Saturday, March 29, 2008
haven't posted for a long time... these few days have been hellish for me... too many things going wrong and too many thing to do... but i somehow found the will to blog...
few days ago, i had a dream that compiled me to write 32 lines for her... i may not even know who "her" is but somehow i wanted to write it... enjoy...
you are one who changed the way i think,
is it you whom i see in my dreams?
you are a fine lady,fragile and fair,
being without you is a feeling i cannot bare.
sometimes when
i'm in darkest night,
i look to you to find the light.
sometimes when
i'm in pain,
i look to you and
i'm fine again.
i have watched
silently for some time,
wishing that all will be fine.
i wish to help you as much as i can,
for you i will become a gentleman.
talking to you is great,
a feeling nothing can fake.
being with you time
flies,
i dread the moment i must wave goodbye.
watching you there by yourself,
how i wish i can
accompany you with myself.
watching your back as you walk away,
how i would like to walk by your side, if you may.
maybe
i'm too rush,
make
i'm not trying hard enough.
whatever the case may be,
i hope that you do not hate me.
even if nothing is happening today,
i sometimes hope that the is a way.
all i can do now is to look to tomorrow,
and wish that it bares no more sorrows.
the few hours i spent with her,
are surely time i will treasure.
we have few in common, sad to say,
but friends i hope to be, everyday.
too many things have got wrong these weeks that i have given up on accounting them... i just hope that the following days will be better... hope is strong word to use here... for i am really just living each day as it is...
died at
23:26
Saturday, March 15, 2008
looking back on the one week break, i found out that i haven't done anything other than fencing related stuff... Friday, we had a J2 fencing camp with guest visit by our seniors... damn long day... 8am to 8pm and dinner after than in town...
14th march
J2 fencing camp... ya... non stop fencing from dawn till dusk... not really... i woke up at 0600 and got ready to go the school... left home at 0700 and got to school at 0740... the 132 came faster than i thought... wait outside the fencing room till 0815 for Kain and the girls to arrive and open the door...
i waited till 0900 or around that time before i had the mood to fence... i started fencing with Jessica, than Clarabelle, Novielene, Sam and Kain... all were 15 point matches... IN A ROW... hahaha... i was damn tired after that... and it wasn't even lunch time yet... soon we went down for "breakfast" at 1100 and sat down and rest awhile before going back up to the fencing room to fence again...
some seniors came down and we had a hell of fun fencing each other... soon we were all hungry and the girls ordered Macs... damn if i had known that the canteen was closed than i would have ordered with them... but... i was my own fault to be too concern about money matters...haha... in the end i just walked backed to the coffee shop downhill from BHSS to have some food before walking back...
if memory serves me right, i fenced Joseph, Kai wen and master today... i loss every one of the matches but hack... it was damn fun fencing with them... one learns so many new things from it... also, we were treated to the full range of tricks, marry making and fun from the seniors from their fencing...
we went for dinner in town after the whole event at 2000... when we got there, we wanted to go to food republic, but no sits there.... so change plans, to go some noodle place with overly priced food... soon, the J2s decided to walk to some food court near DB to the dinner... it was quite a long walk, and we had to carry all our gear along with us... but when we got there, the sight of a near empty food court was damn nice... we hurried to placed our bags down and get some food... most of us got Korean food that was damn filling for $6.50... Jason and i helped clear the leftovers from the girls who could finish their meals... we talked till 2200 when the seniors wanted to meet up at Starbucks and slip little cups of coffee... Jessica, Novielene, Kain and i went home rather than join the seniors cause we were damn tired... we walked to some bus stop and waited for our bus... i went home with Novielene again on 167... today, i did walk her up the path and saw her off near my house there...
i spent the remaining time of today saving all 91 of Jessica's pictures from the Malaysia trip... waiting for Kai wen to send me his and i can burn the whole lot into disc and pass to the girls...
now for the malaysia trip day 3
9th march
I set my alarm to go off at 0550 in the morning so we got an early start today... QY and i freshen up for the day and went down for breakfast... we were rather early today... breakfast started at 0630, we were down there at 0615... And, we were the only CJ people there until Morgan came down at 0645... Also to note, we were told to meet in the lobby with all our gear at 0715... Kai, kai wen, Bjorn, Jason and kain came down at 0700... Wow...
When we reached the hall, there wasn’t many people there yet and we were still rather tired... some rays of confident came from Bjoen with him announcing that we will win this because we have THE POWER [GGG references] and Bjoen [beyond]... that did lighted the mood for me... but the thought of fencing people who are god knows how many levels above you is damn bad...
