Saturday, October 25, 2008
A's starts in a weeks time a i'm still not ready for it... DAMN IT... i am more ready for what ever i want to do after the A's more that the A's itself... this is not good... not at all...
well, these 2 weeks have been spend studying with QY in the pac along with waking up late and wasting quite alot of time...in short... I'M SCREWED
to think about it, there really is nothing going on in live worth noteing down... my emo side hasen't even rear up once since school ended [now i know where all my problems come from]. but then again, i do miss those days... it was fun i must say.
stupit website that can't let me find a good picture without feeling guilty... DAMN YOU
i have really ran out of crap i want to say while waiting for myself to feel sleepy...
discover my world
16/10/08
its good that you have noticed my pain...
in the end, you did change, for the worse
19/10/08
its only in this period that i know how much i'm truely worth
25/10/08
again, a dream showed me my greatest fear
died at
00:44
Friday, October 10, 2008
today was the last day of school and what a day it was...
not only did i ponder about going out with the class, something great happened to a great friend... in short... he has my respect for what he has done...
ah but i still cannot believe a year has gone by so fast... time to look back at this year and remember all the crap and fun times i had... and all the damn mugging... to think that this whole year i have devoted my life to this school and the people in it kinda draws tears...all the gift giving and words of bye are just not my thing and yet i still fall prey to it... i must say, i will miss the school and the people... i will miss going up 5 floors every morning and the everyday school life i have gotten so used to... i will miss my "emo" table and my chair... and the class room...haiz... i miss too many things...
on the event... card making for teachers[y did i do such girly stuff???] and the creation of the crap up wind mill that i really have no idea what it is about... all it does is remind me of Didi's artifact back in sec 4 DnT... haha... well, there is the badge giving out thing in class... everyone got a badge from Luke,HM, and Kelly reflecting their personalty for the pass 2 years... mines Mr.fantastic due to me being long and flexible??? i dunno... but the others are quite fun and accurate... than there is the 2 hours entrapment in the hall... brother's talk was nice... but sitting there for too long does make my legs cram up... hey... at least i appeared[for a damn short while] in the video that was shown...
was suppose to go hunting to day but i decided to go out with the class while in the end i didn't cause i forgot that i'm broke... damn... anyway... i must say today was great.. at least i killed a tigrex... that's something to be proud of... yeah... no deaths some more...
one day, it will all end. Fun times are short and painful, the inevitable parting feels lonelier because it was so enjoyable… school rumble
The cold blade will cut my warm flesh, the red line of blood shall bring salvation to my eternal pain..."emo"table[it was there before i got the table]
my badge
i will miss my study place at the PAC
sad that i don't have photos of my class...all well
AHHH.... y must the class chalet be on the same day as the big anime convention???
7/10/08
why am i so worthless in the eyes of those important to me???
9/10/08
i realy hope that you have not taken me for granted
why am i greeted with that gloomy face and yet smiles are given to others???
died at
22:53
Friday, October 3, 2008
after a long while of doing really nothing much, there really is nothing much to say...
we... the As are in a few weeks and i just suddenly lost the drive to carry on... what a great time to do so...someone please save me... bring my back to my senses...
and after the
emo day of yesterday... i made of few new discoveries???
one thing is how i found out about my feeling towards hate... if one hates someone for a reason, i feel that this feeling of hate will and kinda must always be there... more so if each party has gone through crap because of this hate... to forgive and forget is to totally
disregard the past crap that they have gone through... but in truth, how can anyone forgive and forget all this???
but why am i ranting on about all these useless stuff... yes, ranting on... i found out that talking in real life kinda seem pointless now, i mean, no one gives a damn about the this i say or the ideas i have... couple that with the small
existence and
uber bad luck i have, i might as well don't be there... very few people talk to me, and no one cares if i talk... well, i can learn from
Chameleos and
disappear into the
bark ground.... being a lonely for too long and one kinda developed a habit of talking to oneself, and the pointless things that i say some people care... the important one, who gives a damn???
my school life is coming to an end soon, in 4 more school days and i am "free".. it is a happy/sad moment for all... for me, i am finally free of the class... ya... no more of them... but then, that also means no more of those friends outside class... with the very small social circle of mine, i treasure everyone... and it all comes to an end in a weeks time...
enough of this ranting... tomorrow there is still tuition and hunting to be done...
discover my world
23/9/08
i need help...
alot of it
29/9/08
welcome to my world brother, feel the pain i have been with for the past 4 months
the human body is very screwed up
2/10/08
i find there is no need to talk anymore... no one gives a damn
how can you disregard the crap they put you through???
once again, you have proven me right
died at
23:10
