we will not be meeting each other until we are back in Singapore which was six hours away.

When the bus finally came, we got our bags onto the bus and said our last farewells to the farm and left for Singapore. By this time, it was already 12 in the afternoon and we were off to lunch in a nearby town. The plan was the give us some time to shop in the area, but due to the delay by the rains, it was cancelled and the guides gave us some time to eat and wanted us back in the bus within an hour. Went we reached, I had lunch with friends and went to a nearby shop to stock up on sweets for the trip back home. I brought a tube of sweets and a small box of food to consume at home. Soon the one hour was up and we had to return to the bus and get ready for the bus ride home.

The bus ride home was the same as the one to the farm; boring and quiet. What broke the silence was the driver playing a movie for us to watch. It was a rather stupid story but many wonderful fighting parts. I was half asleep during the movie and went to sleep for about half an hour after the movie finished.

When we finally reached the Malaysia checkpoint, we got off and got through customs before returning to the bus. At the Singapore custom, I have learned my lesson with the electronic gates and went to the manual one instant and I got through much faster than those that went to the electronic gates.

The trip back to CJC was normal and I could not wait to go back home to have a good shower and sleep. All in all, this trip has taught me many things that I would have never learned in Singapore. I made new friends with the people that were just in the room next to me. The only wish for me is that I could someday return there and relive all the events that have happened throughout the past few days.

damn....an essay like post

2008-01-04T22:25:00.000+08:00

strangly....i'm still blogging...
haha

anyway....today went back to school after yesterday's MC
today like one of the more slacking days....
math, PE and bio

went for PE today thinking i can handle the training after recovering
bad choice.....bad idea.....should have taken joanne's advice and don't go for PE
my body still cannot cope....
do all the stuff at the fittness area there but cannot run
wanted to, by felt like fainting....
after PE went back to class.....on the way back also felt like fainting
wtf....sleep outside class while waiting for kelly to come up with the key
it seems so go eat already...leave the guys at the 5th floor there waiting....WTF
than nik opened the top window and tried to climb into class
haha....breaking into our own class
he scared anything happen and he fell....
in the end....i climbed into class and got everyone's wallet and phones before sleeping in class till i was released when nik returned from break and it seems that someone has opened the door while i was sleeping......
sleep until people come in also dunno....must still be a little sick

dunno y people feel that the bio lect was boring....
i felt that it was quite interesting....strange

fencing today....sick body made me sleepy after a 5 point match
went home after that.....rest at home....hope can go for chanbara tomorrow

today posting day 5 EAGLES reflections
longest day of the camp.....4k words....
enjoy....
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Day 5

The day started like any other day at the farm and we gathered in the hall at 0700 to start the day off. We were told that the morning run that day was cancelled to give the groups more time to get their presentations. My group grabbed some breakfast and carried on with the power point slides and the presentation. Soon it was 0900 and the presentation was to start. But, the sky does not allow us to have a nice day and it rained cats and dogs throughout the morning making it hard for whoever is presenting to talk over the sound of the rain. Also, all the clothing and shoes we placed outside our tents are soaked through and many had to go into the heavy rain to collect them back into the tents. My tent mate went into the rain and collected our clothing and shoes and placed them into our tent before coming back to the hall soaking wet.

The first up was me and I gave a thirty minute talk on the insects we have caught in relation to where we caught them as well as what are their roles in the environment. Along with the talk, I also handed out some of the insect we caught to the people to give them a hands on experience with the insects and let them come close to the insects we have been working four days with and for. There was also bringing the rhino beetle out of its container and letting everyone have a chance to feel how it is like and also to let them interact with insects without a barrier in between.

My presentation went well as I felt that the people I was talking to were quite entertained at my presentation. Next was my group mate’s turn to present as I stayed behind to help him if he losses track of anything. The other group mates who were not presenting went to visit the other group’s presentation and see what they have done in the past four days.
After my group mate’s presentation was over, it was my turn again as the other members were caught in the rain and could not make it back in time to do the presentation.
This went on another 2 more times before we told the whole camp about the insects we could find in the farm area and their effect on the crops and vegetables in the farm. We also touched on some pest control methods that were organic to help the farmers keep the pests in check.

After all this is done and over with, my work for the whole camp is now over and I can finally rest. Lunch followed and we ate well and readied ourselves to visit the other group’s presentation in the afternoon. But the skies do not allow us to do that as it pours harder onto the camp and there was a real risk of flooding. We were told to bring our bags into a room behind the hall to keep them from being washed off if a flooding occurs. The girls were to go first followed by the guys. We worked fast and soon all the guys had their belongings in the room and some were helping the girls in bringing their belongings into the room.

The afternoon was wetter than the morning as the floor of the floor was wet and this made the power sockets we use for the laptops dangerous as there is a risk of shocking someone. Everyone is somehow trapped in the hall and cookhouse area due to the heavy rains and lighting risk. All the remaining groups presentation were held in the hall and cookhouse and it was quite cramp as the hall had to hold six groups and cookhouse had to hold four groups and all the people watching the presentation. I learned that some the other groups had problems like being trapped in mud, for the soil group, or lost in translation, for the people groups, and also equipment problems for many of the groups.

We learned about how the soil in the farm is suited to growing crops as well as how the soil losses its minerals over time. Also how the lives of the farmers and Malay people are like and what they do for a living as well as what their cultures are like. We also got a rare chance to see pictures of the marriage of a Malay couple the group went to on the fourth day. I also got to see the fruits of my labor when I went to help the surveying group to map out the farm as they complied all their readings and came up with a map of half the farm. The birds group showed us pictures of the birds they have taken as well as the way to tell birds of the area apart from each other. The temperature group was the best as they gave us a full review of their whole camp experience along with their data telling us the temperature of the farm changes greatly while the temperature of the forest changes very little.

It was interesting to hear the same camp that I went through but from the views of another person and hearing his thoughts on some of the events that happen during the camp. We got to know why we saw the soil people covered in mud on the 2nd day. They were trapped in a mud pool while collection samples and thus were covered in mud. We also got to know why the temperature boys were collecting their thermometer so later in the 3rd night. It was because they were caught in the evening water activities and were later punished for using the bicycles without permission, causing them to leave their thermometer in the paddy fields until night time and thus went to get it with us while we went to set the light trap.

After all the presentations are over, all the groups are free to do whatever they want as the leaders had a meeting to wrap up the day’s events. We were told to have a performances ready for the campfire that night but as it was still raining, many thought that it was cancelled. We took a long break and watched as the water level in the pond we were playing in just yesterday rose close to breaking its bank and we feared for a real flood may occur. But lucky, the rains reduced its might and the water levels stop rising and saved us from the flood. But as the rains might return at night and flood the area, we were given new sleeping areas so that we are safe from the flood if it did occur. The girls were to sleep in the rooms we placed our bags as there were beds there for the girls to sleep in. the boys were to sleep in the mill on foldable beds like those from mawai.