My competition starts at 0900 and i suited up and got ready to fence by then... i was to fence in poll 1, right at the end of the hall... let me break down the people in my poll... there is the top Malaysian fencer, a nat HK fencer, the one who beat the HK fencer, the left hander, and noob and me... looking at the competition, i only had chance to beat the left hander or the noob... i did beat the noob... and loss to everyone else... but my matches against everyone else were small losses... 4/5, 3/5... but a must say, the matches were all fun...very fun... i still remember the screams of anger from the Malaysian fencer when i doubled him 3 times...haha... evil me...
Jason and Kain did better than me, 4 wins to 1 loss... kai and kai wen scored about the same as me... soon all our matches are over and we rested and waited for the results... i went to watch the sabre guys fence... QY did quite well for a guy who hasn’t fence for 2 months; he still managed to scores quite well in his poll...
The results were out at 1200 and i was ranked no 49... haiz... not a very good score... the guy i had to fence next is some bugger from i forgot where with nat fencer training... when i fenced him, the scores were going from a led back to a draw and back to a lead to a draw again... this lasted till the final min where he had a 2 point lead over me... at that point in time, i knew that i cannot catch up within a min and just decided to have fun and play around with him... at the start of the match, i charged right at him trying a move that Calvin taught me and worked on him before... haha... in my joking mood... i was having quite a lot of fun charging in at him like that but i still didn’t score any point or loss any... the final score was 10/8 to him...
Like me, the rest of the CJ fencers all got knocked out in their first DE matches... the only one left is kai who fought on till the top 16 where he faced the top Malaysian fencer who was in my poll... haiz... he loss but we had a damn fun time there... a lot of experience gained...
We planned to go out after the competition... meet in the lobby of the hotel at 1830 [i think] after we all bathe and freshen up... QY couldn’t follow us because his ankle problem caused him not to be able to walk around too much... we met in the lobby at 1830 and went off to some area filled with food stalls to have our dinner... it was a damn good dinner with fry ray, snails, prawns and clams... somehow my intake of food increased so much that i was cleaning up the plates of its leftovers... the rains came and hindered our plans to go china town... in the end we decided to go time square to do a little shopping... we walked to the huge shopping centre and reached the place at 2130... The centre closes at 2200... haha... 30mins of shopping... since i have nothing in mind to get, i just followed the girls around and “guarded” them from any danger that Malaysia may pose...we met up back at the star bucks at the main entrance and walked back to the hotel... we still didn’t want to sleep yet and so we went to a waffle shop and had waffles... Bjorn and 1 shared a double chocolate ice-cream waffle [hack how it will hurt my throat] we finished our waffle and waited for the girls to finish theirs... in the end, they could not do so and Bjorn and i had to eat their leftovers... after that, we returned to the hotel and watched a movie...
We went to Jason’s room to watch the movie using QY’s laptop... we were watching this Korean movie about some wishing stairs thing... it was supposed to be a horror movie but i found in less than that... the girls were screaming during the movie which made it kinda funny... but the funniest was kai wen covering him eyes during the movie and Bjorn hiding behind Sam halfway in the movie... haha... it ended at 3am and we returned to our rooms to sleep and get ready for the following day of nothingness while we waited to go home at 1800... Before that, we were free to do anything...
thats all for now...
the men epee fencers
singapore twin towers
the gang
Bjorn with THE POWER, behind Sam
22:17
Thursday, March 13, 2008
due the fact that i have really nothing to do now... i will blog about yesterday... a freaking long and tiring day
13th march
J1 fencing camp... i was there to help out... i woke up at 0600 to get ready to go to school... when i got there... it was around 0740... we were told to meet at 0800...so yeah... bit early... but, till 0810... no one came yet... and the other J2s didn't come till 0815...
the plan for morning is to have PT till 1200 and break for lunch... the J2s other than Jason, Kain and Sonia joined in with the J1s to play some ice breakers...some old but yet fun games later... we were to start some basic footwork training... if we had that kind of training every training, than by may we will have rock hard legs... so that gives a idea of how tough the training was...
running and push ups came after that... first, the guys were to assume the push up position while the girls run one round around the track... and when they returned[quite a while later] we were to do 10 push ups... than it was the guys turn to run around the track while the girls assume the push up position... we ran faster so the girls didn't have to hold the position for so long... we did this 4 times, but the each time we were doing more pull ups and harder ver of push ups...
