Thursday, July 17, 2008
boring hours drove me to pose... lol
haven't been doing much the past week, than today rush for 4 hours, than now nothing to do...o.O... strange world
well... not say not doing anything for the past week, i did went for a magic show/play yesterday at the esplanade with the WHOLE family... the magic show was nice and all... was spending my time trying to figure out how it was done... adding in the fact that i forgot to bring my specs...haha... couldn't see much... well the story was touching and all, it was done by a church [FCBC if i'm not wrong]. i did enjoy it...
i have also found a joy in reading this book known to be painful by the bio teachers... the origin of species... yes... it is a very interesting book to read and it also respark my reading craze that died when i finish reading the dan brown books... but now there is a new way of reading the book... i have downloaded the soft copy into my com and have transferred it onto my DS and i can now read the origin of species on my DS...hahahaha...
i am still under the spell of my beautiful being and i have not hurries to get out of it... surely this has got to be bad??? but i guess given my current state of being... having a pillar of support of sorts may be a good thing... how i and at the edge now is kinda freaky that i'm still going on...
i myself cannot believe how small my existence is now... i wonder if anyone is scared of being forgotten??? scared of being alone when around people... but even if i make my cries out to the world, none will hear me out, because my flame is too small or maybe cause there is someone who outshines my flame... every time i see the golden rule of humans being in play... what i can do to you, you cannot do it to me... if i can make you feel bad, you cannot do the same back... its as if the world is just taking everything away from me one by one... leaving nothing but the emptyness in life...
its as if he is out to get me... taking away and forcing his through my life... but i have no one to go to but him and yet its not any better... its the devil or the deep blue sea...
his flame out shines mine, to be seen from afar,
much like the sun overpowering the stars.
only when gone does he no long deny,
like the sun, when little stars shine.
died at
21:44