There was room for three boys to sleep on real beds and as the person in charge of assigning the three boy’s sleeping areas knew me, I was told to sleep in the bed. I rejected the offer but she insisted that I go. I made it clear that I did not want to sleep on that bed but she thought that I was stupid and wanted to sleep on a foldable bed rather than a comfortable bed. For me, I prefer to sleep on the foldable beds as compared to real beds as the real beds are sometimes dusty and dirty. This made me think, would you rather give up the risk of sleeping on something that no one has slept on for an unknown period of time just to have a soft mat under you? I have done slept on a dusty bed before and I fell sick the following day, therefore I rather sleep on the foldable bed that night and save me from feeling unwell the next day. For her, who has most likely lived in bliss her whole life and slept on nothing but high grade beds, sleeping on the floor for the past few days must be terrible and this is a nice change for her. But she must know that not everyone feels that way, and this is common in almost everyone, feeling that everyone thinks like oneself.

With that, we must move our bags out of the rooms for the girls to move their bags back into the room and make the bed. We formed a human chain and brought the bags out quickly. As the rain was smaller at the point in time, we quickly ran and placed our bags in our assigned areas and took what we need and returned to the hall to get ready for what might happen next.

What followed was dinner and some time to plan out what we were going to do for the campfire night later but without a campfire due to the rain. Therefore, we placed benches in the hall to form a little stage to have our performances. As the two insect groups have been working together even before the camp started to help get tools and materials for the traps, we decided to join forces and come up with a bigger performances together. The members of the birds group were from my class and so we again joined forces and formed a three group performances to bring up to stage later. The problem with having so many people is that some of them will be doing nothing while the others entertain the masses. We tried to even out the load to make it fair for everyone performing.

The idea we came up with was the act out some of the more famous advertisements we saw on the television. And to start the whole performance off, my friend and I will act out a play we watched to buy some time for the others to prepare for the advertisements they are acting out. The ones we came up with as the mocca advertisement about a bodybuilder selling him house while is very popular with the people. Also the M1 advisements about calling a cookhouse in Indian from Singapore and buying food. The last one is the credit card advisements about buying birds. With that, we went to the campfire and watch what the other groups had to offer.

The first group up did a little song and acted out the words into action into a mini musical video. It was rather entertaining but it lacked something that made it a memberible performance. The next group did the same act but with a different song. It also lacked that something that made it wonderful.

The next group remixed the song “the 12 days of x’mas” into the “6 days of EAGLES” and replaced some of the words to fit the camp’s theme. To add in some fun, they threw some brown rice into the air when they sang,”5 bags of rice” and acted out some of the lines to make the whole song funny and enjoyable.

The next group up was another mass joined group like our own and their performance had four parts in it with some involved those watching to join in the dance and songs. I feel that this is a great idea and it set a bench mark for my group, which was the last to perform, to make our performance as good as theirs.

For my group, I somehow became the next in power went our leaders left to have a meeting with the teacher in charge. I planned out what advertisements came when and what props are to be used and what to do in between each act. It was soon time for my group to go on stage and perform and I lead the way and went on first to tell those watching what will be happening through the performance.

First thing was the play by my friend and I which was to buy some time for the others to prepare whatever props they have. The play was set in a lecture hall and it was a lecture on the sheakspear plays in general. It was copied from a video I saw on YouTube, I felt that it was quite funny and I felt that many will think that way as well. Therefore, my friend asked if I could do the talking part and guide him in the acting and entertain the watchers. I agreed to do so as I have also wanted to act thing out for a long time and this is the perfect chance. It did its job and so much more, everyone laughed at the play and enjoyed it which brought joy to both my friend and I to be able to perform something that everyone liked.

What we planned after my play was the first advisement which was the mocca advisement that almost everyone in the camp watched before and agreed that it is a big joke. That is why we decided to use it as it can make a big impact on the watchers. In the real thing, there was a bodybuilder selling his house using many different bodybuilding poses. We decided to do the same only with three people acting rather than just one. To make them look like they have a big build, I asked them to put on life vests to give them a big chest look. They came on stage in their life vests and said the first line that made everyone break into laughter as they all knew what it was. The crowd broke into laughter after every line and action made by the three actors and this made our whole performance even better.
The next advisement is one from the telecommunication company M1 about how now one can call overseas with any extra charge. It shows an Indian man in a cookhouse picking up a call from Singapore and taking the person’s order later to find out that his caller is from another country. We had an Indian girl from the other insect group play the Indian man and our groups BPS boy to play the person calling. As the Indian man in the advisement had a strong Indian accent, the girl had to change the way she talks to match the man’s accent. Like the advisement before, this one is greatly talked about and is a joke to many. When they went up to act, as soon as she started taking orders, the crowd burst into laughter again. It was another successful part of the play as everyone was talking about it even after the actors left the stage.

The next and last advisement is an old one about a little girl buying birds for her brother who is going on a journey. But she only had enough money for one bird when she wanted to buy five. The old man came in with a credit card and brought all the birds and went to help the little girl in wishing her brother good luck for his journey. We of course could now find so many birds to release and so we decided to let everyone think that there are birds there. We had a short little girl from the other insect group to act as the little girl buying birds and others a play the old man and the bird seller. Sadly, this one was not as great as the last two and did not get much laughter from the crowd but I felt that the actors did a good job.

That was the end of the group performance and next up was the games section lead by the two MCs for the campfire. The first game was a guessing game where we have to guess what an actor was acting out. The first victim was chosen and given the word he must act out. At first we all through it were just a word, but it proved other wised when in the end, it was a sentence. This made the game much harder and with the risk of a punishment for the person who could not get the message across and failed to act out whatever sentence he or she was given. The next victim failed in his efforts to act out a long chain of words which make no sense at all. The person who threw up all these was the female MC that night and the camp was rather angry at her for coming up with these challenges which cannot be completed within the given amount of time. After the 2nd victim failed in his attempt, she let him off the punishment planned and promised that the next person with get that punishment no matter what.