after that, we went into real fencing training... the basics that all J1s must know... i joined in to teach the J1s and to help them if they needed any... lunch followed after that
after lunch, the J1s were given the chance to fence in full gear... we had to lent them our suits and blades so that we can watch how they fence and those see who remains in fencing and who has to leave... the girls were to fence first while the guys were to have training under the teacher...i was to judge the matches and teach them how the game works... my blade is one of the blades that was in hot demand... cause its the ONLY french grip in the room... but it was heart pain when the GIRLS were poking so hard with my blade such that it was bending upwards[like all other blade that was used that day] my heart cries out for my blade every time it got hit... but i spotted some rather good female fencers and hope that they can remain in fencing and develop their skills... the guys came and fence after that... same thing... but the guys were ALOT less rough when it comes to using of blades... but one blade did have its wire cut...haiz...
dinner was pizza.. at 1800... the camp ended at 1700 but many stayed back to fence[so nice of them]... we fenced till 2000 before going off to town with mr.tan and some of the J1s and had tea at wheelock place... i took 167 home with Novielene and Victor... Victor got off 2 stops later... Novielene and i went on to some prata place there where we got off... it was not far from where we stay but her father was coming to fetch her from that bus stop... i bid she farewell and walked home in the dark protecting myself with my blade... in the end, i think i got home faster than her...haha...
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stupid, where is the john bull i strive to be?
how can i leave her behind me?
i must set some rule,
and follow them in what even i do.
that's all for today... still got another fencing camp for the J2s on Friday...yay... my full body pain is still gonna get worse... i'm so happy...
now for what happen during the fencing trip to Malaysia... day 2
8th march
[spelling of names may be wrong]
I set my alarm to go off at 0600... but, Morgan called and woke us up at 0557, and the morning call service called at 0559... THAN my alarm went off...haha... QY and i bathe before going down to the 2nd floor to have breakfast... its a classic hotel breakfast... we were told that the guys could go back and rest till 1000 where we were to meet in the lobby to make our way to the venue of the competition, Olympic hotel...
QY and i returned to watch anime till 1000 while Morgan played QY’s PSP in the room... when we met at the lobby, some were late... so we decided to go off in 2 groups... i followed Jason, Kain and Bjorn and took a taxi to the hotel... total trip fare...RM5... which is bout $2.50...lol... Singapore meter starting price...
The girls have not started fencing yet... but Joseph, victor and JJ have already started their men foil round robins... from the looks of it, they were up against very tough people... JJ won only one match in the poll and the others i dunno... soon the girls started fencing and those they were fencing were net fencers, it is no douth that most of they loss most of their matches... and i don’t blame them... even i can’t even hope to beat those FEMALE fencers[not that i’m sexist or anything but female fencers are generally weaker] the only one that did alright was Sam... she got a few wins in her poll... but those that made it through, grace, Sam and Anabelle, none got through their first DE... so yeah...
QY and i went to cheer Joseph on... even though my voice is dead-ish, i still cheered for him... he made it through his first DE and we were hoping that he could go further... but sadly he didn’t go any further... he lost against a nat fencer... we went back to the hotel after that... QY, me, Joseph, Kay and Kai wen...
We went to a shopping center next to our hotel after returning while waiting for Joseph to bath before going for dinner... i tried to buy an apple... but it seem that i need a price tag on the apple before i can buy it... o.O... we met back at the hotel and went off to get dinner... Joseph showed us this restron called naab where we could get good erande food... we were joined by an FM/ex CJ fencer call Ming how [spelling maybe wrong]...it was a short walk away from the hotel and we ate a good dinner... it was damn filling... one big bowl of rice and lamb meat for me... can compare to MY chicken cutlet at RP... we went around to walk aimless for 2 hours[i kid you not] after that following Joseph and ka wen through the different shopping centers around the area...
We returned at 2200 to get orders for tomorrow... men epee and men saber... before going up to sleep... but before that, Bjorn came up to our room to pass us Kain’s and QY’s PSP for charging[long story] and cause Jason, Kain and the epee girls having some meeting in his room, 614... he was ether-ing on QY’s laptop... super fun game... he left at 2320 and we went to sleep and got ready for tomorrow... QY’s and my big day...
