Wednesday, March 11, 2009
results are bad for me and i don't wanna talk about it...
Malaysia trip is 2 days away and i have found a long existing flaw in my fencing that has not really been fixed... now, i must spend tomorrow training my hand to get used to moving around to get this flaw fixed...
one thing i must ask the world is y must they always come in small packages, y must they come in overseas trips, y must they be so out of reach, y must i take notice of them... Y, kami, TELL ME Y... one is enough of a problem for me to handle mentally already, now you bring in another one...
i ask myself [AGAIN]y I'm like nothing in the eyes of others... because the things i see around me tell me this hard fact that i cannot help but ask again and again why it is so... is no matter what i do pointless in the eyes of others, or is it wrong to wish to be remembered??? i can still remember a talk i had about me "bullying" someone about her height, during that period of time, we had quite a good friendship, about after the talk and i was asked to stop what i was doing and i distanced myself from her, this friendship fell apart and in the end it became nothing... and guess what, i what i did was wrong in his eyes... GG...
looking back, i can trace alot of my pains back to him... i wonder... but i guess its more suited for another time, can't be too emo in one post...
on a different note, my jobless days have brought me to new boredom levels to make me draw this...
its quite an orginal work, not much reference other than the idea...haha
died at
23:53