At this, the next victim was chosen to be from my performing group and as the female MC was from our group for the camp, we wanted her to go and play the game as well. At first she protest and claim that she was not from the group. But due to the whole camp chanting her name, she had no choice but to go and have a taste of her own poison. As she by her that the next person with get the punishment no matter what, the whole camp gave her wrong answers to whatever she was acting out so that she will get the punishment. After the time is up, she was to undergo punishment. But she tried to worm her way out of it by saying that her whole group that it with her as part of one for all and all for one. But only to meet rejection by us as she said so herself that she said that she was not from our group. This is sadly very common everywhere, people do not want to do something and claim something just to claim something else when it takes a turn for the worse. She went through the punishment alone and protesting the whole way.
Next up was another game which needed a line of five people to pass a massage down and see what the original massage differ from the one that the end of the line. Two groups of five people were chosen by the female MC and the massages were made up by her. As by not the camp is somewhat going against her, the ten people she chosen changed the line she gave them into an insult to her. The games were cut short and went into singing to reduce the numbers of insults coming to her.

Singing is a classic campfire event and we all sang along to the master guitar player played the songs to sing. Songs will “country road” and “lemon tree” were sang as well as many more and we truly enjoyed ourselves singing beside close friends and new friends made during the camp. This was the time to reflect on what we have done over the last five days and what we will do together when school reopens. Singing along with some hot Milo and fried food was the best time I felt that I spent there and I was sure that many felt the same way as well.

That night we had no defined time to go to sleep and we could stay wake until the next morning if we could. To start the night off, I watched some shows on the laptop I brought to the camp with some of my friends. But, there was a blackout while I was watching and my laptop’s screen became the only light source and started attracting insects to it making watching anything very annoying. After I finished the one I was watching before the blackout, I turned my laptop off and kept it before returning to talk to my group mates.

The power was back on soon enough and I found my group mates eating and cooking instant noodles that we brought from Singapore and cooking it with the stove that the teachers asked to be packed in our bags. I got a cup noodle and waited for the water to boil. While that is happening, I was some people playing a game call O2 jam which is a keyboard game while needs the player to tap the keys to follow a chosen piece of music. The chosen music was a fast beat one and the player was pressing the keys so nicely in tune with the music and I was amazed at how fast the music was and how skilled the player was.

When my cup noodles were done, I set down to eat it while watching my friends sing “I have peace like a river” while doing the hand movements along with it. The girls could sing a do the movements very well but the boys could only concentrate on one thing and fall behind the girls sometime or are completely lost and watch in amazement at how the girls can multi-task. After finishing my cup noodles, I joined in with them and tried my best to learn the steps to the song. The first was to move my right hand from right to left and clapping and snapping my fingers in the end, that was for the “peace like a river” part. Next was to change the direction and got from left to right with my left hand while clapping and snapping my fingers in the end, this was for the “joy overflowing” part. Lastly, was to use both hands and go from my legs to the center to my head while capping and snapping my fingers in the end, this was for the “life everlasting” part. The worst part was to combine all three movements when the three verses of the song are sung together. When we tried it out, everyone could follow the “peace like a river” part, but after that, the boys slowly started dropping out leaving me and the three girls doing the hand movement and singing along. I could only do the hand movements perfectly but could not spare any more concentration to the singing part and remain silence throughout the song. Once we finished the “peace like a river”, “joy overflowing” and “life everlasting” part, the hardest section came in and that was to combine the three verses together with their hand movements. I could also follow this part until the fourth line where I just lost track and failed in completing the song at the very last line.

What follow the song was a game of truth and dare. We sat in a circle and spanned a bottle in the center and ask questions to whoever the bottle pointed to. Many interesting information came out of that game. What was fun was the dares that came out of the game. As a promised the group that if the bottle was to point to me, I will take any dares they could think of. It so happened that the bottle pointed to me and as promised, I ask for a dare. The was to say, “Will you marry me?” to one of the guides who was there with us for the camp. I walked up to him and said those words while kneeing down and entertained the group.

By this time, it was already two in the morning and some of them already went to bed. Some of the girls refused to sleep in the room on the beds as they also thought the same way I do and do not like to sleep on it as we do not know what slept there and when. I am also a little worried about sleeping in the mill and decided to move my bed into the hall and spend my night there. After I went to the mill and back with my foldable bed, I set up my bed next to those who were also sleeping there and went into the cookhouse to talk to my friends who were there watching movies and playing cards. I joined in the card playing and played till it was three in the morning. When they started to play a card game in which I have no idea how to play, I left them and when to my bed. Back on my bed, I talked to those around me and we reflected on what we have done that day and the four days before. It was half past three before I went to sleep and ended that very long day.

damn long....haha

2008-01-02T21:27:00.001+08:00

haiz....
school started already...
went to school today with a sick body and an empty mind
first thing to do was to get my watch back from nik
haha.....left it there when i went over the other day
due to my stupid eyesight, cannot see joash waving to me in the canteen....
made a fool of myself....haiz....what a great start to the year

went to class, which was at the top most level of school
it takes so much just to walk up 5 stories from the canteen....wtf
i sat under the fan....somemore hte top levels very windy....
=damn cold

class went by quite fast....new home tuitor....
nice guy....quite fun to be with...i think

break = go down 5 levels to eat and climb up 5 lvs to emo in class
it seens that i left one insect vial in my bag while at EAGLES camp and spent the time looking at it
not much happened today....only that i was feeling unwell in the afternoon and became lazy to walk out to the main road and took 132 change to 163 to go home
got home at 1545 have lunch and fell asleep....

thats just about what happened today

time to post my EAGLEs reflections for day 4
enjoy....
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Day 4

The same classic music woke me up that morning and washed up to start a new day of insect catching. We went for the morning run around the paddy fields for our morning run. The run was going well until we did a turn into the path between two paddy fields. The path was overgrown with grass and touch-me-not plants that cut at our unprotected legs with their spiky stems. The grass was wet with morning dew and as filled with seeds that stick to shoes and socks. Walking in this path and those that followed was the same experience as they were also overgrown with grass and touch-me-not plants. Walking on the path made our socks wet in dew and covered in grass seeds. For those not wearing socks, their legs were covered in the marks of the touch-me-not’s spikes. After walking on that path for ten minutes, my shoes were soaked in dew as the dew from the grass brash onto my shoe and when into it. Walking with it, as well as soaked socks, I could feel the water being squeezed around the shoe and made my trip back very unpleasant. After we walked back to camp, I quickly took off the socks and shoes and hanged to my slippers to prevent my foot from rooting in that wet shoe and developing smelly feet.

During breakfast, the group decided to use that day to finish taking photos of the insects and photos of the places we caught the insects. We were approached by the survey group during breakfast to look for people who were free that day to help their group. As I did not have to take pictures that day, I joined the survey group and aided them in their quest to map the farm. Breakfast was followed by a quick shower to wash off everything I picked up during the walk.