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i watch those that others don't,
for i know what its like to fight alone.
is it better to be with you at the end,
or watching from the back from from the start to the end?
pictures from day 2
the epee fencers
joseph fencing... in blue
died at
12:26
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
i'm back from fencing in malysia...
i returned this moring at 1 am... got home at 2am...mom came and fetch me...once again... she is the best mom even...
thinking back on the trip...omg... i had so much fun... but at a price.. my vioce is dead again... and this time i feel it might take longer to heal... maybe an apple is not enough anymore...
i'm gotten post each days events here for all to read... plus pictures taken...haha... enjoy
7th march
bio paper today... hopefully my best paper... but... dunno lah... after that... at last ALL the papers are over and i can truely enjoy my hoilday and trip to malaysia and get my ass handed over to the fencers there... also got back my A' level chinese results... watching everyone jumoing for joy at their As and Bs...some Cs and Ds... i can only stand there and wait for my results... i was not expecting anything more than a U, and a U is what i got... but i'm alright with it... what i'm not alright with is that there are those who passed and need not worry about this stupid subject anymore and are sobbing in one corner crying about their Bs and Cs when they could have gotten an A... what the hell... the U grader is here alright with his results and those that got higher than him are unhappy with their's... wonderful... so should i go kill myself cause of the U???
but after that crap... i met up with QY and the other fencers and got ready to leave for malaysia... we left at 1400 and got to singapore customs at 1530 after a detour to pick up some FM fencers... i am not gonna write about the 6 hour trip there but it was rather boring... STUPID SRW STAGE... i'm stuck there for the WHOLE trip... on the way we saw a rainbow... and the girls all gathered that that side of the bus to look at this rainbow... but i have to say lah... it was a nice big rainbow... quite beautiful... when we finally got to the hotel at KL... it was around 2100...
we got into the hotel and got our rooms... bit of a problem there cause of some of their room mates... my room mate was QY and a J1 Bjorn... but in the end... we switch room with Joson and Kain who got a 2 man room... so its just me and QY in room 1314... sadly, Morgon couldn't room with us... haiz...there goes most of the fun... we met at the lobby at 2130 for dinner and stuff...
when we came back, Morgon and Joseph came to our room and jam... yeah... Morgon rocks with the guitar... while thats going on... QY and i were watching anime on his laptop... it went on till 0100 in the morning when we chased them out and went to sleep... tomrrow we need to wake up at 0600 to eat breakfast and later go support the girls when they fence...
thats it for day one...
tomorrow i still have to go for fencing camp with the J1s... haha... time to have more fun...
you cry there when you pass,
while i have sorrow to mask.
what right do you have to cry?
when i'm alright with mine...
here are pictures i took on the first day... but its from my phone's cam... so not really good pictures
at the pit stop on our way there
the rainbow...
died at
22:43
Thursday, March 6, 2008
so many a day i have not blog...
due to the constant mugging for a useless cause...
how i wish there wasn't common test...
how i wish i was not in this mess...
well today i am still mugging... even thought my best paper is tomorrow and i have to go off to malaysia tomorrow... thanks to all who wished me all the best...haha... today i went to mug with joash, joanne and menvil at RP... interesting choice for a place to mug but its really good there... the library there has NO evil feel to it... it not a library i tell you... its an entertainment center...
studied bio today... went through all the topics tested during the 6 hours spent there freezing in the library... lucky i brought my jacket there... if not is really freeze to death already...
we met at 12 at the RP busstop... as per normal...i got there early... like 20mins early... cause i misjudged the time it took for 169 to get there from my house... well... its better to be early than late... joanne came soon after... and we met up with joash in the foodcourt... it seem that he was there at 1000... LOL... he really loves the place... had lunch there... omg... the chicken chop there is damn big as compared to school's one... and the price about the same as well...went to the library after that... study and study and even more studying... we were blessed with a person playing the panio nearby...haha... what wonderful conditions to study in...
we when for a break at 1600... tour the area around the library... wth... the library has a games room with an Xbox 360[please fix me] and 2 pool tables... what kind of library is that??? erally went round the area oing up and downnn the building... went back to study after a 30min break... the library closes at 1730 and we left to study in the canteen before have dinner there...
westen food again... joash, joanne and i ordered the chicken culiet... o.O... they gave me the smallest piese of chicken amoung the 3 of us... thanks joash and joanne for giving me a slice of their chicken to even out the 3 pieces... but now... abit too much ah... juat a bit... in the end i finished the chicken after a very long while... joash's and my next plans... wear something for racial harmany day...lol... see if i can find any nice japanese worrior clothing and i wear...lol
went to crossway point with joanne to get long socks for the fencing compeition tomorrow... haiz... scared i wear my pld green ones they don't allow... when home via MRT change 138...
got home and started packing my clothing and stuff for tomorrow... managed to stuff 4 days worth of clothing into a bug WITH my fencing equippment...nice... watched HELLSING OVA 4 after that... i study bio tomorrow morning...lol... no mood to study now... HELLSING 4 is the same old over ownage and the unkillable Alucard... evil show... maybe might respark my sadistic life...
well, i'll be back on the 10th of march... gonna miss my grandparents' birthday...haiz...
died at
22:16
