Friday, October 3, 2008
after a long while of doing really nothing much, there really is nothing much to say...
we... the As are in a few weeks and i just suddenly lost the drive to carry on... what a great time to do so...someone please save me... bring my back to my senses...
and after the
emo day of yesterday... i made of few new discoveries???
one thing is how i found out about my feeling towards hate... if one hates someone for a reason, i feel that this feeling of hate will and kinda must always be there... more so if each party has gone through crap because of this hate... to forgive and forget is to totally
disregard the past crap that they have gone through... but in truth, how can anyone forgive and forget all this???
but why am i ranting on about all these useless stuff... yes, ranting on... i found out that talking in real life kinda seem pointless now, i mean, no one gives a damn about the this i say or the ideas i have... couple that with the small
existence and
uber bad luck i have, i might as well don't be there... very few people talk to me, and no one cares if i talk... well, i can learn from
Chameleos and
disappear into the
bark ground.... being a lonely for too long and one kinda developed a habit of talking to oneself, and the pointless things that i say some people care... the important one, who gives a damn???
my school life is coming to an end soon, in 4 more school days and i am "free".. it is a happy/sad moment for all... for me, i am finally free of the class... ya... no more of them... but then, that also means no more of those friends outside class... with the very small social circle of mine, i treasure everyone... and it all comes to an end in a weeks time...
enough of this ranting... tomorrow there is still tuition and hunting to be done...
discover my world
23/9/08
i need help...
alot of it
29/9/08
welcome to my world brother, feel the pain i have been with for the past 4 months
the human body is very screwed up
2/10/08
i find there is no need to talk anymore... no one gives a damn
how can you disregard the crap they put you through???
once again, you have proven me right
died at
23:10