Helping the survey group started with a briefing at their base area, which was inside the house area. We were told to use some formula to help reduce the time needed to take measurements of the farm. And we headed out with measuring tape, which was one hundred meters longs coiled up into a head held role, and a bearing device. We went around to the dragon-fruit plantation to take measurements of the plantation and the road leading to it. We had to hold the tape down at one point and pull it so that it reaches its mark or the hundredth meter, whichever came first and record down the bearings and length of distance travelled. This went on for the whole morning and we went round the plantation and took down the distance travelled before returning to camp with a bad sunburn on my neck.

Lunch was followed with labeling of the pictures taken by the group while I was gone. As I have a vast knowledge about insects and helped both insect groups indetifiy the insects we caught, I was assigned to label all of the photo taken. I sat in the cookhouse surrounded with insects to aid me in the identification of the photos and the insects. I was checking the book that we brought and my earlier research to place a name onto the insects we caught. Even with all these, there are some insects that I cannot place a name on because I have never seen it before, even on the mass media. I had to name a few “some beetle” and “some bug” to some of the insects. As I was naming the insects, my group leader was busy making the power point slides for the following day’s presentation on our findings and the insects we have caught.

The day went by quite fast as there was much to do in a short time period and we rushed the work. I helped out the photo taking after I have labeled all the insects they have taken in the morning. I got to see how the pictures were taken. The insect was first moved into a zip-lock bag and held flat beside two rulers to take the size of the insect into account. The insect is held in place by someone applying pressure onto the sides of the zip-lock bag and holding the insect down. A photo is quickly taken from the top before we flip the zip-lock bag over to take a photo of the underside of the insect. This went on for all the insects we caught until we have the a softcopy of the whole collection. The photo taking ended just in time for the evening activities to start and we packed up the insect filled area to get ready to get rifting.

We had to put on life vest again for this water activity and we were each equipped with along bamboo pole about two times my height to push ourselves forward while on the rife. The rife were ether a one man rife or a four man rife and we ether group up with three other to take the four man rife or go sole and take the one man rife. As I prefer the one man rife, I took off with my bamboo pole and got onto a rife. At first, the rife I got was a rocky one as the logs were not tied together tightly and was moving under my feet. Five minutes into my ride, my leg fell in between the logs and I fell into the water. At that point in time, my boat also turned over and I had to get under the boat to turn it back into the correct position.

After trying out how to move the rife around, I tried to move around the pond area to visit some of my friends. What followed was a chain of events that led to me trying to get everyone into the water. It started out when went into a four man rife filled with girls, one of the girls who could not swim started to scold me and I smiled and left them with the intention of pushing her into the water me. Soon, a few guys banded together to try and sink one of the four man rife and the girl filled one was the target with me leading the attack. We caught up with them and started our attack on their rife by splashing water onto the girls. Soon I got too close and the front of my rife went under their rife and it made their rife tilt away and this scared the girls. Soon I gave up the attack and when to have fun with the other four man rife which was filled with three guys and a girl. They saw my attack on the all girl rife and wanted to stop me by pushing my rife down with their poles. But my broken rife was amazingly slow sinking and it gave me time to balance myself and avoid falling into the water. I counterattack by jumping onto their rife and bouncing on it before returning to my own friendly rife.

This went on until there was a war to get everyone wet and in the water. The girl’s rife was the first target again as everyone tried to overturn the rife. I again jumped onto the rife and bounced a little before returning to my own rife and scared some girls off into the water. Soon, everyone, even me, were soaked through and were searching for people who were still dry to wet. One girl who was alone on the other side of the pond was still dry and was being hunted by everyone to get her into the water. I joined in the quest by due to the earlier events, I was tried and could not row was fast as I could and when I was half way to the girl, she has already jumped into the water herself to save herself from us. As I was unable to push her in, I carried on the chase until I was too worn out to push with the pole and jumped into the water and drag my rife towards her. By now, she was at the end of the pond, a fair distance from the shore, running away from me and I was walking in the water to reach her. After I finally reached her and she was ready to fight me off with her bamboo pole. But after all the jumping and walking in the water, I was very worn out and decided to be a gentleman and bring her back to shore by tying my rife to her rife and pull her back to the shore.

What followed was an hour of playing in the water and many group photos taken while we try to cram as many people as we could on a four man rife. A mini fighting match was held on the rife as two people tried to push each other off. Many tried but in the end, one defeated all his challengers and stayed on the rife for the longest. We did many more things in the water and soon I felt that I was going to get off and go and bathe before getting some dinner and returning to do some work on the computer. I got out of the water and got my clothing before heading off to clean myself of the river water. When I finished my bath, I was amazed to find my friends still playing in the water.

Meals there were getting better as I was getting used to the food served there. Dinners were the best meals I had at the camp, most likely because I am is hungry after the day’s activities that I just eat anything on the plate. Dinner was followed by my group leader trying her best to finish the power point presentation before the leaders meeting that night. I was there to help my leader in any way I could. After the leaders meeting, I was told that as I was very informed about insects and their interaction with the environment, I was the best person to do the presentation. We were also told that our presentation will be in the morning and every group in the camp will watch us present once in a shift system. We have to present five times to five groups of people and inform them on what we have been doing for the past four days. But after the group talked things over, it was decided that everyone will do the presentation, but I will be first to present to let the others know what to say.

We worked until 1200 in the morning before I went to sleep and get ready for the following day’s presentation.

haha.....quite short day
thats all.....

2008-01-01T01:05:00.000+08:00

happy new year...
first post of 2008..haha
went for some countdown party at SP just now
partly waste of my time due to the fact that i was still a little sick
this made me unable to move around too much or shout out
but even if it was a waste of time, the party was rather entertaining
today marks the start of 2008 and the start of my incoming JC2 life
homework not done... subjects are all rusty... body and mind has slacked too much
i didn't even have the mood to watch anime today....just slept for the whole day

later today must revise my bio and chem as well as pack my bag for tomorrow
ah....somehow i miss school....missed the time i spent with friends
missed the time i laughed at others and laugh with them

2007 was a great year for me....
i made so many new friends and joined in so many new things
fencing...chanbara... mawai... EAGLES... spheres
now is bout 0120...talking to friends on msn
hope to spend another great year on the earth and staying alive

2007-12-30T23:14:00.000+08:00

yoz....
today i'm still feeling a little sick
recovered a little in the afternoon, but....
dragged to some stupid concert in tempines and made my sickness worse

anyway....posted some pictures of my 2nd day at EAGLES camp
enjoy...haha
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bloody hands after killing the bloodsuckers in our tent

the dragonfly.... first catch of the day

checking out the paddy fields for insects

fresh fish......still breathing

EARWIG.... it will crawl into your brains and lay its eggs

first pitfall trap.... under the X

going into leech land to plant pitfall trap 2

termite nest.....damn...never finish collection...no queen

rest before going back to camp

nature walk....fun

thats all for day 2

wait for the other days soon...haha

2007-12-29T20:28:00.001+08:00

yoz....
2nd day of feeling unwell
slept most of today....
dunno if tonight can sleep or not...haiz
because of the illness, had to miss chanbara today
just got my red belt but cannot wear it....wth

today is the 3rd or 4th day in a row my friends on msn have gone on strike and all never log on
wanted to talk about a trip to ECP tomorrow but guess thats not happening anymore...damn

on a different note, i have been throwing my HW aside these few days and tonight i must at least get my bio back to what it was before the hoildays
heck care about the chem HW already...

today i posting my day 3 reflections for EAGLES
enjoy...
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Day 3

I woke up at 0630 take in the clothing we hung up to dry as it was raining a little in the morning. After the short rain I went to wash up and prepare for the day’s activities. We gathered in the hall to start the morning PE activity. After warming up, we started a jog to the entrance of the farm which was a 15 minute walk from the hall. That jog was my first time jogging ever since school closed for the holidays. As I got to the gates of the farm along with the leading few people, I turned back to see a huge gap between us and the rest of the group. We waited for a while before jogging back to the hall for breakfast and meet up with everyone behind us on our way back to camp. Having a cup of hot milo after a long jog was heaven for me as I finished my breakfast and went to take a cold shower to wash off the sweat from the jog.

We went back to the vegetable plantation to collect back the traps we placed the day before and to do some active catching of the insects there. As it was my first time to the plantation, I have no idea what insects I might see as well as where to go to catch insects. We entered a tent like area where the vegetables are housed to look at the vegetables and find insects on the vegetables as well as insects flying around in the tents. The first thing I spotted was holes in the leaves of the vegetables and this is a sign that that leaf has been attacked by insects. Within the tent were a few dragonflies flying around and the group wanted to complete their dragonfly collection by catching a red dragonfly. I managed to trap it against the netting of the tent and my own net and went ahead to transferring it into a plastic vile. On the tent netting that I trapped the dragonfly was a little yellow colored ladybug with a strangely transparent wing casing. Even though it was an insect, almost everyone we ask, even the girls, found it very cute.

These two insects that we have caught were good to the plantation as they feed on insects that harm the plants. Dragonflies feed on small flying insects that might harm the plants ether by eating its leaves or drinking its sap. Ladybugs eat just aphid throughout their life and thus stop aphids from sucking the sap out of the plants and killing it.

The next insect we found was with the aid of the farmers spotting two small beetles on the long bean fruit. Transferring these two beetles was not an easy task as we could not use our fingers to push them into the vile as there were too small and we could not take the long bean off the plant or the farmers will be unhappy. In the end, we managed to make the beetles walk into the vile themselves and quickly closing it to prevent this prized catch from getting away. As it was one of the insects we found that is a pest to the farmers, it is more important to us that the pest controlling insect. Without it to prove that there are insects feeding on the vegetables, the other insects we have that feed on them will have little value to us. And our luck was wonderful enough for us to find an assassin bug in the very same plant we caught the beetles in. assassin bugs feed on other insects and act as pest control for the farmers. With this we have a predator and pray link between the insects we found.

As we went to collect our pitfall and light traps to see what we have caught, I caught a smaller red winged dragonfly with help from a friend. This one is different from the one we caught earlier as its wings were a transparent red where as the one before was just transparent. Another dragonfly added to our collection. The traps laid the day before gave us little results as in the farm area as there are very few large insects that are attracted to the smell of the bait and fall into the trap. The smaller ones can fly in and out with ease and ants can just climb down and up the sides of the jar. The light trap was not any better as the insects were just flying around the trap and not into the trap to be caught. The other light trap that was set up provided one small moth which we feel was a good catch considering how the other two traps failed to catch anything.

After another pitiful active catching section, we returned back to camp and planned out the afternoon’s activities. When the other insect group returned with a great number of catches and a pitfall jar full of forest cockroaches, we talked about how to take pictures of all the insects we have caught so far for the project. We spent lunch assigning roles to the people for the photographing later. I was to go along with another member into the forest to take GPS readings of the spots where we caught the insects and where we placed the traps.

Walking into the forest gave me hope of finding more insects that we have not caught. We went to the spots where we caught the earwig and small beetle to take GSP readings of the easting’s and northings as well as bearings of the spot. We did this for the three pitfall traps and the termite nest as we walked further into the forest towards the dam that the end.

To our surprise, our teacher in charge of the biology groups rode up to us on a bicycle and greeted us before falling off the bike right in front of the group. We hurried to her side to check if she was alright before most of the group left with her back to camp to have her wounds treated.

This leaves my other group member, the GPS reader and me the walk to the dam to take a reading of the spot. Along the way we talked about everything under the sun until the GPS reader spotted something running across the path under us and alerted us. We quickly put a net over it and transferred it into the vile and finally indentify it as a harvest spider. Even though it’s called a spider and has eight legs, it’s not one. It is of the same class as spiders and do not produce venom or silk.

After a long walk we finally reached the dam, we hurried to sit down to rest our legs. I was told that the dam provides all the power for the farm and all our electric needs from the camp. I was amazed at how this small dam could power the farm as well as everything in the camp. This really showed me the power of nature to provide us with so much.

After taking our readings of the dam, we made our way back to camp for the evening activities. The activity for us that day was the water obstacle course. As many of us have been to mawai and have done the obstacle course there, we knew what to do from the one. The logs used for the course here were thicker than the ones in mawai and we found it easier to get across this one as compared to the mawai obstacle course. The ropes used here were also thicker and thus made it easier for us to move on. All this made the Obstacle course very easy for some of us and many did not even get any water above the knee.

We were broken up into groups to try out the different challenges the course posed to us. This took about 45 minutes and we have tried all the different log crossings and rope walks the obstacle course had. Next up was a race to an island on the other side of the Obstacle course but we had to go through all the challenges of the Obstacle course at least once in order to win the race. The first group that makes it to the island had to send two people on a rife, a boy and girl, to rife their way back to the starting line.

As my group made our way through the Obstacle course, we became the first to finish the Obstacle course and make our way onto the island. The rife on the island was a rather small one but we just went ahead and got a girl onto the rife. I went into the water to push the rife off as my friend got on. As soon as the rife left land, it started to sink. It seems that the small rife cannot take the weight of 2 person and will sink. Since I was already wet from pushing the rife off, I took it on myself to be the boy needed and pull the rife to the starting line. But as I pulled the rife into an area with lotus, the spikes on the stocks of the lotus began to cut into my leg and I could not take the constant pain of walking in that area anymore. I climbed onto the rife but it started to sink back into the water again, and after that I climbed back onto and off the rife to stop it from sinking as well as keep my legs away from the spikes. I tried to use the bamboo pole given to us to push the stems down before walking over them, but this was slow and does not work well as I still get cuts from the spikes. In the end I decided to lie on the side of the rife and push off with the pole to move forward and towards the starting line. This got me wet as the rife was floating in the water rather than on it, but it was the most effective way to get to the starting line. After a great effort to reach the starting line, I clawed the rife and myself up onto land so the girl behind me did not have to do this kind of dirty work which is not fitting of a lady.

After this terrible rafting experience is over, we waited for the rest of the groups to make their way through the Obstacle course again to return to land and off to wash up before dinner. A plans to head out to do some active catching in the night with the LED light was thought up and we went ahead with it to test our luck in catching some night flying insects.

After taking a light snack before heading out at 2200, we headed to the duck rearing area to set up the LED light to attract insects to us. We took with us some nets, the LED light and a powerful touch and headed out into the darkness. The effectiveness of the LED light became known when we turned it on and within a few minutes, there were small flying insects swarming around the light like bees to honey. But these small insects were too small for our nets to catch as they will just fly right through the holes in the net. As we reached the duck rearing area, we relies that we did not bring the white cloth and some of the group had to return to camp to get it. In the mean time, the rest of the group stayed back and gazing into the clear night sky to look at stars and hopefully find spot a shooting star. We were spotting constellations and I was racking my brains trying to remember the stories behind the constellations and telling them to my fellow group mates. We did see a few shooting stars before the other group members return with the white cloth. We set up the LED light behind the white cloth to attract the insects. Within minutes, we found a small fly landing on the cloth and we caught it and contained it before returning to star gazing. The trip out at night was more star gazing than insect catching as most of us are constantly amazed that the number of stars that can be seen here but not in Singapore. The skies was filled with stars that kept our eyes glued onto and may have missed a few interesting insects that may have come visit us.

We headed back lighted by the powerful touch that brighten the whole road in front of us and brought us some sense of safety as we walk back to camp to head to bed and rest up for the night and get ready for tomorrow. We have ended the active catching for the whole camp and started taking photos of all the insects we have and identifying them.

Sleeping again in the sleeping bad brought warmth and some padding below me to give me a sound sleep throughout the night.

thats it for day 3
pictures will be posted up soon....i hope

2007-12-28T20:28:00.000+08:00

o.O
3 posts in 2 days???
i am going crazy....
anyway....today was the best day of my holidays
but not in a good way

today i went to nik's place to "study"
thats what he told me the day before
in the end...go there play Wii and DS
haha....so much for studying
took me an hour to get there and an hour to get back
taking 93 from this house and transfering to 163 home
the moment i got home and set up my laptop....
suddenly not feeling well....go and rest....
work up at 1830 to have dinner beofre sleeping again
wa.... play and fall sick on the same day....pro or not

anyway, here is my day 2 reflections for the EAGLES camp i been to earlier in the month
enjoy.......
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Day 2

The day started with a slowly as everyone awoke from their tents half asleep. I went to the hall to check on the insects we caught the night before. To my surprise, a new container was added on the table containing a huge rhino beetle. It was the biggest insect I have seen in my life and I could not contain my excitement and took it out of the container and onto my hand. But once there, it hooked onto my skin and I could not get it off without getting some of my skin off with it. An instructor, who happen to be with me, and I had to use a piece of paper for it to hook onto before my hand was free for the big beetle. As it was hanging onto my hand, it struck me how well equipped it was to hold onto and climb branches. Its front two legs were held out to stretch forward while the back two pairs of legs held tightly to the branch, or in this case my hand, to ensure it does not fall off.

To wake everyone up, a little warm up followed by a morning run woke everyone up as we ran to the duck rearing area which was a 5 min walk away from the hall. After we reached the duck area, we turned back to return to the hall for our breakfast. As the leading few people reached the hall, behind us was a big gap which was caused by people staying at the duck area watching the ducks swim about. It was not my first time I have laid my eyes on a duck, but for some people it was the first time they have seen a duck with their own eyes. To them, they ducks were cute and this caused them to watch the ducks for a long time. This again tells me that they have lived such a city life that they have never seen a duck other than on the dinner table.

Breakfast was Nasi Lemak, which was made of brown rice with small fish cucumbers and peanuts with a health serving of samba chill and hot milo. The hot milo made the breakfast the best meal we had so far into the camp.

After breakfast was the start of my group’s active catching of insects in the padi fields. We put on our life jackets and walked out onto the paddy fields to start our great hunt. I see no need to put on life jackets on this trip as we are not even going into the water and even if we do, the water is only half way up the knee. But as it better to be safe than sorry, these safely measures have to be taken to ensure that we arrive back in Singapore safely. What was struck us on the spot when we headed into the fields was the complete lack of insects other than dragonflies and pond-sackers. We went about trying to catch one of each only to find ourselves nothing to catch after that. It was a sight for sore eyes for us when we spotted a yellow butterfly flying near us. We quickly get our nets ready to catch the flying insect to add to our collection. With a little teamwork, we managed to trap the butterfly in between two nets and quickly transfer it into the plastic vials we brought. At closer inspection, we found some water boatmen in the paddy fields swimming in the water. Sadly, they were too small for our nets and could swim right through the holes on the nets.

What this lack of insect species tells me that there is a lack of diversity of food sources to support a large number of insect species. As the only source of food to start a food chain there was the rice plants, there can only be a few kind insects feeding on the rice. This in turn leads to fewer types of insects feeding on those rice eaters. This has limited the number of different insect species we can find in the area but has given us great insight into the how the environment affected the diversity of the insect of the area.

We visited a small building to ask for help from the farmers in our search for insects. We came across a couple of farmers killing fishes that will most likely be on our dinner tables that night or at a market place the following morning. To see life fishes which are still flapping their tails and gasping for air getting their fins chopped off and having a knife stabbed up their necks with blood flowing out was not a sight for those with weak stomach.

With our lack of results in mind, we went to check with the boss of the rice fields to ask for his views on the type of insects that can be found in and around the rice fields. It came to light that the insects that we were looking for, other than dragonflies and pond-sackers, were found deep in the fields and not on the outer edges where we were searching. We were told that if we wanted more insects we could check out the vegetable plantations and dragon-fruit plantations. It seems that the workers have been catching much different type of insects in that area and are glad to help out in our hunt for insects. With that in mind, we made plans to go visit the vegetable plantations in the afternoon.

As we returned from the fields, we meet up with our sister group who were also catching insects. But for them, they were catching them in the forest as compared to the farm area. As we reflected on our pitiful catch of insects, we were amazed at the number of insects they caught. They have caught at least ten different species from the forest. Over lunch we talked about the area we have gone to and where we planned to go to increase our collection. There were plans of exchanging group members to let everyone have a feel of both areas of catchment. The afternoon’s activities was to set the traps we have prepared in our areas to trap any insects in that area. We had six pitfall traps ready, three for each group, to be placed in each area.

Lunch was followed by the afternoon activities, which was a trip to the vegetable plantations and dragon-fruit plantations. As some or the other insect group wanted to follow us to the vegetable plantation, my friend and I went to follow the other insect group into the forest to try our luck at catching insects there and also to aid in the setting up of the traps. I loaded the three glass jars into my bag and made our way into the forest. As we enter the forest, I was hoping that we could find some new insects to add to our growing collection and help us have a better understanding of the environment’s effect on the insects.

As we entered the forested area, what struck me was the noise of the forest created by the insects in the forest. We were a few minutes into the forested area when we spotted a small beetle on a tree just beside us. A net was placed over the beetle as soon as I found in and it was quickly transferred into a plastic vile. In the very next tree in front of us I spotted an earwig resting on the trunk of the tree. As we just placed the beetle in my bag, we took out another plastic vile to catch the earwig.

Traveling deeper into the forest with these two catches gives me hope of a better catch deeper in the forest. As we approach the site in which we will be setting up our first pitfall trap, we took the spades and glass jars out to start setting up the trap. While some people were digging the forest group to insert the glass jar, I was looking around the area trying to spot any interesting insects to add to our collection. The pitfall traps are jars with some uncooked rice and pineapples inside to attract insects to the trap and fall into the glass jars and be trapped. Looking around the area of the trap I found some pitcher plants near the river that was running through the forest. I can see that what we are doing with the pitfall trap is based off this plant that use sweet smelling sugar to attract insects into its mouth and the slippery walls cause to insect to fall in and be trapped.

The next pitfall trap will be placed deep in the forest off the trail that we have been using. We were warned of leeches crawling around in that area and this put most of the team off and refused to enter the area. I went in with another guy to set the trap under a fallen log. At the entrance of the route I spotted a leech on the floor and went on to get rid of it to save myself from having a bloodsucker hanging off my foot for the rest of the day. Digging in the forest soil was not an easy task as there were roots under the surface that will hinder us in the need to digger deeper to set our trap. In the end, we had to set it in a slanted manner due to the roots under the jar. We walked back to the path and carried on with the track into the forest. But, a group member spotted a leech climbing on my shoe and screamed out loud as we went ahead and remove the leech and kill it by burning it. It seemed that this leech was very tough and managed to survive being burned alive and was still moving after we burned it. We decided to end its life by crushing it on ground.

The next site we visited was a termite nests under a log. The insect we wanted from that nest was the queen termite to make our collection an even better one. As we turn over the log, all that we see are workers and soldiers crawling around. As the morning’s trip to the nest caught a soldier termite, we wanted to complete the set and catch a worker as well. After that was done, we unearthed the nest in our attempt to find the queen. All we managed to do was destroy the nest to find no queen.

Last stop was the site where we will be placing the third pitfall trap. It was placed along the track hoping to catch any insects that may walk by. After the trap was set, we made our way back to camp to review the insects we have caught so far.

Back at camp we compiled the total insects caught by both groups and started labeling the locations of where we caught each insect. We had to stop this when the other groups returned and started the evening activities. The insects, birds and survey group are to go for a nature walk to learn more about nature. We learned about the waterproof abilities of the lotus leaves that allow water to slide off the leaves whenever there is water on the leaves. This is due to the closely packed molecules on the leaf surface which does not allow water to pass through. We can copy this design and come up with materials that act in the same way to aid the world. We also learned of the strength of silk made by spiders and some insects. If we could make materials with the same strength as the silk we could have stronger cables to support our world with. The coconut tree was also something we gained insights about. The tree of a hundred uses really does have many uses for each of its parts. A termite nest found in a dead tree gave us insight how smart some insects are to have different compartments in their nests for different reasons. Like a room for the queen termite as well as a room to rear the young.

Soon it was time to head back to camp and have dinner and prepared the light traps for use at night. The light traps use light to attract insects to it and trap the insects in water or in a net of sorts. After the light trap is ready, I went out with a girl from the other group and our teacher in charge for the biology groups as well as the temperature group out into the farm to place the trap and follow the temperature group in collecting their thermometers. As the few of us walk out into the night to set and collect, I was amused by how the boys from the temperature group screamed like little girls when a little insect jumped onto their hands. They were all of rather big builds but were scared of something that the girl following me was not. After we set up our traps and collected the thermometers, we headed back to camp to reflect on the day’s results.

The sky was clear and it was the perfect time to go star gazing. The sky was filled with stars and we started to find constellations and our own zodiac stars. Without and lights or buildings to block our view of the sky, we spotted many constellations that can never be seen in Singapore.

I learned from the night before how cold the nights can be and drew a sleeping bag to keep me warn during the nights. With the sleeping bag, I slept like a log throughout the night and was again awaken to the sounds of classic music from the alarm.

haha...another super long post

2007-12-27T22:54:00.000+08:00

time for the pics from the camp

these are pics from day 1 of the 6 day camp

enjoy

the pit stop after customs

views of the boats and pond

my tent for the next 4 nights

the briefing to start the camp off

me serving lunch....soup only

first catch of the camp

in the cookhouse...a hawk moth

2nd catch of the camp

cookhouse....green beetle

making of light trap

trap in the darkness

thats all for the first day

not much pics taken.... haha

2007-12-27T19:20:00.000+08:00

dude.....haven't been blogging for god knows how long
got help from rishi bringing my blog back to life

anyway....been off the malaysia and back in the past two months
two camps to go to and it was damn fun to go into the "wild" and live for a few days
the first one is too far back that i don't feel like blogging about it
the later one....haha...EAGLES
more fun

alittle info first...
my groups project there is the study of insects...
i love insects...
fun fun fun

i will be posting my reflections here for all to read...haha
as well as pictures to add some colour to this red blog

this is the day one's reflections
enjoy........
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Before the 6 days of the camp, we got ready the equipments and researched on our given task. We had to research on the insects found in and around the farm area and their interaction with the environment. I had an interest in insects since I was young and found this a wonderful experience to research on something I love. Before the trip, we researched on traps to use to catch the insects with and also went to get the materials needed to make the trap. All these materials was stuffed into a large suitcase and brought to the camp site. For a group that deals with little insects, we packed the most materials to the camp site.

Day 1

On the first day of the camp, we arrived in CJC foyer and got ready for a long trip to the camp site. It was time to meet up with friends from the mawai camp and also new people joining us for this trip. I also saw a sight that was so common on trips like these, a mother hugging her child as if the child will never come home. This is, sad to say, very common and tells me a lot about the current mindset of the people. These children are so used to the easy life at home and viewed this trip to the rice farm like going to off to somewhere far away never to return again. What is only a 6 day trip to most of us is a 6 day period for them to be away from the comforts of home.

As we board on the bus that will take us to Singapore customs, it has never occurred to me that that day was Saturday, the day where most people might go to Malaysia. When we reached Singapore customs, the place was filled with people, like us, going off to Malaysia. It took me 15 mins to clear myself to the other side and another 10 mins to wait for the rest of the school to clear before we boarded the bus and went across to Malaysia customs. Other at Malaysia’s side, it was the same thing with everyone waiting in line to get their passports stamped and approved to enter Malaysia.

After the change in bus, we took a 30 mins ride to a small break house to have a 15 min break to eat and stock up our supplies of snacks and sweets for the trip to the camp site and for the camp itself. But what I saw along with stocking up on snacks was what some people will do to get what they want as fast as possible. This girl took a hand full of potato chips and sweets and asked a guy in front of me if he could pay her stuff along with his. He agreed and the girl placed her items on his hands, she goes on to get more snacks and placed it on the poor guy. I feel that this is very unfair for the people behind the guy as they also want to get their items as fast as possible but are now held back by this girl’s needed to get her stuff first. This reflects on her character and also the character of some Singaporeans who do the same thing. Disregarding the feelings and needs of others just to fulfill what they want.

The bus ride to the camp site took a little below 3 hours and most people were sleeping by the time we reached there. The moment I stepped out of the bus, I was greeted by a strong wind and a wonderful view of the pond that we will be carrying out our water activities along with the cook house where we will be having our meals. We also had a good view of the area where we will be pitching our tents to sleep at night, giving us some time to plan out with whom we will be sleeping together with and where we will be pitching our tents. Walking to the hall was a great change from the near 4 hours of sitting down in the bus.

We then had lunch there at about 2 pm, the lunch was organic brown rice with some vegetable, fish and dragon fruit with soup. I was given the task to serve the soup to the other campers. While watching people collect their food, I wondered if this was what we will be eating for the next 6 days, the food was not really bad, but I was hoping for food that was similar to the food that was served at mawai. When I finally served everyone, I took my own share and went to eat with friends. I saw what looked like soya bean milk being served and I went to get a cup of it. To by surprise, what looked like soya bean milk tasted like barley water. Due to the fact that I dislike barley water, I did not touch the cup of “barley” throughout my meal. After consuming everything on my late, I braced myself and finished the cup of “barley” in one shot and got a cup of water to wash it down. Later I found out that what looked like soya bean milk and tasted like barley was in fact brown rice milk made from grounding brown rice another with other stuff together to form this drink. I learned from then on not to get a cup of what looks like soya bean milk.

After the late lunch, we went to pitch our tents at a spot of our own liking as long as it is within the area given to each gender. It was not the first time I pitched a tent and therefore it only took a friend and me to pitch our tents. The tents given to us were 4 man tents and each tent was to hold 3 boys and all our bags. To my surprise, the tent allowed me to lie down nicely, considering the fact that I am 1.82 meters tall; allowing me to lie down without any problems gave me a wonderful feeling for the nights to come. Next we placed our bags in the tent and prepared of the briefing of the camps activities for the next 5 days.

The briefing was about how we will act and what we will do for the next 3 days of our own activities. We needed to understand what the farm does and also the safety measures that must be taken while doing some activities. We were asked to do a tetra mapping of our characters to determine the element that was the strongest in our characters. The mapping was a few lines of characters that we have to rate from 1 to 4 whether they were in our characters. Adding up the scores and finding the row with the highest score will determine the element we belong to. I am under the element of earth. Even thought I believe that all this is based on unproven claims, it seems that this element mapping has some truth in it when it did manage to pin point some facts about my character.

With the briefing over and done with, the camp moved to have a run around the farm to let us know the how the farm is like and know our way around the farm over the next 5 days. For my group, we must run around with the rest trying to find an area that we can place our traps to catch insects, along with finding areas where we can find insects to catch.

Coming back from the run, I went to take a shower. As I turned the tap to have a shower, what greeted me was a wave of cold water that refreshed me as well as shocked me. With cold water raining down on me, I made the shower a short one and quickly dried myself and went for dinner. Dinner was the same brown rice and some vegetables and meat. I was relived not to see the brown rice milk being served but was orange juice. As I was still getting use to the meals there, I did not really enjoy the dinner.

I was thinking that our project will start the next day where we will do active catching of insects. Little did I know that the active catching started and the first day when a hawk moth was resting in the cook house netting just above where I had my dinner. Getting my net, I caught the moth without any trouble only to face the problem of where to store the moth as our luggage has not been given to us yet. To add on to our problems, we found a green beetle also resting on the netting of the cook house. After one of our group member went to get our luggage into the hall, did we solve our storage problem and caught both insects. But that was not all we caught that night. On the walls and floor of the hall was filled with insects just crawling around and soon we have caught ourselves a mole cricket, a cricket, a grasshopper and a damselfly. These were the start of our collection that grew over the next 2 days into a museum like collection in the hall for everyone who wanted to take a look at the insects of the farm.

With the insects caught, we went on the making our traps to get ready to be set up the next day or the night itself. The light trap that I was asked to make has been pre-made back in Singapore and only needed aluminum foil to be wrapped around the cardboard to be completed. The light trap was made such that the insects will be attracted to the light and fly towards the trap and be caught in it.

Soon it was time to head back to the tents and rest up for the following day’s activities. Inside the tent was stuffy and rather warm due to the combined body heat of three people in a small area. With that in mind, I went to sleep in shorts and a T-shirt. But late into the night, the temperature dropped around us and I was forced to put on long pants, socks and a jacket to keep myself warm enough to sleep through the remaining night time. With a little more than 6 hours of sleep, I woke up to the ringing of classic music from by tent mate’s alarm. This was the start of the three days of self planned activities to catch insects to understand their impact on the environment and the environment’s impact on them.

damn long...haha

2007-11-11T21:27:00.000+08:00

yo....
so long never blog already...haha
well...today went to east cost park
ride bike...
fall from bike
left hand down
enjoying the pain...
HAHAHAHAHA

something like that...
but... it was fun going out with old friends from sec sch
so much better than those people in the same classroom as me in CJC

oh...
these few days i have been watching G Gundam
the greatest Gundam show ever
after watching crap like GSD, this one is so much better
the gundam fights are also very nice
it is in fact the main point of G Gundam
gundam fighting.... better and a bunch of talk and nothing more

haiz...think thats bout it for today...
haha... these few days i have been spaming anime
no mood to blog...hahahahaha
bye...